Putting Love on Hold
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I am sure that he never meant to hurt me. I mean, even though he practically ripped out my heart, he doesn't know it………yet. You see, I am in love with my best friend, well, one of them anyway. Most people that know me would think that this would never work out. How am I going to even possibly have a relationship with a person that I can't even get along with………
By the way, my name is Hermione. I am a wizard and I go to a school called Hogwarts. I am one of those kids that spends most of her time doing my school work and studying for a test that I know that I will pass. Well, at least that is what everyone thinks.
Like usual, I am sitting at my favorite table in the library. I like this one because it is in a secluded area and I am away from any distractions. I had originally planned to come and study for my next Potions test, but somewhere between the first page in my textbook and the time that I had read the first chapter, my mind slipped away. It wasn't like it mattered anyway, I had read the book at the beginning of the summer. Anyways, somewhere in that time my mind drifted away. I started thinking about my two best friends, you know, the ones I mentioned earlier. One of them being Harry. Poor Harry. Sometimes I wish I could take some of the burden and sorrow off of his shoulders. It seems the whole entire wizarding world believes that he is the only way for them to have peace, and they have done a dog gone good job of letting him know it. It wouldn't be so bad if it weren't for the press last year. Oh, last year was awful, I mean, you would think that someone that has done so much for so many people would be respected more than that. And then they expect him to just drop everything and save them when they discovered he was telling the truth in the first place?!?!
He is doing better this year though, I mean, at least his anger isn't so bad. But in some ways it is worse. Instead of blowing off in my and Ron's face, I find him sometimes in the common room late at night sitting by the fire with tears running down his face. Not that I can blame him; he lost his only remaining loyal family member at the end of last year. Of course, he doesn't show it in front of my and Ron, who, by the way, is my other best friend. He doesn't talk as much as he used to. And sometimes that fire that was in his eyes you can tell has died down. Ron has noticed it too. He has tried to talk to him about it, but Harry wont budge.
Ginny has helped out a lot though. She is such a nice and caring person, and I have noticed that she has been spending a lot of time with Harry lately. And if he doesn't know you are watching, he seems really happy around her. Actually, I think he may like her a little bit. Not that I would complain, I mean, I like her so much better than Cho. Plus, Ginny will understand Harry so much better than she ever could.
Another reason I approve of her is because she is now one of my best friends. I never really got the chance to really get to know her until the last two summers. I spend most of my free time from the boys with her. She is really the only girl friend I have. Don't get me wrong, I like Harry and Ron, but sometimes I just can't tell them certain things. I love them to death, but they just don't get girls- at all. Especially Ron………
This is where my problem comes in. If you haven't guessed it already, Ron is the one who has hurt me so bad. And the worst part is that he doesn't know. It isn't like I haven't tried to tell him. He is just so ……… oblivious! Gosh, he is just so sweet and caring, and he does so much for me and Harry. He may not be the top of his class, and sometimes we get in huge fights that end me crying and the silent treatment game for a few days, but he always seems to find a way to make it better. And lately, it has gotten to the point where I want him to fight with me just so I can see the passion in his eyes.
Pathetic isn't it? But you just have to really know him to understand it. He is the most insecure person and I know his family brings it on him. He is so ashamed of himself sometimes, and he wont even listen to Harry and me when we tell him that it doesn't matter. We aren't friends with him for the amount of money his parents have at the bank, we like him for who he is. He is so brave and caring, and smart when he tries. He is protective, and though at times that can be a bad things, at other times, it is very nice to know.
A couple of years back he really showed that when he got so incredibly jealous over this guy I took to a ball that the school had over the Christmas holidays. We got in this huge row right after it that Harry walked in on. I felt to angry at him that day. How come he couldn't get the fact that I was practically handing it to him in writing that I liked him. And the worst part is I may not even like him, lately………I have been thinking I might love him………
Not that it makes a difference, he may never know that. No………not until he lets me know how he feels. Oh well, until then I guess I will just go around with a smile on my face and act like I am happy about everything.
Oh, here they come. They probably need help on, again. I guess I better act like I am studying so that they don't suspect anything. At least I get to talk to him for a while. I guess my love will have to stay on hold for now………
Hey everyone. I know I haven't written anything in a long time. I really don't have all that much time anymore, so I am doing my best. I hope you liked this first chapter. If I don't get at least five reviews I may not continue. Let me know what you want!
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