A/N: okay this is my second glee thread and it's faberbrittina so anyone who doesn't like that or femslash should really stop reading now as it will happen. As for my other fic, Give Your Heart a Break, it's not over. I just have a little bit of writers block, not really for what I am going to do next just how.

A/N 2: since it's AU I think I should point out a few things, one Finchel never happened, he came back to Glee but they never got together because honestly after Finn used Rachel like he did with the whole bowling thing, I think it was weird for them together(plus I actually hate Finn). Also Pucktana were never more then friends, Brittina are girlfriends in secret(not to people with eyes but yeah). Puck and Rachel are cousin so they never dated and Puck never slushed her or bullied her, no-one but Brittany knows this though. Quinn did have Beth(same way as the show) but she has swear off men and is back with her mother. The rest will kinda be explained as we go.

A/N 3: i don't know anything of glee if I did Finn wouldn't have been a main character and likely written off long before the end of the first ep.

Someone to Love

chapter one

Britt POV

Okay so people may called me stupid, well actually no-one calls me that because Sanny would totally kick their ass but I know people think that. I know that most people wouldn't think that their cat was smoking but then why does Lord Tuddington have a lighter in his bed? Well maybe he is planning to help the neighbors with a insurance claim or something like that but I have found him smoking before so I think that's it. People just see me as this little girl who doesn't know anything but they couldn't be more wrong, I mean I may not know how to do maths or even who the Nazis are but I know people very well.

I know some people are shocked by that since I could point out things that they don't see, maybe that's why I am here to show those things like I totally knew that Quinn's baby wasn't Finn's because I know a stock wasn't near his house and also by the way Puck was acting around Quinn. I know that Santana is a Lebanese and I am Bike-curious but I know that Sanny needs to deal with her upbringing and her parents before she holds my hand in the hallways. I know that Finn believe that he is smart but he can't be if he believes that he could have been Beth's father from a hot tub. Anyway I guess people could call me people smart which is the best in my opinion.

Me and San arrive at the Glee Club meeting last, well apart from Mr Schue who is always late. I wonder if he gets lost as much as I do because not even I get lost walking to the choir room. I look over and smile at Rachel and something's off with her, even though she smiles back, it's not a Rachel Berry smile that I love. It seems fake to me, I always feel bad when I look at Rachel, not a lot of people know this but she was my first friend when I moved to Lima from Miami. I think my parents wanted a small town so when I get lost it's easier to find me. Anyway we moved next door to the berrys and I meant Rachel the summer before high school.

We were close friends, maybe actually best friends until McKinley started up, Coach had scouted me from Miami and basically told me I was joining to Cheerios when she called my house which was okay because I love to dance and cheerleading means I can dance. I told Rachie straight away but she didn't look very happy about it. She told me all about how McKinley was from what people are her middle school had said. She also told me that she wasn't very liked and I was really her first friend and that she was going to lost me when school started.

I disagreed with her because I do want to be her friend, still do really but it's hard. Anyway when school started I walked in with my Cheerios outfit on walking beside Rachie when I meant Santana and Quinn.

flashback

I'm super excited about starting McKinley with Rachel, she never calls me stupid and explains stuff to me when I get confused, she's super awesome and smart like that. We are walking into the school early because meanie sue wants me to turn up early and everything but Rachie said she would come too so I would make it there okay. She looks nervous as I smile at her. "Rachie, don't be so nervous, it's a new start for the both of us. We are going to be super duper best friends forever."

I really did mean that but she still doesn't look to sure. "Well I would like to think that was the case, I don't think that's a good idea. I mean look at you, Brittany, you're tall, pretty and blond, everything that could make you at the top of the ladder here where as I am just Gay Berry, the social reject. I think you would be better just to hang out with the Cheerios and forget about me. It's for your own good."

I shake my head at her as we walk towards the gym. "Nope, you're my best friend, Rachie and that's all I want to hear about it."

Rachie still doesn't look sure as we make it to my locker which Sue told me to go first to pick up some kind of folder or something and I start to open it but I turn to Rachie, who simply smiles and says "Brittany, you want me to put your combination in for you?" I nod her head as she does just that laughing at my cuteness which makes me smile.

I learn in to get a folder that has my name on it and the word cheerio on it too and show it to Rachie but as I turn I see two new girls behind her and I get confused, they were wearing the same outfit as me but they seem to make Rachie look scared. The Latina looks at Rach and starts to talk. "Well if it isn't Manhands, Q, I bet she is here to check out all the cheerleaders. I mean being a tranny and all she would be into us."

Q looks at the Latina and nods "Yup, Manhands you need to stop annoying the cheerios or we will make your life a living hell." Q walks up to me and puts her head out to me for me to shake it, I do it but I am still confused. "You must be Brittany, Coach told us to get you. I am the new head cheerleader of the Cheerios, Quinn and this is my best friend, Santana."

Santana looks at me and starts to blush a little as I look back before turning to Rachie. "Didn't I just tell you to beat it, Manhands because I am sure that I did."

I go to speak but Rach beats me to it. "Yes, I am sorry but I was lost to the choir room and I saw this cheerio who I assumed was a sophomore because of her height. I simply asked her where to go bu.." before she could finish that sentence, Santana had taken the slushie that Quinn was drinking from and tossed it into Rach's face. I was shocked as was she.

"Now bet it, Manhands, no-one cares about you." Rach stood there as Santana linked pinkys with me and smiled. "Hey Brittany, you want to be our best friend, Coach said that you are the best dance so between Q being the Head Cheerleader, me being the baddest ass here and you being the best dancer, we could rule this school."

We started to walk away but I turn back to look at Rach, who simply smiled and mouthed it's okay to me, I was kinda happy to meet Santana because my heart seemed to beat faster about her but it kinda broke as I saw Rach alone behind us.

End of flashback

After that, Rachel just threw herself more into her dream and we didn't hang out as much. I don't think anyone even knows that she stays right next door to me. Still I look at Rach now and she looks different, I turn to Santana and start to frown. "Sanny, something's wrong with Rachel."

Santana looks at me confused as she looked at Rachel before squeezing my pinky. "Britt, she's fine, she's smiling and everything. Even if she's not, it's only Manhands for haven sake." My heart hurts every time I hear that nickname plus it's wrong, Rachel has some of the softest hands I've ever held. I look at Rachie knowing something's not right with her.

Rachel POV

Once again I've in Glee and where it's a nice, safe place for most, it's just another place for others to mock me. I know that it hasn't changed in two years but today just seem harder for some reason. Maybe it's the fact that someone thought it was a good idea to fill my locker with slushie, something I believe was the work of Santana or another Cheerio, apart from Brittany of course. My locker was ruined and to top it all off, I was slushed on the way to my first period so I am wearing clothes from the lost and found. Not that anyone actually noticed or cared about me.

I know it's selfish but I honestly can't take this today, I just want to go home but Mr Schuester walked into the room looking to have another "great idea" for us to do now that we have another year. I mean sure I am happy about this because this is as close to what I have as friends but still his ideas normally suck because if we want to win anything we need to focus on everything that we need to beat all the other Show Choirs. He starts to write on the board the word Comeback before he turns to us. "Now since we have just came back from summer, I think it's a good idea for this week's assignment to be about comebacks. Now that is what New Directions and the Glee Club here at McKinley is going to have a Comeback from when I was in the national winning show choir."

Which is another annoying thing about Mr Schuester is that he lives in the past a little but no matter I will perform at the best that I can. "Well that being the case, I believe that I will sing one of the diva comeback of all time when I sing Marah Carey's Heartbreaker."

"Oh that's a great song for me." Mercedes said as I roll my eyes at her clearly stealing my song choice just as I pick it.

"Great song choice, Mercedes" I blink a few times as Mr Schuester basically just handed my song choice to Mercedes. That wasn't fair.

"Excuse me, Mr Schuester, I believe that I had chosen that song first. I feel that it's highly unfair for you and her to take that from me only seconds after I said that I was going to be singing it."

"You are likely just upset because she will sing it better then you, Rachel." Kurt chimed in like he always does in these fights, so much for us glowing as a team or maybe that's just the others and I am the outsider still.

"Maybe she should find her own song and stop being lazy."

"Maybe you should stop being a selfish diva that runs this club, everyone knows that when it comes to singing, I am better then you, Rachel." Mercedes said which was a lie because as much as she can sing the power ballads as good as me, her vocal range in limited to those type of songs, where as I can sing a number of different songs.

"Everyone would say that because they like you better then me, not because you are more talented Mercedes and I believe that I wo..."

"Rachel, why don't you sit down and choose another song?" Mr Schuester said as I turn and face him blinking again. "We know that you have a number of song ready for any assignment that I give so it shouldn't be too much of a problem for Mercedes to have this song. After all isn't that what being a team player is all about?"

I couldn't believe that Mercedes stole my song and questioned my talents and yet Mr Schuester is talking about me not being a team player. I bend down and pick up my bag as I look at Mr Schuester. "Well if you don't feel like I am a team player then maybe I shouldn't be in the team." I storm off before I let any tears fall from my eyes, not one of my fellow team mates had stood up for me, not even my own cousin. It was just a little too much to take.

I manage to walk home without crying as soon as I enter the empty house, I start to cry. It wasn't just what happened at Glee or even School but that really didn't help. No-one really liked me very much and that hurt a lot. I don't even have Maria anymore, my dog died over the summer after it had a bad illness, I should have seen it coming, it was a little bit old but she would always come up and cheer me up when the day was over, without her, there no-one.

I manage to calm myself a little as I make my way to my laptop which was on the table in the living room. I try to put on my happy face as I was thinking about busting out another one of my famous myspace videos so I open the laptop up and click on myspace account and read some of the comments from people who watched my old videos. I don't know why to be honest because it's just random cheerios and jocks mocking me like always. Maybe that why I am doing that because I am all of those things, ugly, annoying and a loser. I mean my own fathers don't even want me anymore so who actually cares.

It was mostly the normal stuff like I look like a trany or saying that my treatments need to happen faster if I want to be a girl but one took me back. It wasn't the first time someone had put this here but it seem like it was as I read it over and over again from a random cheerio name, Cheerio192.

Cheerio192: Maybe you should just put everyone out of their misery and die, manhands, no-one wants you.

I had been so good with my thoughts all day, not once thinking about that disgusting habit that I seen to have picked up but that one comment made me need to do it. It was the only way that I knew would take the pain away, I get some tissue from the kitchen as well as my kit that I made during the summer and set up in the kitchen as I didn't really need to worry about someone coming in and spotting me doing it. I take out one of the razor blades from the book and look at it.

I may be doing something that is dangerous but I don't want to do so I am making sure that it is clean before I start to cut myself on the wrist like I have done many times, I only cut until I feel all the emotional pain fade away which it was but something's wrong. I start to feel very weak as I do try to reach the tissue to wipe the blood from the table. I sit down thinking that it could be the rush from it maybe getting to me but I feel like I am fading fast. Maybe closing my eyes and taking a nap won't hurt.

Puck POV

Okay I've been a bad Jewbro to Rachel but honest it wasn't my fault this time. Sure I was in Glee when she got into a fight with Mercedes but I was busy sexting some cheerio then actually listen and by the time that I found out what happened from Britt, she was gone. I know what everyone is thinking when I rushed out but I didn't care, she's my cousin and she needed me. So much for my promise to my mom about being a better cousin to Rach.

Anyway I stop off at my house and picked up my WII, I thought that maybe we could hang out like old times and play Mario Karts for the WII. I know that I have a lot to make up with everything that has happened. I know despite what Rachel thinks that her fathers moved away, one thing about cleaning the pools about here, you hear rumors and I know the berrys and they don't just stay in the house. The fact that no-one has seen them in eighteen months here means something.

I park my pick up in the driveway as I see Rach's car ahead of me. I smile as I pick up my WII and game before making it to the front door. I was going to knock but knowing Berry, she's in her sound proof room recording another one of those videos. I smile as look for the space key that is always in the flower pot and yup it's there again. I unlock the door and walk into the house smiling as I see the laptop on the table and I look at it as it's Berry's. The message makes me worry. "Yo, Berry, Puck challenging you to your Mario Kart crown."

I walk into the kitchen and I see it, not even caring about my WII I toss it and rush over to Rach and use the tissue that she has to try to stop the bleeding. I see the other scars on her wrist which at least gives me some hope that this wasn't her trying to take her own life. I take out my phone and dial 911. "I need an ambulance, my cousin's bleeding heavily." I manage to say as I try to hold the phone to my ear and stop the bleeding.

Anyway reviews are welcome here, I know it's not great but it will get better.