My team thinks im always happy. But im not. I hide my anger and sadness behind a mask.

You lie silent there before me
Your tears may mean nothing to me now
The wind howling at the window
The Love you never gave
I give to you

Then ghost of the faild experimans in secter 7 lab still hunt me. I try to ignore them. But the hurt me frome the inside. I feel like i want to kill myself. No matter how much i try. They tant me. Saying ........I'll be the frist to die. Fear i feel.

Really don't deserve it
But now there's nothing you can do
So sleep in your only memory of me
My dearest mother

I cant die. What about my love. My first love? Will he except my fate? ......no.

Cant ask him for help. Nobody can help. How can you help some that see things that others can not see. And to ruin there happiess to help me of my curse? No.....there happy now, i cant take that away from them. They fianlly found what there we'er looking for......love. And it is not my place to make them sufer for me.

Here's a lullaby to close your eyes (goodbye)
It was always you that I despised
I don't feel enough for you to cry (oh well)
Here's a lullaby to close your eyes (goodbye)
Goodbye...
Goodbye...

I dont know where my fate will come. But i get the feeling it is soon. More ghost come to me. My sand like tan skin is becaming paler. I cant sleep and cant eat. My love Blurr is worryed of my change. But i told him i was coming down with something.

So insignificant
Sleeping dormant deep inside of me
Are you hiding away lost
Under the sewers
Maybe flying high in the clouds

The ghosts told me the secter 7 are planing the killing. I dont when, or where. They have for seen my futer(sp).

Perhaps you're happy without me
So many seeds have been sown in the field
And who could sprout up so blessedly
If I had died

But for now. I cover my fate up with my happy smiles. So no one cant see what im hiding.

I would have never felt sad at all
You will not hear me say I'm sorry
Where is the light
I wonder if it's weeping somewhere

I live my remining time that i have with my new family, friends, my teamates, and my lover. Im living my time the fullest. Until my fateful day as come. I lived a short life. Not knowing my past my real family, being in the streets, being a anexpearimeant, being in a team, being in a family and being with the one's i love.

Here's a lullaby to close your eyes (goodbye)
It was always you that I despised
I don't feel enough for you to cry (oh well)
Here's a lullaby to close your eyes (goodbye)
Goodbye...
Goodbye...

My name is Sodapop. Im the glue in the C.A.T.S team. The lover of Blurr the autobot.

And soon............my journey is about to end.