- Death -

He embrace me softly and kiss me with his cold lips, somehow I feel like I've forgotten everything that I envied so much. The only purpose for me to live. The only thing I can't do.

First time I met him, he's mysterious and silly. Even though he's odd, but he has a kind face and silent typical character. I can't forget that moment, especially when he said something like...

"Do you wish for a death?" he asked me with his low and gentle voice. How could I forget that moment? At least, I found him. I've found the one who knew me better than myself...

At first, I think he's a sadistic, but when I realize that he cares for others, I adore him and want to be with him more. But, my feeling, tells me to dig a hole which makes us remains tied by threads but stay faraway.

One day, he asked me if I hate or dislikes him. Of course the answer is no. But the truth which remains in my heart makes me keep this relationship, as far as I can. So I can stay in ease even someday he'll kill me or do something else to me.

Like he knew everything which makes my mind blank, he stays with me and always calls my name with his gentle words and voice. How could I hate him? How can I keep silence and act like an idiot while I'm in love with him?

While keeping my mouth close and my mind silent, I watch him closely as if I feel I satisfied if he stays beside me and love me like he loves himself until his death.

But... one day, my selfishness makes me decided to tell him everything inside my mind and have him only for myself. I know this is insane. Which the fact is, both of us are a male.

He smiled. He looks me with his gentle and blue eyes. He said he loves me. He embraced me and kissed me as if I was his lover whom he has waited for a long time.

Like I said before, I forgot everything. I forgot about my hope which makes me remains in this world until now. I forgot about how to mention a word of 'death'. I've forgotten everything. Even my feeling towards him... I've forgotten...

Suddenly, I felt a cold and sharp metal, stabbed in my body. Seconds after, I found that the one who stabbed me is him, the one I love.

I don't have any power to ask him why he did it and why he smiled while stained by my blood.

"You're the one who know the best, why I stabbed you in the first place, aren't you?" he asked with his gentle face. I smiled and realized if I don't have to ask anything because he knew everything from the first place. Yeah, my wish for a word which means, death...

He smiled then he walk away and act like nothing happened back then. Before he gets too far from my place, he looked at me and said...

"I just granted everything you've wished," he said. I smiled back then, and said...

"Then, if I said I wish to revenge my death to you... will you grant it?" I asked as if it is possible. He smiled again for uncountable times and answered...

"As you wish, I'll wait the time when the fearsome revenge of the death people will beat me to death, even if it's impossible,"

Then, he walked away and leaved me who drowned into the abyss of the darkness for eternality.

- End -