DISCLAIMER-I DO NOT OWN IT. AND I KNOW EVERYONE KNOWS IT!
Hiya :D Here is my NatsuXGray FF. It will be multi chaptered of course. And no, this isn't beta'ed. The updates come slower that way. Pardon me for my mistakes. Also, this chapter contains LaxusXGray mostly. Yup, Natsu would be there in next chapter. And please expect Ooc-ness 'cause you are gonna get full of it. They are totally opposite of their real personalities!
Please enjoy~ ^.^
Footsteps.
Someone was coming. And he knew who the person was. Closing his eyes tightly so that he could still hope that it was just a nightmare, he curled into a ball in a defensive form. Shoes made a sound of a faint thud on the cold floor.
He felt a hand on his arm, trying to turn him around. Gray tried his best to not comply, but he was turned around harshly.
"I don't want you to cry tonight as well. Just play together." A deep voice spoke trailing a finger from his jaw bone to his chest.
"Please L-Laxus. I-I am your b-brother… Just once p-please…" Gray couldn't continue further because he got a harsh bit on his neck. The man above him was his elder brother Laxus Fullbuster, but Gray found it unbelievable that his own brother, the one who was always caring and protective about him, was raping him every night. Laxus never harmed Gray in a physical way, like hitting or something, but he wanted to be Gray's lover. And the raven haired teen only looked at the blonde 20 year old man as a brother.
"I'm sick of it. We argue about it every night in these past four years and you are still thinking that way?"
"Please…" Gray pleaded when Laxus reached at his waistband.
"I love you Gray. I'm not even using you! I only love you… so why is it you aren't yet convinced?" Laxus asked giving a soft bite on Gray's earlobe.
He kept his eyes closed. Tears were still falling but he felt lips licking them. It didn't comfort him, not at all. It was a sign that he had to face the harsh reality, again. Gray knew he couldn't do anything right now. Laxus was his brother and he didn't want to harm him. Nor that he could do it anyways.
Hands were roaming around on his entire body. Laxus kissed him possessively. After breaking it Laxus licked his jaw while his hands were busy in feeling Gray's body.
"Don't. Please Laxus." He tried another failed attempt to let it continue further. It had been happening for 4 years now and he tried a lot to stop him. It didn't affect Laxus.
"I know that. You are my little cute brother whom I love a lot." Laxus asked nibbling on his shoulder.
Gray cried, when his clothes were removed, when lips tasted every inch of his body, when he felt the pain. He cried, when he was raped by his elder brother.
He screamed, shouted, begged; so at least someone could protect him, could help him.
His cries were unheard.
"It's your favorite dish today Gray." Laxus told his younger brother. He only got a nod in response from the raven. The blonde sighed, Gray never realized his feelings and he never was going to reciprocate them. Laxus knew this, but he didn't give up. He loved Gray, and only Laxus was the one whose name Gray should moan.
Gray started eating his breakfast. The maids were surrounding the table where only two occupants were seated. Nothing new was there. Both the Fullbuster brothers lived in the huge house alone. The maids worked only at the day time because Laxus didn't want any of them to help Gray run away if they heard his screams at night.
"It's Sunday today. Let's spend the day together having fun." Laxus smiled. Maybe now he could see his brother smiling. But instead he saw his expressionless face. His eyes were blank.
Gray looked at his direction and nodded.
After the breakfast was done, Laxus told the maids that they could go to their homes back now. The rest of the day would be only his and Gray's.
Gray was holding a T-shirt in his hands. When he was about to put it on, he was pulled back and his back met a strong and masculine chest. Gray closed his eyes.
"Enjoyed the day?" Laxus whispered in his ear. Just a nod was the answer.
Laxus could feel the anger rising inside of him. Why couldn't Gray just love him back and talk to him normally?
He gripped his hands and pinned him against the wall.
His blonde bangs covered his eyes. Gray gulped. What happened?
"L-Laxus?" Gray's voice came out weakly. Fear was evident in his eyes.
"What is your problem Gray? I love you and I'm tired of saying it that you are not being used! If I love you then what's the problem that you cannot return my feelings?" He whispered dangerously.
"Because you can't force one to love you. I love you, but only as a brother." Gray replied looking back into Laxus' eyes. He wasn't going to cry now. He had it enough!
Slap!
Gray's eyes widened. Laxus forced himself on him but never hit him. It was the first time he was being slapped by Laxus.
Gray wasn't the only one to be shocked; Laxus was too left speechless by his own actions. Gray raised his one hand and placed his palm on his cheek which was slapped by Laxus.
"G-Gray, listen, I seriously didn't mean it…"
But his brother was still in the same position. His one palm holding his cheek and bangs covering his eyes. His body was shaking.
Gray's palms balled into fists. He was angry. He looked up.
Blue eyes held many emotions; anger, sadness, frustration and something which could be defined a lot as a pain of losing someone.
"Gray…" Laxus tried but sighed when Gray left without any word. The blonde followed his younger brother constantly trying his best to stop him and listen.
The door slammed shut right before Laxus' face.
The blonde sighed.
"I hate him!" Gray threw all his pillows everywhere. He never hated Laxus; the latter was his brother after all. But it was the first time he feared that Laxus could harm him.
Tears kept on strolling down his cheeks and he hugged his knees. How could Laxus do that to him? Had he totally forgotten that Gray was his brother? He cried and cried and cried. All the emotions in his heart were mixed. Gray was thoroughly confused what he felt. Did he feel bad because his brother slap him? Or was it that he no more felt like Laxus was his brother. The Laxus he knew as his brother was very caring and would never do such thing. But… it had been happening for 4 years now.
"Gray, open the door please. Just listen to me once damn it!" Gray heard the loud banging on the bedroom door and Laxus' yelling.
The raven haired teen wiped his tears and put on an expressionless face.
Gray opened the door and looked at a much tensed Laxus. The blonde sighed in relief when he saw his younger brother. He immediately wrapped his arms around his body. Gray didn't react, he just stood still.
"I'm really sorry Gray. I really didn't mean it at all!" Laxus said putting his hands on Gray's shoulders and looking directly in his eyes.
Gray's eyes didn't show much of his feelings. They were stern.
Laxus knew he shouldn't have done that. Their relation would be spoiled just because he couldn't control his anger. If it wasn't already on verge of breaking that is.
"Hey, don't be so angry now." He said coming closer to Gray. He still didn't get any reaction. His head hung down.
Laxus held Gray's hands in his breathed out.
"Do whatever you want Gray. If you want to slap me, go ahead. I won't mind. Just … talk to me please." Laxus was really feeling guilty and that could be judged by his expressions.
"I don't want to punish you Laxus. I just want to know why you are doing this." Gray was totally frustrated. He desired to know the answers as to why Laxus was treating him like this. He took his hands back from his brother and went to sit on his bed. Laxus followed.
"What am I doing? I'm sorry about what happened a few moments ago but what are you talkin' about Gray?" the blonde was totally clueless that Gray was frustrated because of happened every night.
"You are asking me that Laxus? You force yourself on your brother and still asking what's wrong?" Gray snapped.
"If that's the reason, then I won't do it anymore. Just… just don't get angry please?" Laxus said with pleading eyes.
Gray didn't say anything. He didn't know if he should give Laxus another chance.
Seeing that Gray hasn't yet answered, Laxus placed his hands on both of his shoulders.
"Please?"
"Okay. But you won't do that again right?" Gray asked.
Laxus nodded with a smile.
The next six months felt the best times he had ever spent with Laxus. Gray thought he could never be happier. The raven haired teenager had felt that he found his real brother again.
For Laxus, he thought that Gray's laughter was the most beautiful melody. After so many years, he finally had the lucky chance to laugh with his brother.
Currently, the brothers were walking together on the beach. It was night and the water was reflecting the glow of the moon.
"Hey Gray!" the raven haired teen turned around to look at who called him. Laxus followed his brother's action and saw a blonde haired guy standing a few feet away from them.
"Oh hey Hibiki!" Gray waved with a grin on his face.
The man came closer and hugged Gray leaving the latter wide eyes.
"I missed you! It's been so long." He exclaimed.
Laxus stayed quite all the while, but his icy stare was fixed on this new disturber.
Gray nervously chuckled and broke apart.
"Everything is fine. When did you come back here?" He asked curiously. The raven glanced at his brother to know his reactions. Worry washed over his face as he noticed that Laxus was glaring at Hibiki.
After waving his goodbye to Hibiki- and receiving a kiss on the cheek by the blonde- he walked to the car with Laxus.
When Laxus started driving, it was very late. Noticing that his elder brother hadn't said a word since the meeting with his old friend, he tried to clear up the tensed atmosphere.
"Uh… so Laxus, did you enjoy this day?" a gentle smile appeared on his face but it soon faded when he only got a nod from the latter.
"How is it in the office? I mean how Mira and all are?" he asked again in an attempt to get some response from his brother.
"Fine, I guess." He said still looking ahead on the road.
Gray looked out of the window, he was definitely upset.
Laxus told Gray that he had to go somewhere so not to wait for him. Saying this, the blonde drove away.
Gray sat on his bed in his room. He stared at his hands absentmindedly. He felt guilty, and he knew the reason.
Laxus had changed his behavior only for him, and Gray knew it wasn't easy for his brother to do so. But today, when Hibiki was getting so close to Gray, he had seen the look on Laxus' face and that fire in his eyes.
It was his entire fault. So he decided to apologize.
He nodded to himself and went out in the balcony. He couldn't sleep anyways, the house was big, and he was all alone there. So he waited for the blonde to arrive.
"Graaaaayyyyyyy!" Someone roared.
The raven haired boy started and his blue eyes went wide when he saw Laxus walking towards him with a bottle of beer in his hand.
"L-Laxus-
He couldn't finish when said man's strong grip captured him. He was thrown on the bed.
"Laxus! What the hell has happened to you?" Gray shouted. But in a reply, he only received a slap on his face.
Gray was scared, he felt like everything had shattered. He felt he was shattered.
He gasped when lips crashed onto his'.
Tears streaked down his alabaster cheeks as he was roughly kissed. Laxus smashed his own body on the younger male forcefully.
"Laxus, w-what's going on?" Gray yelled at the older man.
"Why did you do this huh Gray?" the blonde asked, his fingers busy in unbuttoning Gray's shirt.
"W-what do you mean- aah!" He cried when Laxus bit neck.
"I tried so hard to improve our relations, but you were busy with other men… was I not enough Gray?" he looked straight into those blue eyes and shook him mercilessly and threw at the other direction.
Gray cried when his forehead met with the hard wood and warm blood started oozing out.
But Laxus hadn't gotten back his senses yet. He held Gray's arm and pulled him towards his own body. Their chests collided and Gray gasped. His sides were being gripped tightly and it was paining. Red bruises were already been made there. He begged Laxus, but the latter was still unaffected of his cries.
Morning came, but the room wasn't brightened at all. The curtain stopped the sunlight from entering the room. Everything was dark and cold.
Blue eyes were watery. No matter how many times they had cried, those beautiful eyes couldn't yet erase the image of that torture.
He just lay there, there wasn't anything he could. A hand was there on Gray's midsection trying to bring him closer and feel his body warmth.
The wounds had opened again and the blood was fresh. But that didn't matter, not a single part of him was left unhurt.
His soul, body and his emotions were stained. A mark was left which could never be buried.
The body beside him moved a bit. Gray heard everything, but his eyes were still fixed on the curtains, how they were stopping a single ray of hope as well.
Laxus opened his eyes and his head hurt as hell. He observed the room and his eyes went wide and guilt washed over his face when he saw Gray in his arms. But his eyes were so… lifeless.
"Gray…" Laxus spoke in a pleading voice. The raven haired boy still didn't do anything; neither spoke nor looked at him.
Laxus sat up and leaned down at the weak and abused body. He cupped Gray's face and his eyes saddened when he saw a trail of blood coming down from his forehead to his cheek.
"I'm sorry… I wasn't in control." His voice was almost whispering.
Gray looked at him and a horrified expression coated his face.
Laxus was confused when Gray sat up and backed away.
"D-don't h-harm me please… I'm sorry. Forgive me. I-I w-won't do a-anything." Gray was crying by the end. Laxus just stayed dumbfounded.
"G-Gray, I-
"I'm sorry. Please don't hurt me." He was crying uncontrollably.
Laxus couldn't believe that he made Gray like that.
Laxus sighed and took out the first aid box. He came near the raven haired boy, but the latter just backed away.
"Gray, please… let me." He pleaded. Gray stayed there but when Laxus moved he didn't move unlike the last time.
After aiding his wounds, Laxus got ready for shower and brought the breakfast for Gray in his room. When the blonde entered, Gray was still sitting in the same position. He sighed.
Was there anything he could do?
"I'll be coming back in two days, okay Gray?" Laxus asked his brother. The teen only nodded. He sighed and drove away.
When the night came, the stars twinkled in the sky. Gray felt better now; his wounds didn't hurt that much. He walked out of the backyard. The raven never noticed that door there from which he exited quietly.
After walking a bit, he realized… he was out of the house. He was free and could live as he wanted. A smile crossed his features. He heard footsteps.
"Hey! This is our area!"
Was it trouble? When he turned, only a flash of pink was visible in the pale moonlight.
Alright, so I know you all wanna throw tomatoes at me. And I forgot to add this, but I got inspired to write this story by watching an episode of V Gumrah, and it's based on real life incidents. It's just that, there it was the father who raped his step son.
I promise to bring nice chapters. If I get time to update more often, that is. And the reason why it was crappy was that I had totally lost my interest in LaxusXGray. And Laxus fans, don't worry. Laxus isn't a negative character. He will play an important role here.
Review please *Meow* ^^