April Rain Showers

Eren hummed happily as he made his way back to the apartment his boyfriend Levi and himself shared, he was just grabbing a few groceries while his boyfriend was at work. Most times he would just sit around the house, bored out of his mind, waiting for his lover to come home; but today was such a beautiful and sunny day Eren couldn't think of possibly wasting it indoors.

Eren yelped as he felt someone bump into him rather harshly, making him drop the bags he was carrying. He turned around, ready to give the stupid jerk that was walking away from him a piece of his mind, but instead groaned in pain and held his side in pain. He hissed out a quiet curse, before slowly picking up the fallen bags and resuming his trek home, ignoring the pain as best as he could.

Eren sighed, lately he hasn't been feeling well and his boyfriend was beginning to notice no matter how hard Eren tried to hide his symptoms. Before it was easier to hide the pain and the tiredness, but as time went on the pain began to increase along with the fatigue. He also hasn't been eating very much lately, which really caught his boyfriend's attention. Eren was known to have a humongous appetite, especially when it came to Levi's cooking, god did that man know how to cook. But nowadays even Levi's cooking didn't seem to have any affect.

He felt relieved when their apartment came into view, all he wanted to do now was curl up on the couch and fall asleep in hopes of ridding himself of this pain. He could hear children playing on the new playground near the apartment, Eren thought it was a nice addition while Levi thought it was rather annoying. He thought back to the conversation they had this morning when they could clearly hear the sound of screaming children outside their window.

"God damn kids, it's like 7am, don't they know some people may still be sleeping," Levi said irritably, his eye twitching rapidly at his irritation.

"They're not that loud Levi, you just have sensitive ears. Besides I'd rather have them outside screaming and breaking shit than inside, screaming and breaking shit," the brunette replied with a yawn, walking into the dining room with a cup of coffee in his hand.

Levi sighed and looked at his boyfriend with concern," They were loud enough to wake you up..."

Eren rolled his eyes at his boyfriend's concern,"I'm fine Levi, if I need to I can just take a nap later on in the day."

"Eren you're not fine, even with a decent amount of sleep you take almost two naps a day, you have not been eating properly and when you think I'm not paying attention I've seen you hold on to your side like you're in pain," Levi replied before continuing,"Honestly how long has it been, 6 months? I think you should see a doctor."

"Levi, I already told you it's just stress from work, nothing to worry about. I don't need to see a doctor and the pain isn't that bad," the brunette retorted stubbornly.

"Stress or not, I still think you should see a doctor to at least get your side checked out."

"But Levi-"

"No buts, in fact I'm going to arrange an appointment for you right now with Erwin," Levi said in his "nothing you can say will make me change my mind" tone before taking out his cellphone.

Erwin was one of Levi's friend's who was conviently a doctor, because of his past Levi never really trusted doctors except one and that was Erwin. Whenever something happened he'd always call Erwin, whether it was because of health issues like now or if he needed relationship advice. Eren pushed his coffee aside to lay his head down on the table, his appetite now lost and his side beginning to ache.

After a few moments of talking on his cellphone Levi flipped it closed with a snap and returned it to his pocket. He returned his attention back to his lover who was poorly hiding how miserable his felt. Levi ran a hand through his hair and sighed, glancing at the clock to notice that he had to leave for work. He got up slowly, wincing in annoyance at the loud squeak the chair made as it scraped against the tile floor.

Eren slowly sat up to face his boyfriend sadness and a little bit of annoyance could be traced in his eyes. Levi bent down to give his lover a quick kiss on the lips before saying,"You're appointment is set up for tomorrow morning, I don't want you to go anywhere today, do you hear me? I want you to stay here and rest, if you need it there is pain medication in the medicine cabinet in the bathroom. I'll be back soon. I love you, try to eat something while I'm gone okay?"

Eren sighed defeatedly before replying with a quiet,"Okay, love you to, be careful."

The brunnette approached the door that led into the lobby area of their apartment, he felt guilty for making Levi worry and he really didn't want to go to that appointment tomorrow. He had a bad feeling that there would be something actually wrong with him, something bad. He approached the white, boring looking door with the number of the apartment the two men shared. He unlocked it before opening door, flicking the light switch on with elbow and kicking the door shut as gently as he could. He quickly set down the bags on the kitchen counter before slipping off his tennis shoes and putting the groceries away.

After he finished putting away the groceries he decided now seemed like a wonderful time to take a nap, even if there were screaming, obnoxious kids outside of his window. He grabbed a blue, fluffy blanket from behind the couch and slowly laid down on the couch, draping the blanket over his body. He sighed and nuzzled in the fluffy warmth, and instantly felt himself drift off into unconsciousness.

~Dream

He opened his eyes, vision blurry, he was on a bed, in a white room. There were a bunch of tubes hooked up to him, some machine was rhythmically beeping. He slowly turned his head to his right side to see a window portraying a depressing, gray sky. It looked about ready to rain. Then he heard the crying. He painfully and slowly turned his head to his left side and was met with a door opened just enough to see a man in a white coat who was holding a clipboard, his other hand resting upon a crying man's shoulder. The man crying had raven-black hair and wore a black trench coat. It was Levi. Levi was crying.

"I'm sorry Levi, there's nothing more we can do, all we can do is make him as comfortable as we can," the doctor replied.

"I don't want him to be comfortable, I want him to be better god dammit! You're a doctor, you're supposed to know what to do! You said there was nothing to worry about, you said he was going to get through this, you lied!" Levi shouted, smacking the man's hand away from his shoulder in disgust.

"Sir, you need to calm down there are patients sleeping, especially Eren," the doctor replied calmly. His voice was deep and he had blonde hair and blue eyes. A nurse approached the two men, his hand on Levi's shoulder in an attempt to calm him.

"He's right you know," the nurse replied weakly also blonde with blue eyes.

"How do you expect me to calm down!? My husband is dying in there and you expect me to calm down!?" Levi continued.

"Sir, please come with me, I'm sorry but we can't have you shouting when the patients are resting," the nurse said, using his full strength to pull the hysterical man away.

Eren felt his breathing quicken, he was dying? He couldn't be dying. He was fine, wasn't he? This was just a dream right? He opened his mouth to call out to Levi, tears blurring up his vision even further, there was something on his mouth blocking his words. In irritation he reached up with his hand and took the stupid mask off his face. He needed to speak to Levi, he needed to let him know that he wasn't dying. In the process of removing the oxygen mask he unhooked himself from one of the tubes, causing a machine to beep loudly.

The doctor standing outside the door immediately ran into his room in great haste, putting a hand on his chest to push him gently back down onto the bed, it was Erwin. He was saying something but Eren was in hysterics and gasping for air. He felt tears roll down his face like tiny water falls, he crying out Levi's name as loud as he could, feeling more tears burn his eyes as he heard how broken and weak his voice was.

He cried out in frustration as he felt the mask being placed on his face once again, keeping his words locked away from Levi. He needed to tell him how much he loved him, and how he wasn't going anywhere, he had to comfort him. He tried to struggle once more, his body too weak to fight off Erwin's strong grasp on his arms. He felt something poke into his shoulder. A shot...a sedative? He looked into Erwin's eyes, pleading for him not to take his Levi away, pleading for him to do something, anything that's going to keep him right by Levi's side. Erwin's eyes reflected guilt and grief.

His vision was going black, but before he lost consciousness completely he heard a desperate cry ring out. It was Levi. Levi was calling out to him. "Ereeeennn!"

Eren gasped and bolted upright and at attention. His eyes wide and wild with fear, he looked around at his surroundings, letting out a sigh once he realized it was just a dream. He ran a shaking hand through his tangled hair, feeling his heart pound hard against his chest. He was alive. He wasn't in the hospital. He was on the couch, he was in their apartment. Everything was fine. Everything was fine...

He felt his eyes begin to burn with tears and his body begin to shake harder with sobs. He wished Levi was home, he always knew how to comfort him after a nightmare, especially a nightmare such as this one. He wrapped his arms around himself and curled up into a small ball on the couch. He gave himself a few minutes to cry before he tried pulling himself together. It was just a dream after all. It wasn't real, no need to cry over it right?

After he felt like he was in control again he uncurled himself from his position and stood up, pulling the blanket around his shivering and aching body. He felt disappointed that his nap did no good to chase away his side ache, in fact it seemed to make him feel worse. He took his cellphone out of his pocket to check the time, Levi would be home in a couple of a hours. With that thought the brunette decided to cook some dinner for Levi, he didn't really feel hungry at the moment.

Eren heard the door open and closed, with a soft smile Eren turned around to see a very tired Levi, back from work. The brunette was watching the news while waiting for the man to come home, with dinner already made.

Levi strolled over to his boyfriend, giving him a chaste kiss before smiling tiredly and saying with a growl of his stomach,"Mmmm..it smells good in here..."

Eren laughed and smiled up at his boyfriend,"I made you dinner it's in the microwave..."

With that being sad Levi walked off almost in a daze to the kitchen, returning quickly with said dinner, Levi plopped down on the couch beside his lover. With a concerned look he looked over to his boyfriend,"Did you eat anything yet?"

"Of course, I ate before you got here," Eren lied through his teeth, hoping Levi would just accept it. But of course...he didn't. Eren was a very poor liar.

With a stern look Levi replied,"Go get yourself some dinner, and no buts either. The only but I should acknowledge is your ass going to the kitchen to get something to eat."

Eren rolled his eyes and begrudgingly got off the couch to go get himself some food. After returning to the couch he caught the relieved smile Levi now wore.

"So how was your day?" he asked, propping his feet up on his boyfriend's legs once he sat down.

Eren huffed in fake annoyance before lying once again,"Pretty boring." He didn't want to tell Levi just how "exciting" it really was. He suppressed a shiver at his dream before faking a serene smile and asking,"How was your day at work?"

"Fucking annoying. The customers seemed more bat shit crazy then usual," Levi scoffed

Eren giggled a little at that,"They were probably bat shit crazy about you're cooking."

Levi worked as the head chef at the fancy restaurant called Wall Rose, and when he wasn't working he was an author. Eren on the other hand worked part time at his mother's flower shop and part time as a nurse where his father worked. Even with their combined income they decided to just live in a apartment, it was perfect for a couple anyways, although Eren hoped that one day they would decide on buying a house...when they hopefully thought of starting a family.

Eren quickly finished off his dinner, pushing his boyfriend's legs off his lap much to Levi's disappointment, and grabbed the other's dish to wash. Levi watched as Eren exited the room, staring at the other male's perfect ass. Eren smiled flirtatiously, noticing Levi staring and made a tiny show of swaying his hips more before he left the room.

"That brat is going to get it," Levi mumbled to himself, turning his attention back towards the tv which was spouting about some guy that tried to rob a gas station in the next town over.

With a sigh Eren returned, plopping down on the couch to which Levi immediately propped his feet up on his lover's legs, much to the others annoyance.

"Ugh, Levi your feet stink," Eren complained shoving the raven-haired man's feet off his legs again.

"You weren't complaining before," Levi replied before propping his feet up once again.

Eren rolled his eyes and gave Levi a look that said "seriously dude?"

Levi gave him a blank look before shoving his foot in Eren's face childishly. Eren jumped back a little in disgust before trying to push the other's foot away,"Oh my god Levi seriously? Gross!"

Levi chuckled and waved his foot in front of the other's face a few times before stopping completely and instead scooted closer to the other to wrap the other in his arms. Eren sighed and rested his head on the other's shoulder, closing his eyes in content.

"Are you sure nothing else happened today? You seem a lot more bothered then usual..." Levi said after a few moments of almost silence, except for the noise of the tv.

"Well...I did have this weird dream...but it doesn't matter" Eren said, not really wanting to discuss the subject.

"Was it about Jean again?" Levi asked in slight annoyance.

"N-No, and come on that was one time! I-I was in the hospital I guess...you were crying and were talking to Erwin about me dying. It was so...just freaky," Eren replied, just willing to say what basically happened.

Levi frowned in concern and deep thought before shrugging. With a light sigh he said,"It's probably just you're brain freaking out about your appointment tomorrow. If you want I could come with you, I have tomorrow off after all."

"Yeah I sort of thought so to...I'd probably feel a lot better if you were there with me," Eren replied shakily, feeling his eyes start to burn with tears again,"It was just so...scary...you looked so scared...it seemed so real."

Levi's eye slightly widened at the sight of his love crying, he reached up with his hand to gently wipe away Eren's tears before kissing the brunnette on the lips,"It's going to be fine, besides you can't die, I forbid you to," he said before kissing him again.

Eren felt his face flush up slightly in embarrassment when he began to sniffle and sob again over something as stupid as this. Levi gently pulled the taller male toward him in an embrace, the brunette nuzzling his face into the raven's neck. Levi began to hum a random tune sounding strangely like September 5th by Kyte. Even though Levi was sure he was a sucky hummer let alone a singer it seemed to calm Eren down. In a few moments the male was peacefully asleep in Levi's arms. Levi sighed and nuzzled his face into the younger's hair, the scent of him relaxing the elder.

He wondered if that dream meant anything, if it did...well Levi didn't want to think about that. Levi didn't want to think about the mortality of his lover, yes, he knew everything and everyone died at one point, but he already suffered through many deaths. He didn't want to think about possibly suffering through this one...oh my god seriously? Why was he thinking about this right now? It was just a dream, people dreamt about themselves dying plenty of times right? It meant absolutely nothing.

Levi bit his lip when he heard the other whimper in his sleep, probably out of pain. He kissed the top of the brunnettes head before rubbing his back in what he hoped was comforting. He noted with concern that it seemed the other male has lost a bit of weight, he felt skinnier...he shook his head to clear away the thoughts. Now was not the time to think about death and what was wrong with Eren. They'd find out tomorrow right?

With that thought in mind, Levi quickly located the remote control and turned off the tv, before lifting the taller man in his arms and making the trek to their bedroom in hopes that maybe he'd get some sleep tonight. Levi usually never slept, although he did try to pretend for Eren's sake. As gently as he could, Levi laid Eren's body down on the bed before crawling in on the other side, and pulling the covers up over the two of them. God did he hope he'd fall asleep, he didn't want to think about anything anymore, he didn't want to think about his loved ones deaths anymore, he didn't want to imagine Eren dying anymore.

He quickly curled up next to the brunette's body which seemed oddly warm lately. He quickly pushed that thought aside and nuzzled his face into the other's back before closing his eyes. Thankfully in a few moments he felt himself drift off into unconsciousness.