My first Glee fanfic, so please bare with me

I do not own ANYTHING except for the story line... where is that box of Kleenex?

Setting: At a New Direction's party at Matt's house. A month after the "Another one bites the dust" debacle.

His heart was pounding. Actually pounding. There she was, in all her beauty; she had to look stunning, didn't she, that really does help. He knew that if he didn't get it all over and done with in the next 5 minutes he would chicken out.
"Deep breath St. James. Deep breath. "He murmured to himself whilst he headed straight for the stunning brunette in her "little black dress" and looking ...well... stunning. He grabbed her arm.

"J... Jesse" stammered the stunned girl "What are you doing here; actually no, what the fuck are you doing here?"

"Rach, I just need to tell you something before I leave, and you have to listen to me. I know, after what I did, you shouldn't even be letting me breath the same air as you, let alone listen to what I have to say; but please I am begging you, do not interrupt me."
She stared at him, wide-eyed. She was just about to complain but his eyes pleaded her, so she hesitantly nodded.

"I know what I did to you was disgusting and hell is filled with people like me, but you need to know and understand how bad I feel; not just bad I genuinely feel as if I have murdered someone, and by doing what I did I have realised I have murdered what we have, the passion, the love we had for each other which, to me, is worse than killing an actual person. I really want you to understand how utterly effed up I know I am for mucking all this up; and the stupid thing is I only realised how important you are and how much you mean to me that second after I cracked that egg. Only then did I realise that I really did mean it, the night I told you that I love you and I should have not broke your heart just for another regional's title."

She winced at the memory; but the reason didn't seem outrageous when she thought about it. She would have done the same, not as cruelly, but in essence she would have done the same and that fact made it all worse.

"I was so, so, so stupid for doing that. I do not expect you to forgive me and I truly do understand how annoyed you are with me and I definitely did deserve all the verbal abuse, the blanking treatment and being beaten up by Finn and Puck, in fact you should have spat on me afterwards. But I want you to know... I love you, Rachel Berry, with all my heart and soul. Remember that as I beg for your forgiveness, which I don't deserve; yet long for. Look I am leaving for LA tonight. My flight's in an hour and a half. I had a chance with you. I blew it. I have been kicking myself everyday since the incident for doing so. But now I am leaving. I love you Rachel Berry. Never doubt it. "

And with a last wistful stare into her eyes, that broke her heart, he was gone. Everyone was whispering behind her, Finn came rushing to her side, Quinn hugged her sympathetically but she didn't take any of it in. Everything in the background was a blur. She just stood there, gripping her soda cup.

No. He did not have the right to do this to her. He does not get to make her feel the tiniest but guilty. No, he can't do that. Not after all the crap he's already put her through; and he definitely does not get off so easily. She won't forgive him. She won't fell anything for him. She won't love him back.

Then why was she rushing out the doors to the airport?

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