This story is set in the expanding universe of Stephenie Meyer and I'm not her.

Dear readers,

Questions: What might imprinting be like for the rare female werewolf. What if it has to be mutual? What if you couldn't get to the one you have just imprinted upon and you don't have a clue as to who he is? That's what this story explores. I hope you like it.

I'm so pleased so many of you have enjoyed this story! I never planned for it to be long-and let's face it-it can't go too much farther. One reviewer has suggested that I at least create an epilogue so that's what I'm now planning to do. Please be patient, though. I am almost done with my first story 'Daybreak' and also need to do something about it's companion story 'Zenith'.

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Epiphany

1. To See

Morning commutes were going to kill me. I watched as other people around me sipped their morning coffee, read the newspaper, talked on their cell phones. I knew I could be doing any or all of those things, but what I really wanted was to get to work. It always puzzled me how so many people could just sit back and watch the world pass by without wanting to jump up and do something...be something.

Alright...I was being a bit unfair, I know. All these people sitting here in apparent relaxation...who knew what was really going on in their lives, right? They had problems and troubles of their own. For all I knew this was their one singular moment of peace in an otherwise hectic and fast-paced day.

Of course, that thought bothered me just as much. Why couldn't I find that moment of peace that all these people seemed to achieve simply by drinking a cup of coffee on a train? I felt my foot twitch with impatience as we came to the next stop. Riding the BART was the most efficient way to get to work, I kept telling myself. You save money, gas, and...in reality...time. It was true. I had actually timed it. This was the fastest way into downtown Berkeley where I worked as a legal assistant in a small law firm. It didn't change the fact that every single morning since I'd begun taking this train I had been dealing with the frustration that overwhelmed me when I didn't have anything to do.

When I used to drive myself, I had my music and the navigation of the vehicle to consider. I took different routes all the time just for the heck of it. Or maybe it was to stay as busy as possible even when driving to work.

I sighed. What was wrong with me anyway? I had a good job where people respected me. I had friends that were great fun to hang out with. My apartment was all I could ask for with an amazing view of the city and no roommate to bother me. No one to bother me at all. I frowned. This is why I hate this commute. Too much time to think about what I have and, more importantly, don't have in my life.

I'd had a few boyfriends in college. Nothing serious. Getting past all the crazy angst I'd harbored for so long against Sam and that whole way of life...it had taken me a long time. Even now, when I really let myself think about it, which was rare, I could feel the ache inside me for all I'd put myself and everyone else through that last year at home. Selfish, selfish, selfish! I hated thinking about it. More than hated...it made me cringe to remember all the thoughts I'd deliberately obsessed over when I knew what it would do to Sam and all the guys. I deserved my title of Queen Bitch back then. Absolutely! And then to remember how kind and humble Sam had been with me through it all...shouldering blame that he'd had no control over...no real guilt to wallow in, at all. And yet I'd reveled in watching him squirm. Hateful!

Sighing again I opened my purse and got out a compact to check my hair and make-up...just to have something to do. Every time I saw how long my hair had grown, I grinned. It was nice to feel pretty again, I thought. Having several different guys chase after me in college had been good for my shredded ego. And the friends I'd made there had been even better. Thinking about the problems Kathy had to face in her life...that had really put my petty issues in perspective. Watching her go through chemo treatments, never knowing how long I was going to get to keep my friend..., watching her family buckle under the worry and grief they were all fighting so bravely against, I'd finally realized that there was a lot more to life than whining about a guy and wishing you could have something that you'd only thought you wanted.

Kathy had been and still was good for me in other ways, too. She's gotten me out of my shell. Made me laugh at myself...something I'd never found easy. And she's such a girly girl that she couldn't help but do all she could to make me over and bring out the inner femme in me.

I smiled when I remembered the first time Seth had seen me after I'd been away for a semester. He almost hadn't recognized me. That was flattering and weird at the same time. Seeing his reaction had triggered so many memories about how I'd treated everyone, including myself, before I went away to college. Thankfully Seth was the best little brother in the world; his love was something I would always treasure.

Thinking about him and the others reminded me that I was supposed to contact the Pack tomorrow. Sam had been insistent, even before my own coming to terms and moving on. If and when I finally decided to forsake my heritage completely, he would, of course, not stand in my way. That was a personal decision. But, until that time, he had asked that I phase at least once every two weeks to let everyone know how I was and to participate in any decisions that had to be made by the entire Pack. At first I'd hated doing this, and I still wished at times that I could be allowed to go for longer periods of time without having to phase back for these little chats...but I also knew that Sam only asked this of me because he wanted me to know that no one was pushing me out. It really was my decision.

When I'd first gone apartment hunting I had had to keep my phasing needs in mind. I could always do it in my apartment in a pinch...but I'd much rather be outside in the woods for something like that. Once I had phased, the urge to run and explore with my senses was always overwhelming and addictive. It would be the best experience in the world...if it didn't always come with the price of have your every thought read and having to listen in on everyone else's.

I thought about what I'd likely be hearing over the Pack-line tomorrow. Not much, I expected. The Cullen's were still there...if you just counted the Doctor and his wife. The last I'd heard, they were considering moving away in the next few years. Probably time to start a new life. I knew that some of the Pack would be sad to see them go. It was strange thinking about all the changes that had happened in the last few years. It was also nice to know that I hadn't been the only one to grow up and see things a bit more clearly. I'd hated the Cullens as much as the rest of the Pack back then. But after all we went through with them..the big things and the small...it just got harder and harder to hold on to the hate. That's the way it should be, right? I smiled at the thought and turned to watch as the train stopped and a few people got off and several more got on. Just one more stop and I'd be at work. Let the day begin...please!

Outside my window I watched as a little girl, holding tightly to her mother's hand, raced to get on the train. She was smiling up at her mother and I saw her laugh. It was such a sweet moment. One I hoped to one day have for myself. I wondered when that day might come, though. I couldn't seem to find anyone I could ever imagine spending the rest of my life with.

It was so easy for the guys back home. They'd found their mates...their life partners...the love of their lives. Seth was the only one yet to settle down and he was still young. Why couldn't the magic work for me. Magic, genetics...what did it matter? I sometimes felt so left out. It was like I was a freak among freaks. The odd ball.

Whining again, Leah! I had to stop that. No good could come of it and I'd just end up in a bad mood for the rest of the day. And no one wanted that!

I looked again at the little girl and smiled. They were almost on the train and it would be taking off any second. I sat back and waited for the doors to close, feeling the energy of the train as it got ready to head out to the next station.

Looking out the window again, I noticed a group of men in business suits standing nearby. They must be waiting for the next train. They were all talking and laughing about something and as I watched, one of them happened to look my way and our eyes met.

I thought I was going to pass out or explode or both. It was as though a nova had gone off inside me. The train seemed to melt away and all I could see were two intensely blue eyes staring into mine. As my ears began to ring and every nerve in my body seemed to be dancing and singing, I felt an intense pull towards that strange man. I had to get to him! I saw him take a step toward me as the train began to move. I groaned and jumped to my feet pushing my way through the standing and seated passengers, frantically. My eyes never left his as he began to run after the train. I gasped at the shocked expression on his face as we both realized it was humanly impossible to reach each other.

The train pulled away and I was left staring after him. The image of him running after the train burned in my soul as gravity began to resume it's normal force and I raced back to my seat and my cell phone. My heart was pounding. I felt like sobbing and laughing and suddenly I realized that I was doing both. People around me were staring and I didn't know what on earth to say. All I knew was that back there, perhaps still racing after me, was a man I'd never seen before. A man whose eyes still burned in my heart. The man I knew in my soul was the only one for me. I had finally found him...my other half. I couldn't lose him now!

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