Wow she was looking breathtaking. Her beautiful midnight hair covering the sides of her face so I can barely see the outline of her jaw. Electric sensations running ramped through my skin as I watch her lips part mouthing the words she was reading from the whiteboard. It was only math that I had with her but I always find myself checking her out after our playful kiss we gave each other a couple weeks ago while making fun of a Girls Gone Wild commercial that came on. Oh god how I wish that kiss would last.
"Sam. Sam." A female's voice calls.
I snap out of my day dream and notice that Mrs. Ryder, my math teacher, was waiting for me to answer.
"Yes Mrs. Ryder." I answer nervously.
"I asked you to answer question fourteen." She replies annoyingly. For a young teacher starting out she already seemed like a pro at discipline kids.
I look down at my book. The problem read find the distance of -3, 6 and 8,-5. My heart begins to beat hard that I'm waiting for it to bust and go on the desk.
"Uhh…uhh…" Man I wish I'd done my homework to avoid making out like I was a dumbass. But most of my time is being spent with Carly and this dumbass was too busy studying her ass.
I feel a hand touch the inside of my right palm. I didn't have to figure out whose hand it was just by looking at the dark blue nail polish that covered the nails. With the tip of her index finger she begins to trace the number fifteen. My face begins to turn a crimson shade of red until I figure out what she was doing.
"Fifteen," I blurt out. Mrs. Ryder nods and informs me it was correct but also tells me how I should work on my homework and not rely on others for answers. I nod my head up and down in agreement biting my lower lip, tasting my cherry chap stick.
"Thank you," I whisper to Carly.
"No problem," Carly smiles showing off her perfect white teeth. I look over to the front whiteboard only to feel a wet soft sensation hit my cheek. Moving her lips away from my cheek my blood pressure rises to heights I never felt before as I watch everyone leave the classroom. School was now over.
"You coming?" Carly asks throwing her backpack over her small boned shoulders then fixing her Cuddlefish tour shirt.
"Yea hold up," My mind still occupied from the kiss on the cheek. It was Friday. The day I was looking forward to all week. Not because it was now the weekend and not because it was a special three day weekend. But because today I was going to tell Miss Carly Shay how I felt about her.
"So what are you doing tonight?" Carly and I walk down the hallway passing rows of lockers some being the make out center for some couples.
"Nothing. I was wondering if I could go and hang out with you tonight. My mom's freaking out on the cat again for losing another job." She stops and gives me a strange look. "Yea I don't know."
"Well…" she begins. "I told Freddie I would hangout with him tonight." Her voice sounding like a mixture of sorrow and regret.
We step outside the grey clouds blocking the sun making the world around us dark as cold gust of wind hits us. My body trembling as I wrap my arms around myself so I was hugging myself.
"Help me stay warm," Carly shrieks as she wraps her arms around me making out body heat our own source of warmth.
The smell of her body lotion filled my nose. The smell of fresh baby powder mixed with grapes. I hold on to her arms lightly, her cheek brushing against mine.
"Carls," I say quietly almost mouthing it.
"Yea," she replies her head now resting on my shoulder.
"I….I…." I stutter.
She looks at me her eyes telling me to go on in the safest way.
"I was wondering if you weren't busy tomorrow night…"
She cuts me off, "Of course I will hang out with you."
My heart starts racing.
"Well…it really wasn't that."
"Oh," she says softly. "Then what is it?"
"I was wondering if you wanted to go out with me." Oh my god I can't believe I just yelled that out so bluntly. My eyes squeezed shut tightly hoping her reaction doesn't the whole looks can kill category.
"So you want to go out with me? A date?" She's trying to figure everything out.
I open my eyes and nod my head.
"Why?"
I explain to her about that eventful night. How when the commercial came on and how she was pretending to flash me like she was the college girl and I was the camera man. How that was the first time I really noticed how beautiful she was. How that after she kissed me it opened up waves of new emotions that I never felt before and wanting to know where it would take me.
Carly shakes her head. Her face showing off one of fear and sorrow.
"Sam…umm…I'm flattered that you feel that way…but."
"You don't feel the same way." I interrupt her.
"I'm sorry." Her eyes looking at me with sincerity.
My eyes look down at my shoes. Fighting back the tears I knew I shouldn't have done this. My brain telling me how it was a stupid mistake and how I was going to get my heart broken. Her arms still wrapped around me.
"I got to go." I break free from her grip.
"Sam! Sam please don't go!" Carly begs but her begs fall on deaf ears.
I hide in the sea of students until I find my bus and get on. I go to the single seat all the way in the back. My hands cover my eyes as the tears were too much to hold back.
It was a mistake. I know it. Stupid me.