A\N: I'm kind of sneaking this. However, it's all for the cause of my sanity, so it's worth it!

KIM

Kat's cute.

Grr. I did not just think that. Again.

I curl up on my bed around Pumpkin The Stuffed Unicorn. I hate thinking about that kinda stuff. I mean, I like boys. So I'm not...lesbian.

So I don't like Kat. Not like that. She's just a freind. My best freind, except for Trini, 'cause I've known her since about forever, but really, Kat's kinda my other best freind because she's just so cool and I've been waiting about forever to talk to another girl who can't quote me or finish my sentences.

I'm rambling.

I flop on my back. Last time I rambled like that, even mentally, was when I was falling for Tommy. It's like I can't stop thinking when I've noticed a cute guy.

I don't want Kat to be my cute guy. I want her to be my best freind, and my parents to be happy, and my world to be perfect again. I want to be in love with Tommy. My parents like him, I like him, he has a touch of mystery and danger, and he's really, really hot.

But so's Kat.

Why do I keep thinking that? Arrgg!! I wanna think about Tommy! Tommy's hot, Tommy's nice, and Tommy's a boy! I'm not some mental paitant or something, I don't need to think of girls like that.

I pick up the phone. Calling Tommy would be really nice right now. Then I can hear his voice and wish he were here and everything'll go back to normal.

"Hi, Kim. What's up?"

"Just wanted to talk, Handsome." Much, much better. Hot guy. Guys are hot. Not girls. I'm not a freak, I don't like girls, guys are hot.

"Kay. You wanna come hang at my house? My uncle said that since I'm either not sleeping with you or good enough to hide it--his words--he doesn't mind if you guys come over. I was about to call you, actually."

Mmm. Spending a night near Tommy. Yes, good. "Definitly. Why does your uncle think we're doing it?"

"I have no clue. I wish we were..." I can almost hear him blushing. "Uhh, forget I said that. Sorry."

I snicker. "I think my parents would freak if I got pregnant."

"We could use a--"

"Nope." I cut him off before he says anything.

"Damn." Tommy says playfully. "Wanna come hang out anyway? No sex, I promise."

"Tommy!" He did not just say that over the phone. "For crying out loud, quit being gross. Sure, I'm coming. See you soon!"

I hang up the phone.

Now I'm better.

I pack, head out after pecking Mom on the cheek, and relax. Everything's better now. All better...

"Hi, Kim."

I freeze up instantly. Kat's talking to me. To me.

What's wrong with me? I don't like girls. I like guys! "Hi, Kat. What's up?"

"Oh, I just thought I'd see the neighborhood." Kat says with a smile. She's so...amazing, all calm and perfect. "What about you? Sleepover?"

"Yeah. At Tommy's house." I'm in love with Tommy. I like Tommy. Not Kat. Kat's just my freind.

"Oh, too bad." She says, smiling. "I was gonna ask if you wanted to come over. Oh, well, I guess Tommy's cuter." She giggles at my blush. "You're bright red, you know."

"I, uh..." I glance at my wrist, which is devoid of working watches. (Billy forgot to make our communicators actually work as watches.) "Oh, dang, I'm late. See you later, Kat!"

"Bye, darling!"

Darling? I roll my eyes.

I don't like girls. And Kat's just my freind.

Nothing else.