Gone
Summary: We've been married for two years now. He had said he loved me, but why didn't he mark me? Wasn't I worth his time for him to even look at me? But now, I had an opportunity, to have a second chance at life. KagSessh
A/N: I put chapters 1 and 2 together into one chapter to seem like it was only one chapter. Lols. It was too short and I noticed how bad my writing was. The bad spelling mistakes and such, so I revised it some. Not much, but some. I hope to have the next chap in a few days or so. Wait for it and review?
Chapter 1
"Smile Kagome." Sango cried over the noise of people as she was taking a picture of me and Sesshomaru.
I was in my wedding dress, and Sesshomaru in his tuxedo. I guess I had been staring at him alot at that time because he had made a comment about how blue my eyes were when I looked at him. I had only smiled back, letting myself watch him alittle longer. The beautiful gold amber eyes of his, and the well shaped muscular body. God, how I love him so.
Inuyasha; Sesshomaru's brother who was also my bestfriend had been on the sidelines with Miroku Tajiwa arguing about something. Probably about how Miroku was a lecher. I smiled to myself softly as I remmeberd it.
Everyone who were there at my wedding had been smiling as big as ever when a group photo was shot. Little Shippo was sitting on Sangos shoulder, Miroku standing beside her and probably with his hand on her ass and me and Sesshomaru were in the middle. We looked so happy then.
But that was all 2 years ago...a lot of things had happened since then. Sango and Miroku had gotten married and Inuyasha had been travelling around the world with Shippo. I smiled sadly, Sesshomaru and I had gotten a bit distant this past year. As the next heir of the Taisho Corp. he had alot of work to do. But he always came back home and we would have a night of passion together. But now, the things that we had done regularly before, had abruptly stopped. He would go to many meetings, and often stayed out for more than 2 weeks.
He loved me though...I knew he loved me. He had said it himself. But demons are known to mark their wives and true loves...so how come he didn't mark me yet? I'm so confused...my heart pounded while thinking of this...was it possible that he didn't actually love me? Or maybe he just doesn't want to be with me forever and live off immortality by himself and just get another wife when I die?. The thought of it brought tears to my eyes...I didn't know what he was thinking these days. He never answered my messages that I had left on his cell and when I had finally gotten through to him, he would have had an excuse to hang up on me.
Tears trickled down my face...I didn't know what to do. I slowly got up from the box I was searching from...the box with the photos of our wedding in the attic. Maybe I was scaring myself...but I knew that wasn't it. Was he ignoring me now because I had lost the touch of seduction on him? I had began to notice how dull I had been getting..but...I don't know...fuck...why wasn't he home right now?
I slowly walked downstairs to the kitchen. We lived in a big mansion but it was lonely with out him and with only the servants cleaning here and there it was really a boring sight to look at. I missed the times we had when we were dating...how he had looked at me, and how he told me how much I meant to him...I sighed to myself. Maybe I should go out and get a breath of fresh air? Yes I should.
I got my purse and decided to change into something that might make me look more...not dull. I put on a white tank and black hip hugging jeans. It was casual, but atleast I looked like a teenager, and not a married women. I giggled to myself.
I got into my sports car and decided to go to the mall. No where for me to go anyways. When I got there, there was a big crowd surrounding something and I decided to go check it out. I pushed myself to the middle, it looked like the mall was hosting some kind of modeling show who were interested in being a model. The idea of it intrigued me, but I didn't get me into it for long, so I decided to leave. But when I was about to go, this man had grabbed me by my arm.
"Umm...can you let go please?" I asked politely as I looked at him. He had black hair and crystal blue eyes.. He was quite handsome, but my heart would always beat for Sesshomaru.
"I saw you watching our show from the side lines, and I think you would be perfect. Oh, my name's Darien by the way, I own Harmony Agency and I think that you have potential. I'm not usually this forward, but you happened to catch my eye" He said brightly as he handed me a card.
"Umm...nice to meet you Darien...I'm Kagome. May I please ask what kind of job you're offering?" I was curious..but I hoped that he didn't see me as a stripper or some sort.
"I thought you would know since you had been watching, but if you don't. It would be a modeling job. We have a limited number of spots, and since the industry has been going a bit haywire right now with anorexic models, we're looking for more. I hope you consider this, it would be a big benefit to your life" He replied instantly.
"Sorry...but I'm not sure. I'll have to ask my husband on what he thinks of it first." I said as I thought about myself modeling. I'm only 20..modeling would be a great career if I start right now. But I didn't want to do it without Sesshomaru knowing..did I? My heart was pounding excitingly..a modeling contract..it was the second best thing that had happened in my life.
"Thats alright. If you do agree just call me but theres a limitation. We are looking for only one model and since I've chosen you then you have to give me a reply in 2 days time" he said as he smiled at me.
"Alright!" I said cheerfully. So far my day had gotten a bit better.
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"Sesshomaru?" I called as I walked into our bedroom. I had always hoped that if I went out for sometime and come back, he would be here to greet me. But he wasn't, just great.
Just then the phone rang and I picked it up.
"Hello?"
"Hey."
"Sesshomaru! Honey, are you coming home for dinner tonight?" I hoped that it didn't sound like I was begging.
"Yeah...about that. I'm sorry, I can't make it. I have this really important business meeting that I have to go to and I can't get back to our house in time for dinner."
"But...you promised!"
"Look Kagome, this is really important. We'll just have it some other day" He said, his voice sounding very husky. And than I heard it, a faint gasp.
"Sesshomaru, is there some one there?"
"No Darling, don't worry. I'll come home for bed. I love you." And with that, the line was dead, however I didn't believe him.
I love you.
Those words meant nothing anymore. It was different...this time. Those words. It made me angry. How would I actually know if he loved me or not? I didn't. And it stung. I really missed him though..I really did. God. I feel like a pathetic emotional loser..how did I ever became this way again? Oh yeah, one name. Sesshomaru.
"Fuck!" I screamed. Tears were rolling down my cheeks. I really hated this. He always broke his promises. Where did the Sesshomaru that I love go?
"Kagome." A voice behind me said as they covered my eyes with their hands. Their touch tingled on my skin.
"Who is it?" I asked playing along.
"You know it's me everytime!" The voice grumbled as they turned me around to face them.
"Sesshomaru." I shrieked as I wrapped my arms around his neck. He was warm and muscular, god..I loved how he felt. Could I ever stop loving him? No...I probably couldn't.
"Haha, I've got a surprise for you." He murmured into my ear as he got something out of his pocket. We had been watching the stars at the top of Mount.Nadota. A mountain that was suppose to bring out all the couples out there for a nice rejoicing.
"What is it?" I asked curiously as I looked into his playful gold eyes. But suddenly, his eyes changed..and became very soft, but serious at the same time. He looked nervous too...never in a million years would I had ever seen Sesshomaru nervous, but here he was now..doing something that I thought he would never do.
"Kagome..." He said deeply as he kneeled on the ground.
"Oh my god..." I whispered as I looked into his adoring eyes. It wasn't happening, it really wasn't! But I couldn't deny the truth, he was right in front of me. The tears were starting to come to my eyes.
"Will you marry me?" He asked, pleading slightly as he opened the box. Inside, there was a diamond ring. Not a big ass diamond ring that all rich snobby guys would get, but a decent one. One that told me how much he loved me. Although it was small, it had been carefully carved into a rose. But that wasn't the thing that choked me, it was what had been engraved at the back. I love you, Sesshomaru.
I couldn't say anything. I was speechless. Really speechless. I felt tears trickling down my cheeks.
"Kagome?" He asked as he stood up, wrapping his arms around my waist. "Is that a no?"
"You bastard" I cried as I kissed him hard on the lips. He tasted like Apple Cinnamon, god..he tasted so good. I groaned a bit as I felt his warm lips, moving slowly against mine. His tongue, tracing the outside of my lips.
"I'll always love you." He whispered against my mouth as he pulled away. He looked at me adoringly and I melted. He got my hand and put the ring on slowly. "Now, you are the wife of Sesshomaru Taisho"
"You devil." I giggled as he wrapped his arms around me and with that, we both looked into the night sky. Full of stars, a night that promised us eternal happiness.
But all things were lies. We didn't live happily ever after. Sure, we had a great wedding and a really nice honeymoon. But then, he got absorbed into his work, or so I thought. Until I found condoms in his clothes. Surely, they weren't for the both of us to use.
But then again, I chose not to believe it. Even when a woman called our house one time, asking for him. I would ignore it. It could have just been a workmate or something. But still...all demons were to mate. And he still didn't do it to me yet. And that I could not forgive.
Did he actually care for me? I felt bitter. I swallowed my saliva as I threw my purse onto the ground, my rage blinding me.
And as my purse fell to the ground, a card fell out. I bent down and picked it up. It was the card Darien gave me. About modeling. This was an opportunity, to forget all the bad things. I need a career...to not remember Sesshomaru...surely this would help.
"Who cares about what he thinks. He won't even have time for me anyways." I whispered to my self as I looked at the card. I kenw I had to take charge before everything in my life slipped away.
"Umm...Darien?" I said hesitantly as I waited for his voice to appear on the other end. It was heart wrecking..I had to do it before I chickened out. Before I started stressing and have all my dark locks fall out.
"Aaahh, Kagome. I knew you would call. I already talked to my supervisors, and you can start working tomorrow. We just need you to sign your name on our contract and everything will be as easy as it goes." He said pleasantly.
"How did you know I would actually take the chance?" I asked curiously.
"Well, my wife actually owns the agency, and when I talked to her about you she said you would definitly call for sure. My wife knows what all women think." He replied, his voice warm and comforting.
"Oh...umm...well. What time do I come tomorrow?"
"Well, we're very busy and we need alot of models. Alot of companies have been calling lately to ask for models to pose for them. I'm sure it'll be a hell of a sight. So why don't you come tomorrow morning at 8:00am? Just go to 35th Boulevard and you'll see our sign."
"I'll be there."
"By the way, what did your husband say about this? Sorry if I'm asking a personal question. You don't have to answer."
"My husband...said it was fine." I said slowly. I knew it was a lie...but I really couldn't think of anything else.
"Well, thank you for joining us and I'll see you tomorrow. Go to studio A, I'll meet you there." Darien quickly said. "Sorry, a incoming call. Bye Kagome."
"Bye." I said as I hanged up. I was nervous...really nervous. After I had finished University I didn't really get a job because of Sesshomaru and our marrige. But now that I have a chance. I felt nervous, my first real job.
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"Hmm...35th Boulevard, this is it." I said to myself as I looked at the tall building. Seriously, it was huge. It was almost as big as the Taisho corp. I guess this was a fast rising business.
I walked in and asked the receptionist where Studio A was.
"Aahh, you must be a new model. Studio A is on the 5th floor." She smiled brightly as she looked at me. She had red hair and dark blue eyes.
"Thank You." I smiled as I took the elevator to the 5th floor. As I got there it was amazing, there were cameras and dressing rooms...just everything. It was amazingly beautiful too.
"Kagome!" Darien said as he saw me come through the elevator. He was wearing a black shirt and blue jeans. As cute as I saw him yesterday.
"Hi." I mumbled nervously as he help me take off my jacket. I had worn a white tank top that had the back criss crossed and blue snug fitting jeans. Casual but sexy all at the same.
"There's no need to be nervous. All models are nervous on their first try. You'll get use to it. Now Kagome. This is important. We need your photo shoot. There is no time for practices, this is it. I see potential in you. Thats why I think you don't need the practice. Besides, we need the photo urgently, our last minute model had the flu and couldn't come and your timing was perfect. So quickly, go to the dressing rooms and the artist will get you ready." Darien said all in one breath. His face quickly going from blue to red. From the lack of air talking, so fast.
"Umm...alright." I said as he pushed me towards the dressing rooms. This was to be a hell of a day.
"Fuck." I cried as I fell on my bed. Sesshomaru didn't come to bed last night, but that didn't worry me. All I had thought about was the photo shoot and the contract and such. We didn't even have a contract actually. If I wanted to work, I worked. If I didn't, I didn't. But mostly I would work.
It was tiring, changing from outfit to outfit. Everyone rushing and pushing. I guess that the business deal was urgent because after the shots were finished, the photographer quickly got them developed and on their way to the company.
My photo was to be on the cover of Glam Magazine tomorrow morning. I couldn't wait. Althought all the work was hard on the first day, my picture would be out soon!
Everything was going so fast. It was all like this was planned for me. Even Sesshomaru's absentness. But I wouldn't worry. I know he'll remember me, I know he will. He'll remember the wife he had at home and come crawling back.
Atleast, I think he will. I will do anything I could to get him to come back. Anything. But first, I need to get a good reputation...from work. Sesshomaru will be proud.
I'll just tell him until I do a couple of more shots. Then...everything will be perfect.
I groaned back abit as my eyes closed softly. It had been so long since I was this tired, from work that is. It made her feel..kind of whole. To have something to do..and be good at it. I knew that it wasn't going to take up my whole life..but atleast I felt content with it, and for that, I felt happy.
My eyes were getting wary, and it was hard to even open my eyes. So I just laid there, I didn't know for how long. But I knew I had gone to sleep, because the next thing I knew, I was in my dream world. A happy dream, with my Sesshomaru.
I woke up the next morning, the warm sunshine from the window shining down on my face. I forcefully opened my eyes as I gazed around the room. He hadn't came home last night, I knew. Nothing had been touch. But what did I suspect? Was it a real surprise for me? It wasn't. Than I sat up quickly, the pictures were coming out today! I felt the adrenaline rush through me. Something exciting was finally going to happen. I had felt it since..since the last time I had been with Sesshomaru.
I quickly got out of bed and rushed to the bathroom. Quickly showering and brushing my teeth. Than went to my closet and got out a a nice black skirt and a silky red halter top. Sexy and professional. Perfect.
I quickly ran downstairs and was about to open the front door when our house keeper, Kaede called out to me from the dining room door, "Kagome dear, aren't you going to have some breakfast?"
Kaede was a sweet old lady, I had known her before she had became our house keeper. She had been my grandma's best friend. I could share everything with her.
"Sorry Kaede, I'm having my picture out today! No time to talk, be back later!" I gushed as I quickly stepped out of the house in my black stilettos.
I zoomed away from the mansion and quickly headed toward my destination. Harmony Agency.