A/N: HEY READERS, I JUST WANTED TO LET YOU KNOW THAT I RE-EDITED THE FIRST COUPLE OF CHAPTERS. AND CHANGED A FEW THINGS. : )

Disclaimer: JKR owns all characters, plots, etc. that you recognize.

Summary: It seems love just isn't what's in store for Lily Evans and James Potter. After two years in a relationship, they couldn't see why they were still together. Now they try to convince themselves and everyone around them that breaking up really was for the best, even though deep down they are heartbroken. They struggle to find some sort of happiness, sort through confusion, and end up realizing that they were meant for each other. Then all they have to do is put aside their pride and tell each other the truth. Eventually LJ! R&R Please!

Chapter 1

I sighed as I sorted through all these boxes full of old school things. I was sitting on the floor in my new flat, right in front of the fireplace. It was a cold, rainy night so I had the fire going. The only light in my flat was from the fire. I had only these few boxes left to unpack. And of course they were full of my old school belongings. I had procrastinated unpacking them due to painful memories of what used to be a good time in my life. I loved these memories, I knew I would treasure them and always remember them, thinking of them fondly in the years to come. It was these moment that had brought us closer back then.

I sat on the couch by the fireplace in the Gryffindor common room, reading a book, when James plopped down next to me with a great big sigh. James and I had officially become boyfriend and girlfriend only two months ago. Marking the page, I closed my book and turned my head to face him. I could see the fire dancing in the reflection of his glasses. He sighed again with a slight smile. His brows furrowed showing he was deep in thought. He reached his arm around me and pulled into his side. He was so warm to the touch--I could stay in this position forever and be content for the rest of my life. He began to unconsciously stroke my hair. I loved it when he did that, even if it did mess up my hair.

"Lily…" James started.

"Hmm? What's up, James?" I asked in response, laying my head down on his shoulder, staring into the fire as well.

"Nothing…" he drawled out, "I just wanted to tell you that you're beautiful."

I pulled away from his warmth slightly to look at his face. He tore his gaze from the fire to my face. He brought up his free hand, brushing it along my cheek. I began to lean forward, as did he. He gave me the softest kisses that night.

I ran into the common room with amazing speed, clutching a heartbreaking letter. Tears blurred my vision, while my pounding heartbeat drowned out the calls from my friends. Racing up the stairs, I tripped and landed with a great thud. Before I could gather myself up, I felt two strong, warm arms collect me up and carried me to my room. I could hear several inquisitive voices in my ears, but I ignored them, trying to find some sort of comfort in the arms that held me protectively. The voice that belonged to the arms that held me, whispered comforting things into my ear and asked me gently what happened, while I mumbled incoherently. After a few minutes I was calm enough to explain that my father had died. Having been so close, his death took a big toll on me. A stupid drunk teenage crashed into him head on, killing my father instantly upon impact, while that teenager walked away with a few bumps and bruises. I was so mad was all I could say. I never once looked at the faces hovering above me, although I could just imagine everyone's faces, even though I didn't really care.

A few days later, my family had held a funeral for my father. The arms that had held me protectively just a couple nights ago, now held me up. The arms belonged to none other than James, himself. He said nothing, just held me tightly. When the funeral ended, everyone that had attended headed back to my house. People continuously came up to me giving me their condolences that I didn't want to hear, yet it was James that kept me put. It was James that had been my rock for these last couple of days. I didn't know where I'd be without him.

Suddenly I felt his hand disappear from my lower back, only to reappear in my hand. He pulled me upstairs to my bedroom. He sat me on my bed, pulling off my shoes, and then did the same thing to himself. He pulled me down on the bed, spooning me. He never said a single word--he knew I didn't want to hear anything at all. His arms were wrapped around me and thoughts were flying around in my head. The last thing I thought about was that I was so glad I had James to get through this, before I drifted into a dreamless sleep.

Hogsmeade held a festival for the students every year. It was something we always looked forward to. Sirius had been counting down the minutes until the festival began--he was driving everyone nuts. It was the nicest day you could have in the autumn.

My friends, James and his friends, and I went down to Hogsmeade after lunch and since it was such a nice day, we had decided that we were going to walk. James grabbed my hand and we trailed behind the group, just watching everything going on. When we arrived, we couldn't decide where we wanted to go first. We finally settled on Zonko's after a few minutes. The boys decided they wanted to race to the shop--whoever lost had to buy whatever the winner wanted. Jenn counted to three and the boys took off, save for James. James had given me a huge grin before he went to catch up with the other boys. Jenn, Abby, and I just laughed when Sirius began to whine about Remus getting there first. I called out to him telling him he should be happy that he didn't lose. James was almost at the end and was in front of Peter, when he tripped flat on his face. I began to laugh so hard that I fell to a heap on the ground, while the girls began to giggle slightly. The girls and I weren't too far away from where James had fallen. James just rolled over to look at us. Then suddenly he began to chuckle a bit. He knew he had lost the race, but he didn't seem to care. I got up with the help of the girls and walked over to James. He seemed like he couldn't stop smiling at me for the world.

Remus didn't make James buy too much from Zonko's. As we were walking down the street I began to laugh again, thinking about how graceful James had been. I tried to stifle my laughter but I couldn't. I looked back and forth between the girls and the guys, as I burst out laughing. I hadn't laughed this hard in a long time. The others began to laugh as well, as James became slightly red in the face. He knew it was funny, but he was still slightly embarrassed.

I noticed an evil grin come across his face for a second, barely noticeable. Yet I did notice it, and once he immediately put on an innocent face, I knew it was time for me to start running. I dropped my shopping bags and turned running from the group as fast as I could. I dodged people in the streets and knew that James was right on my heals. I could hear my friends cheering me on, and James' friends were cheering him on. I threw my head back laughing as I nearly ran into a professor from school. I could hear James yelling at me playfully, but nothing could stop me. Nothing in the world could stop us. I screamed playfully when I felt James' arms wrap around me and I was brought to a stop. He tickled me without mercy.

James and I walked to the Three Broom Sticks to meet the others. We walked in and were hit with a crowd of people so thick, you had to press yourself up against everyone just to get by. Being so tall, James could spot the others at the booth in the back. Music was blaring into my ears as James guided us to the booth. Smiling at the group I slid in next to Sirius.

The boys and I decided it would be fun to do karaoke, since they had never done it before. We had the best time singing "I'm a Barbie Girl". None of us knew the words, but still we acted like we knew them, the whole time laughing. We had so much fun that we never cared about what anyone else thought.

We all stumbled out into the windy night. The whole town was lit up from the festivities. We rode some of the rides and play some of the games until it was time to go back to the school.

We all sat around in a circle on the floor in the heads common room. It was the night before graduation and we were just talking about our futures. Some of us weren't sure what we wanted to do, while others had their lives already planned out. We talked about all kinds of things and joked around. Sirius even pretended to marry me. It was funny because James rejected Sirius' proposal to me, threatening to beat Sirius up. We all laughed when Sirius and James began to wrestle playfully. Eventually we all parted ways until the morning.

"Hello family, friends, and faculty. My name is Lily Evans and I am the head girl of our graduating class. Congrats guys, we made it. After seven long years, in which we grew up together, we have finally reached the point in our lives to step out into the real world. Don't forget to remember those of whom we've lost and left behind, our missed opportunities and forgotten dreams, our painful memories of past loves and heartbreaks, our joyous memories of our youth and innocence. Remember the way things were when we came here in our first year, how we were small and didn't have a care. Take these memories with you when you step out into the dark time that lie ahead of us. And with that, I will leave you all with a goodbye and good luck!" I smiled widely as I finished my speech. Walking back to my seat, I passed James. I grabbed his hand for a second and squeezed tightly before letting go. James then gave a short speech as well.

The whole ceremony passed by in a blur. The next thing I remembered was walking back to my seat with a diploma and counting to three before throwing my cap into the air. Making my way through the crowd of students was difficult but I managed to reach my mother. She threw her arms around me, crying into my shoulder, telling me how proud she was of me and how proud my father would have been. Tears leaked out of the corners of my eyes at the mentioning of my father. I pulled away from my mother and saw my sister standing off to the side. I could tell she didn't want to be here so I thanked her for coming. But of course she blew me off. All of my friends and their families gathered around my family and me. Then before my friends and I left, our parents wanted to take a picture of all of us together.

Peter stood off to the left next to Abby and Jenn, who were whispering and giggling about something. Next to them was Remus, who was listening to something Sirius was talking about. Sirius was waving one of his arms around (something he usually did when he was talking) while his other arm was slung around my shoulders. Then there was James and I. I was the only one looking at the cameras with the biggest smile on my face. James was holding me around my waist, smiling at me and whispering in my ear.

I had been happy then, well, these last two years after school had ended had been good to some degree as well until recently. James and I had broken up because we both felt we were too different to stay together. It's been really hard on both of us, I think. I miss how we used to talk openly with each other, when we would talk about life and love, and how we were afraid of both. When we decided that it was final, we were actually breaking up, we didn't talk afterward. We just sat there side by side. Until he got up and left, never turning back. I immediately broke down and rushed over to Sirius' flat. I knew James wouldn't go straight to anyone; instead he would go to a pub and get drunk. Then he would go to his friends. Once I reached Sirius', I fell into his arms, sobbing my heart out. He consoled me for a couple of hours before I left to go back home. The next day I packed everything up and left. James kept the house.

Suddenly, I was startled out of my thoughts when an owl began tapping on my window. I jumped up immediately upon seeing the bird. I threw open the window and the owl flew in, landing on the back of a chair. I walked over to it and it extended its leg out to me. I untied the letter that was attached to its leg. I gave it an owl treat and it flew back out the window. I closed the window and opened the letter. It was from Sirius.

Lily,

How's everything going with your new flat? Is everything moved in because if it's not, me and Remus can help with anything. How is work going? It's really weird not having you around as much. We haven't seen you in three and a half weeks. We should hang out tonight. Everyone is coming over to my place for dinner around 8. You should come by. Then you could meet Remus' new girl. You'd like her. I hope that you'll come. I miss you. So does everyone else. Come by whenever.

--Sirius

I smiled at the letter, thinking about how much I missed everyone. I probably sat there debating on whether I should go or not for almost an hour. I knew James would be there and it would be very awkward, for everyone. But I wanted to see everyone, James included, to see how they all were. I missed him terribly. I wanted him back in my life, but I didn't know how he felt about everything. Eventually I decided I would go, when I noticed I only had twenty minutes before dinner began.

I ran into my room and got dressed and apparated over to a park near his flat. suddenly it began to pour down upon me. I traveled a few steps, but was unable to walk any farther.

There was an invisible force preventing me from walking over there. I could see him walking around inside through the window. He looked good, he looked happy. I couldn't go in there. I wasn't happy and I couldn't pretend to look happy. They would all see through it.

I have no idea how long I stood there, not moving, just watching him and our friends. It could have been fifteen minutes or it could have been an hour; I have no idea. My feet were plastered to the ground and my hands tightened around the letter. The ink on the letter was now blotched and was unreadable. I didn't know what I would say to any of them, let alone James. They were just about to sit down to eat. I could see them standing around in the kitchen holding their drinks.

You couldn't even tell that I had once been a part of their lives. I had been avoiding all of them. I started to cry, wishing things could go back to how they were. The rain drops mixed with my tears falling down my face, my makeup running. My clothes were soaked to the bone and my hair clung to my face. A car drove by, their lights shining on me, began to slow as they passed me. I could tell they were looking at me. I slowly fell to a heap on the ground, sobbing, because of how torn I felt.

The front door opened and Sirius stepped outside to the front porch and lit up a cigarette. He stood there looking around. I watched him closely when I saw him look my way. I was startled because I knew he spotted me, even if he didn't know it was me right away. He dropped his cigarette to the ground and put it out with his foot, straightening his jacket to try to stay as dry as possible. Then he descended down the steps and across the lawn, walking straight towards me.

He knew it was me, I just knew it. I stood up and started to back away. Panicking, I dropped the letter and turned around and ran. Sirius then began running and calling out for me to stop. Before he could reach me, I disapparated back to my flat.

Sirius stopped where I had been originally and found my crumpled letter. He picked it up and opened it. He knew that it had been me and that it had been his letter to me. He threw it into a trash bin on the way back to his flat. He walked back up the steps to his flat. Walking in, he told the others to wait for dinner; that he'd be right back. Walking back out, he apparated.

"Lily, we need to talk…"


A/N: okay. So here is the first chapter of lonely hearts. I hope you liked it. Please Review and let me know what you thought about it. I really appreciate it. Thanks the next chapter will come out soon!

LOVE,

IHEARTJAMESPOTTER

(AKA: jenn)

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