Authors note: This first chapter is rough and it will only get slightly better as the story continues on. You've been forewarned.
I sat on my bed as tears started to fall from my eyes. My shoulders slumped over and I gave in to the sobs that racked my body. Suddenly I felt myself becoming angry. Which only fueled my tears. I started ripping the clothes off my body as fast as I could. They lay in a pile on the floor that I would have to deal with later. For now I wanted to wash all traces of him from my body.
"Hey Jacob." I answered the telephone a little out of breath. I had been upstairs when it rang.
"Hey Bella!" His cheerful voice answered back. It reminded me of when times had been easier. Before he became a werewolf and my vampire friends had returned to town. He would always be my Jacob though. Even if he refused to get along with Edward.
"Are you free today? Or does your bloodsucker want to hold you hostage again?" He instantly turned into the bitter Jacob I had grown to hate.
"No Jacob I'm free. What's it to you?" I snapped back.
"Sorry Bells I can't seem to help myself." He sounded genuinely sorry and my heart softened a little.
"What's up Jacob?"
"I was just wondering if you wanted to come up to La Push. I thought we could ride the Motorcycles a bit. They need to be exercised every now and then to keep them running top notch." I couldn't tell if he was lying or not. I knew how much Jacob missed me and truth be told I missed him just as much. Edward would not be happy about this but he had finally agreed to let me see Jacob. He'll just have to deal.
"I'd love to. It's been forever since I've been reckless." I felt myself smile and knew he could hear it in my voice.
"Awesome! I'll get them all ready. Meet me in the usual spot!" In his eagerness too see me again he hung up before actually saying goodbye. I couldn't help but laugh. Now came the hard part. I picked the phone back up and dialed a familiar number.
"Hello my love." Edward's lovely voice answered. I felt my breathing quicken at just the sound of his voice.
"Hey." I wanted to hit myself. Could I sound anymore pathetic?
"So I was wondering, well not really wondering actually, I'm telling you that I'm gonna go up to La Push and hang out with Jacob today." I spit it all out in one sentence figuring that was the best way before I lost my nerve.
"If that's what you want to do today I will be happy to give you a ride." Edward wouldn't deny me my friend anymore but you could hear the contempt in his voice.
"Actually I think I'd like to take my truck. I hate having to depend on you for a ride."
"Really Bella, I don't mind."
"I know but I do. I don't like feeling like a child in the middle of a custody battle." As I said the words I could feel myself becoming upset again. This little arrangement they had was absolutely ridiculous. I heard Edward sigh and knew I had won. This time.
"Alright as you wish. But please don't stay for too long. You know how crazy I get not knowing if you're safe or not." Edward pleaded. It was so hard to resist him but at the same time I did not need babysitting.
"Edward I am perfectly safe there. And you know it. Has time not proven that?"
"I know my love. But I will be counting the minutes till I see you again. Emmett and I might go hunting since you have other plans anyway."
"Oh ok. I guess that means you wont be staying over tonight then?" I asked feeling a little bit sad at the thought of having to sleep alone another night.
"If you want me to stay home Bella I will."
"No no please go hunt. Kill a grizzly for me." I smiled, glad Edward wasn't there to see the pain behind my smile.
"I love you forever." Edward said before hanging up.
"I love you forever and a day." I replied knowing he was already gone. I ran back up the stairs and threw my hair up into a messy pony tail before grabbing my purse and keys. I couldn't wait to see Jacob again and feel the wind as we raced through the back roads of La Push. I hopped in the truck half expecting to see Edward and to my surprise felt a little disappointed. I guess he really was going hunting today.
Excitement and adrenaline flowed through my body as I got closer to La Push. It was only 9 am but the roads were pretty deserted for a weekend. The weather probably had something to do with that. It was overcast and the clouds looked like they were going to wreak havoc at any moment. That never stopped us before though. Only added to the thrill of riding.
"Oh man." I groaned allowed. I was still a few miles away from where I was suppose to meet Jacob when I realized I needed to pee. Up the road a couple hundred feet was a run down convenience store. It would have to do. I pulled my roaring truck into the small lot and grabbed my key from the ignition. This wasn't my first time at this store and I knew exactly where the bathroom was located. It was around the back of the building still attached to the store but only accessible from the outside. There was only one bathroom, nothing designated for men or women. I knocked on the door and when no one answered I opened it. I was shocked to find a man standing in there washing his hands. Had he not heard me knock?
"Oh I'm so sorry! I knocked but no one answered." I started to close the door and felt my cheeks flush in embarrassment. The guy walked out a few seconds later and smiled at me. It made me a little uneasy but he stepped out of the way and I walked through the open door. I quickly pushed the door shut wanting to get in and lock it. I wasn't quick enough though. The man pushed the door open slamming me into the wall. He locked the door before turning to me.
"Well aren't you a pretty little thing." His accent made it obvious he wasn't from around here.
"Please don't hurt me. My purse is in my truck you can have whatever you want. You can even have my truck. It's a little old but it runs great." I was on the verge of hysterics.
"Whatever I want huh?" A smile crossed his face and he inched toward me. I immediately felt terrified knowing what it was exactly that he wanted. Me.
"It's been a lonely drive here. Come all the way from Texas. Things didn't work out though and I'm on my way back. Its such a long drive. A long ways to go with no decent women around." He moved closer yet and soon had me backed against the wall. His hand came up and stroked the side of my face. I wanted to scream, to run but knew both would be futile. His hot breath came in shallow bursts against my face. I hoped Edward would bust through that door at any moment and save me. Then I remembered Alice couldn't see me. With the werewolves around she couldn't see what was happening. I was on my own. Remembering everything I read I decided to let him do what he wanted and prayed he would leave me alone when he was done. However when he started to unbutton my jeans I started fighting with everything I had in me. I screamed and pushed him away with all my strength. As I had thought, it was futile. I felt a grubby hand cover my mouth and heard an angry voice as I fought back. I didn't focus on what he was saying. I closed my eyes fighting back the tears as the man continued his assault on my body.