Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over...
She needed a hot, long bath; then a short cold one.
She quickly got into her shower and turned the heat up. Her whole body hurt, her whole mind hurt, and of course, her heart.
She wondered if she would feel like this after every time. Her words betrayed what she really felt.
That dance they just had was foreplay and it left her needing. Hell, she never stopped needing him. The water poured over her body and she lathered herself in bubbles, but all that did was tease her mind.
"Sesshomaru…" She whispered.
He was outside her door, still sticky with sweat and now wet from the rain that had started on his way over.
Her power, he smelled it. It was that of need, reaching out. He knew it was calling for him, she was calling for him.
He put his key in, slipped in the door and heard the shower. He sat his sword down and then looked up at her stupid cat calendar. He was tempted to throw it away, but he saw a date circled a few weeks back. It simply stated, Need more birth control.
What the hell did she need more for? They hadn't had sex in months, of course he knew no one else had been with her. She had yesterday circled too, REALLY NEED TO GET MORE BIRTH CONTROL.
So, she had been off it for a few weeks. Which meant she had no plan to screw someone else or she was being stupid.
No, she was not a stupid girl. She didn't miss a day when they were together.
God, he screwed it up good, didn't he? But no matter, this fit perfectly, and he would fix this.
He just hoped him letting that woman screw him didn't just screw up his whole life. Even though they were not a thing at the time, and she did refuse to go with him, he still knew how she felt.
Kagome touched herself and closed her eyes. It did no good, it wasn't his fingers.
"Cursed demon." She was supposed to be a pure being, right now she was downright impure. Impure thoughts running through her head, "I wish you were here." She ran her hand up her body and let her palm rub over her nipple.
What was she going to do?
He was hard, and not just your typical hard; he was so hard that his precum was already oozing out without even being touched.
He flipped open his phone.
Where are you?!
Kagome was knocked out of her thoughts as she heard her phone. She didn't turn the shower off as she reached over then flipped her phone up. Her heart skipped a beat, maybe a little push would help her get release.
In the shower
He wanted to growl so bad and his other hand went to hold himself, it was hurting.
Kagome
She shivered, she knew that text. It was his 'I'm the alpha' text. "Sesshomaru…" She whispered, he heard it.
What?
I'm coming
She freaked, what did that mean? Like he was coming over, or he was coming? What the hell kinda text was that?
Don't move
She looked down again, don't move?
Put the phone down and place your palms on the shower wall. DON'T MOVE.
She panicked. He heard when she closed her phone, he waited.
She closed her eyes and tried to feel his aura, but then, all she felt was him.
She let out a breath at the feel of him behind her. His arm around her waist, his other one against the shower wall. She was slightly bent over and he over her. His hair fell to one side still up and his mouth went to her ear.
"Kagome."
His voice alone sent heat pooling to her private area.
"Forgive me."
Her heart squeezed, tears formed, could she forgive him? After what he had done, what she had seen. He had touched someone else, someone else after she had given herself to him. She wasn't enough for him then, why would she be now?
"I'm not enough for you." She knew that.
She felt his power cover her, he was trying to make her submit.
"Your last kiss still haunts me. I have touched no others."
"You have!" She cried.
"She touched me."
"You still went to her."
"I wanted you!" His nuzzled her neck.
"Then the other."
"I never fucked her and did not touch another after."
That still didn't sit right with her. Even though, even though he made no promises to her.
"You stooped so low, even for you."
"It was not my intent for you to see my weakness. I needed you, you were untouchable."
"I'm being selfish. You made no promises to me, but I can't be all that you need. That's clear now."
No, it wasn't. He turned off the water but didn't move.
She was trying to forget, she really was, those awful thoughts in her mind's eye.
Yet, he made no promise to her and Sesshomaru only made promises that he could keep.