ok. this is my first fanfic so it might not be that good sorry if it's short too.

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Disclaimer: I DON'T OWN SOUL EATER or the characters. if i did..well you'd know.

CHAPTER ONE

Souls POV

"You can't leave me!" I saw him yelling at me from his house. "You said you loved me and now you are gonna go to her? She doesn't love you! She never has and never will!"

"You don't know what you're talking about Kid."

"Really? I don't? Okay then, tell me why you said you loved me. Why did you say that if you didn't mean it?"

"I did…I mean I do love you. But I also love her just as much." After I said that I left him.

"Fine then! You leave and fuck her! Fuck her and NEVER come back to me!" I saw the tears in his eyes and then, I tried to hold back the tears in my own eyes. I woke up after that. Crying. I can't be crying. I need to stop. I need to stop having this dream.

It's been six years since I last saw Kid. I was living with Maka for three of those years. We broke up after that and I've been living with Black*Star and Tsubaki for the last three years.

"Hey Soul! You up yet?" I heard Black*Star ask.

"Erm…yea. Just got up." I replied

"So how much longer will you stay here? It's getting a little bothersome, you know?" Black*Star said as I sat down at the table.

"I don't know. Why?" I asked

"You know maybe you should go see Kid. I mean it's been six years. Maybe he'll forgive you,"

"Forgive me? For what? I didn't do anything."

"You told him you loved him. Then the next day you left him for Maka. That's what you did."

"I had to." I told Black*Star while I was looking at my food trying not to make eye contact.

"No you didn't. No one made you. You did that on your own!" Great, no it was gonna become an argument. I really don't need this right now.

"You don't know ok! You just don't."

"Know what? What don't we know?" This came from Tsubaki. I almost forgot she was here.

"I was forced to leave him. I didn't want to. But I didn't have a choice!" I yelled at them.

"What do you mean? Who forced you? Was it Maka?" Now Tsubaki was getting mad. Why was she mad? She has no reason to be.

"Yea, it was her. She didn't like all the attention I gave Kid. She got jealous of him."

"Why would she be jealous of Kid?"

"Because I loved them both. Now I just don't know who I love anymore." I looked down at the palms of my hands. They looked so red. I was about to cry but a guy like me doesn't cry. Looking at my hands got the feeling out.

"Do you still?" Tsubaki asked a little more quietly then before.

"I just said I don't know. I might, but Kid said that he never wanted to see me again. It's not like it would matter anyways."

He'd probably like to see you." Black*Star said. I forgot he was in the room with us. He was being too quite for Black*Star. "Just go to his house and talk to him."

"What would I say?"

"Whatever you want to say. Just be nice this time" Tsubaki said with a caring but not caring look

"I guess. I don't know yet. I don't think I should go there he probably won't want to talk to m-"

"Just go." They both said as Black*Star shoved me out the door.

Well I guess there's no going back. OK, I've gotta face him sooner or later. God dammit! I am such an idiot.