Hey guys I know some of you have been waiting for me to update this story for a while now…sorry for it taking so long. Work picked up so I havent had the time needed to write my first chapter/the second echapter to the original. Anyways thank you for support feel free to comment or shoot me a pm with any suggestions or constructive critism. Thanks to the previous author of the story Bswifty1997 for letting me takeover. I hope I due it the right justice

A Cry In The Right Direction

CH 1

As Shay held Lindsay on the bed realization dawned on the detective, she takes pride in being seen as a strong independent women that only needs herself. However everyone at firehouse 51 just witnessed her melt down. How could she have allowed everyone to see her like that, Shay especially. The fact that everyone including the beautiful emt witnessed her emotions so publically sent her into shut down mode and made her want to shut everyone out. So before she could lay in Shay's arms any longer and continue to cry she surprised the girl by abrubtly getting up to leave.

Severide silently watched as Lindsay made a quick and quiet exit avoiding the worried glances casted her way. He waited assuming Shay wouldn't be too far behind but when Erin drove away alone he set out to find the blonde.

Shay was lost in thought, holding her head in her hands contemplating what to do next. When she was in Erin's position she did her best to push anyone and everyone who tried getting her to talk. She was so focused on thoughts of helping the detective that she hadnt noticed Kelly take the seat beside her. Slowly looking up at him she failed to get any words out so instead of sitting in silence he set out to find what was wrong.

"Shay whats going on? Is everything okay with you…with Erin?"

" I don't know how to help her Kelly. What am I suppose to do?"

"Well that depends…whatd you do?"

Shay gave him a playful glare and shoved the bigger guy.

" Nothing jerk, why assume its my fault? I didn't do anything wrong, not to Lindsay. I wouldn't…"

" Well for one thing I know you Shay. Every time you get to close to a woman you get scared and push them away. Its your thing, its almost like ever since the thing with Clarice you don't get close to anyone. She kinda messed you up in that way."

Shay was shocked at Kelly's assumption. Yes she had feelings for the detective and shes pretty sure Erin likes her as well but due to the nature of the job but neither girl had addmited the fact to even eachother. She tried to tell an unbelieving Severide her and Lindsay were just friends and although he knew his friend enough to see her feelings for Erin he let it go. Sensing his friend may need some alone time he kissed the side of her head and made his exit.

Erin had been running for over an hour and she still had the image of him shooting himself stuck in her head. She closes her eyes and Shay pops into her thoughts. Shes torn, on one hand she should be happy because the girl was safe but fact is someone still took their own life right in front of her face so how can she be. She knows its not healthy to ignore things and pretending nothing happened but she hates feeling out of control. At this point Erin's no longer sure how far or how long she had been running for. She stops for a moment and everything in her being is telling her to go back. Go back and find Shay because truth is, she can help her. Aside from her romantic feelings for the blonde emt Erin knows Shays her one person…. The one person she can be vunerable in front of without worry and the only person she knows will understand all the emotions she is trying to process right now. She knew if she tried going through it alone she wouldn't be able to deal with it properly and it would most likely crush her. Looking around she noticed a tall mad in a dark hoodie walking down the street towards her direction. She looked around and relized she had entered a heavily populated gang area.

Shay had been trying to call Erin but to no avail. So in favor of sitting around doing nothing she was cleaning and organizing the ambo. As she was doing the inventory Dawson came running out telling her they had a call. Seconds later the call came over the speakers. It seems as though an officer had been wounded in pursuit of a suspicious suspect. Shay jumped into the passenger seat and they set off as a dreadfull feeling settled into the blondes stomach.