I was sitting their in Caroline spare bedroom with my mother that I have just found again who was going through the transformation of becoming a vampire.
I heard everything Caroline said to Elena and it was true somehow I end up always getting hurt. I know it isn't Elena fault, and I don't blame her if she new what Damon and Stefan were planning she would of stop them. I know Damon and Stefan did it to protect her and I don't mind that because I love her, she's like a sister and I want her safe, but I also don't want to lose my mum again either.
I don't even know if Abby will decide to become a vampire and selfishly I hope she will so I don't lose her. Its kind of stupid that I feel this way because people say that you cant lose what you don't have, and Abby is no perfect mum of the year, but she is the only mum I hav-"Hey Bon" I heard Caroline say interrupting my thoughts. I looked up from my mum with tears in my eyes.
"oh Bonnie" she said.
"I don't know what to do Caroline. If she doesn't complete the transition I'm gonna lose another family member, and I don't have that many. I don't want to be alone"
"Bonnie you have your dad, Lucy" she stated
"Yeh, Lucy is god knows where and my dad is always M.I.A he cares more about work than me" I replied bitterly.
She sighed and started hugging me "you also have me, Matt and Elena."
"I know I do, bu but its just like losing grams again Caroline, I cant do this. If If she does become a vampire what am I going to do, I cant sneak into the hospital and steel blood bags.
"Bonnie look at me, I am gonna be their every step of the day. If Abby decide not to become a vampire, I will be their comforting you and if she decide to become a vampire I will help her with it, every step of the way. Like Stefan did with me and don't worry about the blood bags I will get them, I mean if you try and steel them you probably get caught. I'm sure no I'm absolutely sure Matt and Elena will help too"
"Tha thank you Caroline, you actually say the right things" she laughed "that's a first."
I smiled at her
"Elena came before"
"I know, I heard and thank you I no its not her fault but I just cant see her at the moment, I love her but, I I I just cant."
"I know Bon"
"How did are lives become so messed up Caroline"
"I don't know, but everything will get better soon, I promise"
"Thank you for tonight, for everything."
"Your welcome Bon you should get some sleep"
"What about Abby"
"she'll be fine, I wake when she wakes up"
"Are you sure"
"Yes, now go and get some sleep"
"okay, and thanks again"
"your welcome"
I went a lade down in Caroline's bed and slowly closed my eyes.
"love you Bon Bon"
I smiled to my self "love you to care bare."