How could he leave me? I thought he loved me. He knew I loved him. He didn't know everything though. Now I had to do it on my own. Of course I wasn't completely alone. I had the flock, but I didn't have Fang. The one I really needed. But he left me behind. I hoped he would come back. I needed him to. I couldn't do it alone.
He didn't know about it when he left. Didn't know the result of what we had done. I didn't tell him because I was afraid. I was scared he would leave me and he did leave, for what reason I don't know because I hadn't told him yet. The tought of facing it alone terrified me. I wanted our child to have both parents not one broken parent. A child deserved a parent who was whole not completely broken.
I found out a week before he left. I didn't know what made him leave. I hoped it wasn't me, but I couldn't be sure. Fang never told anyone what made him upset. Not even me and he supposedly loved me. I wish I knew.
"We all wish we knew, Max," said Angel. Oh, the powers of a mind reading teenager.
"Shouldn't you know? You're the one who can read minds," I shouted, anger rising up inside of me.
"He blocks me out. I don't know how. I really did try," she said sadly.
"I'm sorry sweetie. It's not your fault he left me behind, just a memory." I always got upset when I think about Fang leaving and you know me. I hate emotion. It just hurts too much. Like how Fang leaving hurt. He had left before and then he came back early, then keft again. Oh yeah, he's Mr. Predictable. I loved him though, more than anything. But he didn't seem to want to return the favor.
"Fang does love you, Max."
"No he doesn't. He left me."
"I'm sorry I left. I do love you, I just didn't want to hurt you. You know me, I'm not really good at the whole relationship thing."
"You would be if you didn't leave all the time." I turned to see Fang, his dark eyes looking back at me. His eyes trailed down to my abdomen, my secret. He just looked, didn't say anything. "I'm pregnant," I whispered.
"Is it...," he began.
"It's your's," I said and a look of guilt only I saw flashed upon his face. His beautiful face.
"Max, I'm so sorry. I didn't mean for it to happen like this. I wanted it to be special, planned."
"I'm not mad. I just want to know why. How could you leave me?"
"I don't know why. I'm so, so sorry. I know you shouldn't, but could you ever forgive me?" Tears have started coming to his eyes. This is rare for Fang, so I know he's really, really upset.
"Fang, I forgive you just please don't ever leave me again."
"I won't, I promise," he said and kissed me.