Ok, This came to me... and uh, yea. A little OOC, ok i guess more than a little but I hope you enjoy. Please R&R and tell me what you think! =]

Valy

_How It Is_

For some reason today felt different from any other day I've had in the past what? …Couple of days. For some reason I felt like things were going to change drastically. Anyway maybe it was just because today's the day Lissa and I were graduating from this prison…but even though I would never admit it to anybody and I actually haven't; it's one out of the two places I can really call home.

You see my mother abandoned me so she could go on and fulfill her duty as a Guardian. She left me, barely five years old, to be raised by the Academy. I mean if she bothered to visit me once in a while, or call or even write for crying out loud, I mean that wouldn't have been so bad right?

But no. I was like she didn't even have me. Guess she didn't love me. I don't know. And as for my dad? Well the only thing I know about him was that he probably had awesome hair because I know for sure I didn't get my hair from my mother. She has red, curly hair. She's short like me and a badass Guardian. Much said. So yea…oh the other place I once called home?

Don't know if you remember me saying there were two so keep up. The Dragomir's. They were like my second family. Vasilisa Dragomir and I and best friends and I am going to be her Sanctioned Guardian. I use to spend my summers with her and her family as their home since my mother was to busy to take care of me or anything for that matter.

So they took me in. But once day while we were all in the car we got into an accident and everyone died. Even me. But Lissa saved me, she brought me back from the dead with Spirit. Which is a rare Moroi magic I would figure. Now we're bonded and I could feel her emotions, hear her thoughts and sometimes I'm also dragged into her mind when she's having like intense emotions…or having sex with her boyfriend Christian. I love Lissa, we're like sisters you know? We've been through so much together, and now that I think about it, all that stuff would make a great sitcom…hmm.

But anyway. About two years ago Lissa and I ran away from the Academy because someone was threatening her and I was the only one with balls to do anything about it. So we ran away and lived in the human world for two years. When needed I would let Lissa drink from me. It was only between us two but I didn't care. She is my charge and I would give up my life for her.

Then we find out that the evil, conniving villain who had been threatening her was actually Victor Dashkov in the end. How much I hate that man for what he put Lissa and I through but mostly Lissa. He kidnapped her and tortured her to heal him because he was dying, and now still is might I add, of an incurable disease. Ah well. He's evil. Moving on.

The only reason I found them was because of my bond with Lissa. I could've felt her pain and I knew where they were holding her. We got to her in time though and everything went down good. Well not good but justice was served. But I would've loved to show him some Rose Hathaway justice. Then if that wasn't enough they had been a series of Strigoi attacks very close to St. Vlad's and everyone was worried. I mean they were aiming for elite Royal Moroi's. So the Academy shipped us all off to a Ski Lodge Resort.

Many things happened there. First, Eddie, Mia and Mason; my amazing but idiotic friends, got a lead as to where a gang of Strigoi were hiding in Spokane. Christian and I, we grew close, went after then and …well I nearly lost Mason. It was the hardest part of my life. I never knew that… hmm. Sorry, the memory brings back intense emotions in me. I know right?

But we made is and yes I made the kills. Then, I met Adrian. Adrian, ahh that drunk Moroi. We met, he wooed me; as cheesy as it sounds yes he did, and we well he fell in love with me. I, I know I love him, but I don't know. I'm engaged to him so that means something right?

So at the moment present I'm getting ready for graduation. I had my towel around me and dropped it to put on my undies when that man walked in.

"Adrian Ivashkov! You cannot just walk into my room like that!" I yelled.

He wrapped his arms around my bare and slightly wet body and pecked my on the lips.

"One: it's OUR room and, Two: how can you be shy after what we did last night?" he smirked into my lips.

I blushed tomato red. Adrian wasn't my first but the first time we had sex was a week ago when he proposed.

I smiled my man eater smile and said, "How can I not be when I'm around someone as sexy as you?"

"Oh Little Dhampir, don't flatter me, you're the sexy one between us both. I have to try and keep up with you everyday."

He started kissing me. His lips travelled from my neck to my collar bone. Leaving little sparks of electricity in its wake. Then to my jaw line and finally he crushed our lips together and I exploded. I didn't care that I was graduating I wanted him now!

He started to smile on my lips, maybe remembering graduation.

"Little Dhampir, your graduating in 30 minutes. Do you really want to be late? No, lets go."

"Quickie?" I asked fully hopeful.

"We'll continue later." I made a face. "I promise."

"You better."

As he exited the room I couldn't help but let my eyes linger at his ass. Danm. That boy was definitely gifted in the ass department. I turned back to look at myself in the mirror when a manila folder caught my eye. I already knew what it was. It was lying on my desk opposite my side of the bed. I made my way over to it and sat while looking over it again. This was different than other manila folders though. It contained all the information she needed of her guardian partner. Lissa needed two guardians and she is now the last surviving party in the Dragomir line.

I briefly scan over the things I know by heart and I cant help feel drawn to this man. This Russian man whom I've never met. As I stare at his picture I take it all in. He has his guardian mask on, something I have yet to perfect, but his deep, brown eyes intrigues me. I feel like he can see me, like I could swim in the dark depths of this eyes and find… find what? What will those eyes hold for me?

I can't help but feel intrigued by this mysterious Russian God. He seems, hurt in a way. Like, something's happened. And I feel drawn to him, like I want to help him get over it all…What? Ok Rose stop it. Ok. You're getting engaged to Adrian for crying out loud. Oy!

Adrian. I love Adrian I guess. I mean he definitely loves me. He treats me well, ok well better than that. He's there, he's well I guess what any girl would want. But I can't help but feel like something's missing. I mean Adrian is a part of me. He will always be a part of me but I can't help but feel that something is missing. Like there's a part of me that's empty that even he can't fill. Maybe…oh I don't know.

Rose what are you doing! I yell in my head.

"It's ok Rose. Maybe it's just the nerves because you're getting married soon." I heard Lissa say through the bond. Yes it is two way now.

"Yea". But I can't help but feel that something's wrong."You know we still have to announce our engagement to the Royal Court. Ugh. I could just imagine what Tatiana would say."

Lissa giggles, "Oh Rose. I'm sure she'll get over it and be supportive."

"Yea right." I snort internally.

With all that said I proceeded to put on my dark blue silk halter dress. And my fugly black graduation gown. I looked at myself in the mirror and did not like what I saw. I mean of course I looked beautiful but this gown needed to be altered, immediately. I Skype Lissa and told her about what I was planning to do. To say that she loved the idea was an understatement because she immediately got her scissors and started chopping off fabric and with her wiz skill at accessorizing her gown looked amazing.

Now time to do mine. I wasn't sure what to do so I just started to cut off what I didn't want. Then I took chunks of fabric from the back and made straps going across from my back so that it showed my dress. Then I took one of the sleeves and cut it in strips so that I could wrap it around my arm and tied it at my elbow. I looked awesome. Adrian and I left for the Grounds. Graduation was being held in the field. They had set it up elaborately. Or so I hoped.

"Are you excited?" Adrian asked as we made our way across campus.

"Hell yea. I'm finally getting out of this place. I mean, it holds a lot of my memories but I think it's time I move onto bigger and better things." I told him with a smile.

"And does this future plan of yours involve anyone special?" he raised an eyebrow and looked at me with one of his famous smirks.

"Yea, 'course it does. There's this guy, doubt you'd know him though," I giggled when I saw his face fall a little before I continued, "-he's a Royal Moroi, who's amazingly gorgeous, with emerald green eyes I could just die for." His face lit up.

"Oh Little Dhampir, I'm sure our children will inherit some of my good looks." I was shocked, we weren't even married and he was already talking about kids. But I hid it with a smile of my own and laughed.

"Whatever Adrian." I rolled my eyes and walked ahead of him.

"Wait." Then I stopped. Ok here's when everything begun acting weird but I was too busy to notice. It wasn't that he told me to wait that made me stop. It was the tone of his voice. Commanding, possessive even. But I stopped and I can't help the fact that my heart quickened. Not out of excitement but something else.

"Don't you want to have children with me?" he asked but it was almost accusatory.

"Adrian, I'm a Guardian, Lissa's for that matter. A child would get in the way of that. And I don't want him or her to be raised by the Academy. And we're not even married yet, so I'm not really thinking about children." I told him. I didn't know I was raising my voice until I finished.

Then out of nowhere I was pushed up against the wall. I was shocked to say the least because it was Adrian. He slammed me up and squished me in between his body and the wall. This eyes pierced mine but they wouldn't focus. I'm a guardian well about to be, trained to take down Strigoi, but at this moment, being,…I don't know, but this Moroi, I couldn't find the strength to get him off me.

Then he spoke to me. But his voice wasn't warm and loving as it was before. It was cold and harsh. Almost scary. "Now listen to me and you listen good. You're mine and if I say I want kids I want them. Whether you like it or not." He growled then let go of me. I slipped and watched him walk off into the light. It took me a while to process what just happened. I mean Adrian's never treated me like this. Then I thought about the fact that I did nothing. I mean, I could've taken him but at that moment I felt weak. Like I couldn't do anything.

What's happening?