Just something small I had to write after I fell in love with a new song.
I don't own House M.D nor the beautiful song Someday You Will Be Loved by Death Cab For Cutie.
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Someday You Will Be Loved-
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'You live under the delusion that you can fix everything that isn't perfect. That's why you married a man who was dying of cancer. You don't love. You need. And now that your husband is dead, you're looking for your new charity case. That's why your going out with me. I'm twice your age, I'm not great looking, I'm not charming, I'm not even nice. What I am, is what you need. I'm damaged.'
Cameron smiled gently at House's ramblings.
"Right. If that's what you want to think", she told him.
House sighed, "You see the world as one big fairy tale and the sooner you realise everything doesn't have a happily ever after the better".
Cameron continued to smile, and this began to frustrate House.
"Look", he leaned forward, "I'm not your Prince Charming"
Cameron just smiled wistfully, "You don't know that".
House nodded, "Oh, but I do".
"See the cane?", he waved his third leg in the air, "It comes with the bum leg. Makes getting on and off my noble stead impossible".
Cameron laughed, "You still manage to ride your motor bike"
House shrugged, "It's a metaphor".
Cameron shook her head, "How do you know you don't like me if you won't let yourself?"
"I just do", House retaliated.
"But you might love me", Cameron contradicted.
"Cameron, someday you will be loved", House told her apathetically, "But that day is not today".
Cameron shrugged, "You don't know that. Just let yourself".
House shook his head, "No. cause you would fall even more in love with me and I still wouldn't love you".
"You can't stop yourself from falling in love", Cameron protested.
"You can't force yourself either", House told her quietly.
Cameron sobered at his words.
They sat in silence for a few moments, fiddling with napkins and sipping their drinks.
After a while Cameron broke the solitude.
"Could you try?"
House looked up at her tear filled words which begged for love.
Looking into her eyes he peered into her soul.
"No", he said simply.
Cameron's heart broke neatly in two.
"Why not?", she whispered
"Because", House said almost sympathetically, "I'm not him. I'm not your 'one' ".
Cameron shook her head and let a few tears trickle down her cheeks, "You don't know that. You don't! you won't let yourself find out!".
It was House's turn to be calm and smile wistfully, "Trust me, Cameron. One day you'll find someone who will love you as much as you deserve but I can't give you that".
Cameron nodded and wiped her eyes.
"Right", she said stiffly.
They sat awkwardly through dinner and Cameron sat silently in the car as House drove her home.
As they reached her apartment, Cameron opened the door before the car even stopped.
"Cameron".
She turned to look at him.
"Will you be in to work tomorrow?", House asked.
Cameron nodded, "Of course".
House nodded in return, "OK. By the way I really am sorry".
Looking into his eyes she peered into his soul.
He was telling the truth.
He was sorry he couldn't love her but he wouldn't regret it.
Cameron fell asleep that night singing a song over and over in her mind.
As she slept she dreamt she was sitting on a huge double bed with her heart broken in two in her hands.
As the tears that fell from her eyes burned her heart that she held in her hands she sewed it together again.
Once it was done she wiped away her tears and waited for the next time it needed fixing.
Waiting for the next time House would break it.
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I cannot pretend that I felt any regret
Cause each broken heart will eventually mend
As the blood runs red down the needle and thread
Someday you will be loved
You may feel alone when you're falling asleep
And every time tears roll down your cheeks
But I know your heart belongs to someone you've yet to meet
Someday you will be loved
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FINISHED
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