Never Let Me Go

If you forget the way to go
And lose where you came from
If no one is standing beside you
Be still and know I am

Be Still – The Fray

I laid on my bed in the dark, my only source of light coming from the moonlight outside my balcony window. I closed my eyes, so many things were happening tomorrow. I was going to be a high school student within less than twenty-four hours and for some reason I didn't feel prepared for that. Although I didn't show it, I just smiled and pretended I was excited.

"Luka-chan," Kaito whispered as he opened my balcony door.

I sat up, "Kaito-kun?" I should be used to him coming to my room all hours of the night.

He sighed in relief and sat on the desk chair across from my room.

"I was hoping you weren't asleep." I raised an eyebrow questioningly.

"What's wrong?" I asked, I had a feeling I already knew the answer. Kaito was nervous just like me. He was always better at showing his emotions then I ever was.

"I don't want to go to school!" He pouted and puffed his lower lip. I threw my pillow and laughed at his childish antics.

"I don't either." I admitted.

He leaned back and smiled deviously, "Wanna skip the first day?"

I giggled and shook my head, "But we'd still have to go anyways." I countered.

He smiled and laughed lightly. I gazed at him silently admiring him without him noticing. Kaito had a way of filling the room with his warmth. He appeared so radiant whenever a smile graced his lips.

It was just one of the many things that made Kaito perfect.

My mind soon began to wander and I thought about tomorrow. I sighed; I really didn't want to go. Thinking about it was making me exhausted…It shouldn't be too bad, right? I mean, I have Kaito by my side.

He stood up and glanced at my clock, it was already one a.m. Time seemed to go by so quickly when we were together. I yawned and stretched my muscles lightly.

"Well, I'm going to go get some ice cream and go to bed." Kaito loved his ice cream, he hates anything bitter. He doesn't like coffee at all and prefers milk in the mornings. If he had the choice, he would only eat dessert. To be quite honest I'm not sure how in the world Kaito is thin. He inhales his food and constantly eats sugar on a daily basis.

"Don't forget to brush your teeth!" I warned, god forbid he ever got cavities! I would never hear the end of it.

He grinned and patted my head, "Try to get some sleep Luka, tomorrow won't be so bad. Besides! You have me." I smiled and nodded in agreement. Kaito always knew how to calm my nerves, especially when I needed it the most. He knew exactly how to comfort me and I was grateful for that.

"Goodnight."

Kaito and I have been next door neighbors since we were babies. Our parents got along well and ever since we can remember we've always been together. We've never been separated, if you can imagine that. We grew up like siblings but sometimes it felt different than just a brother-sister relationship. It was closer than that. I didn't know how to explain it, but his presence always brought me endless joy. He was like the sun that shined through the darkest clouds. His radiance was almost overwhelming.

But…Somehow, I didn't have a good feeling about this year. We were starting high school; I knew things were bound to be different. That's when I realized I was afraid of change.

Kaito and I were growing up. That scared me. He was getting so tall compared to last year, he practically towers over me! Even his voice changed; somehow it was much deeper than before. It was still soft and gentle as I remembered, but no longer childlike.

I remember when we graduated middle school all the girls adored him and I grew confused when he never agreed to date any of them – especially the pretty ones. I was far from the only one who knew Kaito was special. Those memories were still crystal clear in my mind.

The crisp spring air filled my nose as I sat behind Kaito on his bike. Cherry blossom petals were scattered all over the pavement creating a soft pink and white hue. I held onto his waist tightly as we sped through the neighborhood. Girls walking on the sidewalk all seemed to stop and admire Kaito. I couldn't help but stare at his back in amazement. All I could see was his cobalt blue hair sway in the wind. How could so many people love one boy? There always seemed to be something enchanting about him.

His laughter cut through my train of thoughts.

"Guess what Luka!" I could just imagine the silly smile that graced his lips.

"What?" I questioned, he began to slow down and stole a quick glance in my direction.

"It's spring!" He announced cheerfully. I smiled and looked down.

Sometimes I felt like I shouldn't be the one sitting next to Kaito. All the girls that idolized him would die to be in my place.

"It's that time of the year again…I'm sure you'll receive a bunch of love letters from the new students." Whoops, I didn't mean to say that out loud.

I waited for his reaction but he didn't appear bothered.

"I doubt it!"

"Why don't you get a girlfriend this time?" I questioned. I never talked about stuff like this with him. I don't know what I'd do if he suddenly decided to have a girlfriend…

"I don't have time! I have basketball practice, remember?"

I didn't like the idea of growing up one bit. Kaito was becoming so handsome and I was so plain. We were complete polar opposites. I was always teased for my glasses and the things I liked. Although I always had a sharp mouth to defend myself, Kaito was always there to help me; even fighting some boys that would pick on me.

The beginning of our first year in middle school was a complete disaster! The boys always seemed to single me out and take my glasses. I sighed, as I opened the door to my first class. To my surprise most of the students were not here. The bell was bound to ring any moment! The little amount of students that were there began to whisper.

That was odd.

Most of my classmates ignored me. The class president walked towards me angrily.

"Luka Megurine, You have caused uproar in our classroom!" He shouted. The others giggled and turned towards my direction.

"Because of you, Kaito Shion and a number of our other students got into a fight!" I didn't stay to hear the rest of his ranting. I ran out of the classroom quickly and rushed to the infirmary.

I forced the door open and there he was sitting on the chair. The nurse was nowhere in sight and I silently walked inside and closed the door behind me.

"Why did you do that?" I yelled upset. I grabbed a cotton swab and cleaned his bleeding wound.

"They're cowards!" He shot back angrily. He grimaced when I wrapped his knuckles tightly.

I glared at him defiantly.

"It's not worth it—

"Who's going to protect you against those guys? I'm the only man who's going to do something about it!" I was left with nothing else to say…

"Starting today, they won't bother you anymore."

Those last words echoed in my mind…

I opened my eyes not realizing I had fallen asleep. I felt like I hardly slept at all; I just kept thinking. I pushed my blanket away and yawned. I silently stretched my muscles and stood in front of my mirror.

My hair was growing so long and thick, I really didn't know what to do with it. I shrugged and braided it as I always did.

I striped from my pajamas and began putting on my new uniform.

It was simple and plain, just a normal navy and white uniform with a red tie. I sighed, it made me look worse. It seemed to amplify my plain looks. I ignored my distaste and opened my balcony door as I walked over to the edge.

"Kaito-kun, are you ready?" I called.

"Hai!" He called back; I took that as my signal as I jumped to his side of the balcony and opened his sliding door that was identical to mine.

He sat there with a bowl of ice cream beside him as he played video games.

"How long have you been up?" I questioned, he was completely dressed but it looked like he's been ready.

"I never slept." He said casually.

"Well that explains it…" I mumbled and glanced at the clock. He quickly finished his ice cream and shut off his game.

"Let's go."

"No."

He looked at me questioningly. I took the bowl from his hands and shook my head. I took his arm and dragged him to the bathroom.

"Not until you brush your teeth."

He grabbed his toothbrush, "I already did!" he complained.

I glared and he quietly obeyed me.

I smiled as we walked out the door, "You should be lucky to have someone like me! You'd have cavities if I wasn't here."

He smiled, "Cavities? My teeth would have fallen out by now if I didn't have you!" I giggled, I felt so warm and fuzzy. I loved our little banters. Kaito always made me feel treasured and sometimes even my heart would race when he was beside me. I wonder why?

I laughed and he looked at me, "W-why are you laughing?"

"You make me happy!" I said, not really realizing my words. He turned and looked the other way. For some reason it looked like he was blushing?

When we arrived at school it seemed like all eyes were on us—well— Kaito actually. All the girls would stop and look at him - some even whispering.

"Whose that!?"

"What's his name?"

"Who's that plain girl next to him?"

I was very accustomed to girls admiring Kaito. It wasn't anything new to me. But at the same time I felt offended. I hated that title; plain girl. I already knew I was plain, wasn't that enough? I pushed up my glasses and glanced at Kaito. He seemed unfazed by the whispering and the girls blushing. For some reason it made me…I dunno, happy? Was that selfish?

We walked towards the brown bulletin board to see what classes we were in, although we pretty much knew the answer.

He smirked and ruffled my hair, "Looks like another year together Luka-chan."

I smiled happily in return.

Ah, my heart feels like it's racing again.

In my mind I was secretly screaming and jumping up and down with joy.

"Hah! Look!" He pointed to the class rank with a face of triumph. "Watch out Luka, looks like somebody has taken your place."

My eyes scanned the board, it appeared like Kaito was ranked number one in our grade year.

"Cocky aren't we? Well challenge accepted. We'll see who gets first place during midterms." I walked passed him, and he followed with that same idiotic grin on his face.

Although Kaito was usually an idiot, he was really smart. From a glance most people would have assumed he was just an airhead. His outstanding grades proved otherwise. We were both naturally smart, we never needed to study. We were just able to retain information easily.

Despite that, he was different. We may have the same honors classes, but Kaito was on a totally different level than me. He was blessed with everything.

He was gifted in so many things; he was basketball captain and the star of the team in middle school. He was second in the class rank (I won last year), and he was handsome! Believe me the list could go on, Kaito was simply too perfect. If we didn't grow up together, I wonder if he'd talk to a gloomy person like me.

He was radiant and shined brightly like the summers sun.

And that was something I was not.

I sighed when we finally got home. I was exhausted; I didn't know how I could possibly keep up this weekly schedule. I got so used to being lazy during the summer.

I didn't like today. Everybody loved Kaito (who wouldn't?) everyone seemed to gather around him and talk and laugh like they were under his spell. I was sitting right next to him but I felt so far away. I didn't like that. I was even a little envious, how did he do that? He seemed to be able to have people always around him effortlessly. Everyone wanted to know him and be his friend. Kaito was all I had; he was my one and only friend.

His new friends offered to have lunch with him and even hangout after school. But he refused and I asked him why.

"I didn't want to go to karaoke; I wanted to get ice cream with you."

Although I was happy he wanted to be with me, I didn't want to burden him. He slung his arm around my shoulders as we continued walking home.

"It's more fun with you Luka, you're not noisy like all those other girls going kyaa, kyaa~" He said the last part girly, and I couldn't help but giggle at his silly antics.

Was I holding him back?

I couldn't shake the feeling as I drifted to a deep sleep.

Why was everything so bright? I looked down at my outfit; I was wearing a white sundress with my hair flowing. Was this really me? Oh that's right, I was dreaming. I continued walking bare footed through the eternal light. I slightly panicked, I wasn't dead right?

"Luka," A voice called for me, I turned towards the voice and it was him.

"Kaito," I whispered, he held my hands and hugged me tightly.

"Don't go." He whispered and I instantly felt pulling, something was pulling me away from Kaito! I tried to hold onto him tighter but I was roughly pulled away. Another woman walked up to Kaito and took my place. She stood on her toes and kissed his lips.

She turned back and smiled at me and I suddenly felt my heart stop.

My eyes flew open, what the bloody hell was that? My head hurts, was that supposed to be a nightmare? I wasn't sure. I glanced at my clock; it was already four a.m. School will start in a couple of hours…I felt so restless; I wanted to see him now.

I got up and walked to my door and opened it, the spring night air smelled oddly sweet. I breathed deeply and sighed, what was I doing? I just couldn't control myself. I crawled over to Kaito's balcony and opened his door. He always left it unlocked.

He was sleeping and I sat on the floor beside his bed, he stirred and blinked.

"Luka…?" I was silent as I closed my eyes.

"Hmm?" There was silence, did he go back to sleep?

"Nightmare?" He asked in a hoarse voice. The moon was reflecting on his soft pale skin and I began singing lightly or maybe I was humming? It appeared he fell asleep and I was as well.

I should probably leave but I didn't want to. I didn't want to leave him so I stayed by his side, the only place I ever felt so safe and comfortable.

Soo…Well this is interesting chapter eh? Well this is my first Vocaloid fic and I fell completely in love with Luka Megurine. I can't help it! She's so beautiful and mysterious…Her songs remind me of a Japanese Adele with a twist. I also wanted to write a Kaito x Luka fic because let's face it, they don't get enough love!

Edit: 1/25/2014