Looking Back at You
by She's a Star
Disclaimer: HP belongs to the brilliant J.K. Rowling :)
A/N: I just saw the HP movie, and the Erised scene practically had me in tears, which led me to wonder what Lily was thinking as she stared back at her son...
~*~
I know, now that I'm looking back at you, that I am your heart's desire.
And you are mine as well.
Seeing you standing there, looking so grown-up, brings tears to my eyes. I was never there to read you storybooks or see you lose your teeth or throw temper tantrums.
All I wanted was to be there.
Now I wish that you could know that it's really me here, standing on the other side of the mirror. Not just a shadow or a picture...it's me.
It isn't fair. I only get your reflection...I can't hug you or speak to you.
I can't tell you how much I miss you.
The last time I saw you, you were only a baby. The last moment of my life was the most horrible. I heard that high, cruel laugh and my heart broke, knowing that your father was lying down there, dead.
Dead.
I was crying, sobbing, so confused and scared and alone. And then you gave me one of your sweet toothless smiles, and I was just so full of love for you...
So much love that it saved you.
A flash of green light, and I was gone.
And now, here you stand before me, looking so sad and lost.
But you can't let the fact that I'm not with you discourage you. You're a brilliant, amazing wizard, Harry. That's why Voldemort killed us...
That's why he didn't kill you.
You're sighing now...whispering something, then turning to leave.
Perhaps you shouldn't come back.
Don't throw your life away because you can't see me.
I'm still here.
I'll always be here.
I love you.
...
Good bye.
by She's a Star
Disclaimer: HP belongs to the brilliant J.K. Rowling :)
A/N: I just saw the HP movie, and the Erised scene practically had me in tears, which led me to wonder what Lily was thinking as she stared back at her son...
~*~
I know, now that I'm looking back at you, that I am your heart's desire.
And you are mine as well.
Seeing you standing there, looking so grown-up, brings tears to my eyes. I was never there to read you storybooks or see you lose your teeth or throw temper tantrums.
All I wanted was to be there.
Now I wish that you could know that it's really me here, standing on the other side of the mirror. Not just a shadow or a picture...it's me.
It isn't fair. I only get your reflection...I can't hug you or speak to you.
I can't tell you how much I miss you.
The last time I saw you, you were only a baby. The last moment of my life was the most horrible. I heard that high, cruel laugh and my heart broke, knowing that your father was lying down there, dead.
Dead.
I was crying, sobbing, so confused and scared and alone. And then you gave me one of your sweet toothless smiles, and I was just so full of love for you...
So much love that it saved you.
A flash of green light, and I was gone.
And now, here you stand before me, looking so sad and lost.
But you can't let the fact that I'm not with you discourage you. You're a brilliant, amazing wizard, Harry. That's why Voldemort killed us...
That's why he didn't kill you.
You're sighing now...whispering something, then turning to leave.
Perhaps you shouldn't come back.
Don't throw your life away because you can't see me.
I'm still here.
I'll always be here.
I love you.
...
Good bye.