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She's still sleeping. Of course she is, she always is. I'm getting up as quiet as possible. Within 10 minutes I'm ready and I leave. Sick feeling in my stomach and sweaty, already. The classes will start in an hour but I want to be as early as possible to get the best place in the front. Picking up a little breakfast at the cafeteria and then to the library. There's nobody around at this time so I'm alone and I can study in silence. With a book in one hand and breakfast in the other I cross the campus to the library. Walking as quick as possible while reading and deeply concentrated at my book I totally forget to look out for where I'm walking, so of course - typical for me - I'm bumping into someone. 'I'm so sorry.' My book felt on the ground even as my breakfast. I'm kneeling down to get my stuff when his hand touches mine. 'Don't be, I wasn't watching too. Oh.' He sees the colour of my hand and looks up. 'Elphaba.' 'Fiyero.' 'I think you can handle this by yourself.' He says. He stands up and walks away. I throw my breakfast in the first trash I see and I put my book in my bag. Forget about the studying in the library, what just happened was so strange. I never had such a strong feeling before when I touches someone. What in Ozsake did happen?
Whispers around me. "Artichoke, vegetable, grass eater." It are just words, but they hurt. Just focus on what the teacher says Elphaba, like you always do. I'm writing everything down what he says, every single not. 'Ouch!' Someone pulled my hair. They're all laughing. I forget about the pain and focus on my work again. Another pull, harder this time. Ignore it Elphaba, don't get angry. 2 more minutes. I press my nails into my palms, control yourself. Finally the teacher turns around and says everyone can go. As slowly as I can I get my bag and all my stuff. 'Miss Elphaba?' 'Yes?' I almost left the classroom until he asked for me. 'Is everything all right?' Sweet Oz. 'Yes everything is fine.' 'Okay.' I'm free to go, no more lessons today so I just can go to the library and study all day long. Good.
I'm trying to study for almost 2 hours now but I just can't. I keep thinking about this morning, about Fiyero. He didn't come to class, well that wasn't really a surprise. My room mate, Galinda, wasn't there too. So I bet they were together.. But the touching, it was so strange. Link firework or something, I couldn't describe it. It was like magic. No it wasn't. I know what magic was like and this wasn't magic. Maybe it was more like destiny. Like we were meant for one another. But that was impossible, nobody could ever love a green girl like me, never. I had to face the truth. I may have had a crush on him but it's not right, as I said no one could ever love a green girl and he was with Galinda, and they were happily in love. They were meant for each other. I took my books and left the library, a good walk would clear my mind right now. Maybe I could ask Nessa to come with me, at least if she could be one minute without Boq. Let's give it a try.
Nessa had been too busy with Boq so I went alone. Surprise. But I did clear my mind. It was good now, this was our faith and as Morrible promised I would be on the Wizards side once. So I'll be just focusing on my study again and forget about boys, friends - Or no friends, actually - , bullies and annoying roommates. There was nothing wrong with being alone. As long as you used to being alone but the trouble would come if you got friends and you finally know how it would be to be not alone. You would regret all those years you thought it was better to be alone. Don't Elphaba don't make stupid conclusions in your head. It's better to fly solo and free.
Before I went back to my room I got myself some coffee for my late night studying. Galinda would be at Fiyero's so I'd be alone in silence with all my books and my notes. Wizard here I come!
It was already really late when I finally went to bed and just when I almost fell asleep she came in, being drunk of love. She literally felt into her bed and started snoring like a man. Not really charming Galinda. Even when she was sleeping she was annoying. Because I had been taking care of Nessa this long I couldn't let her lay down in bed like that, in her normal clothes, with shoes on and on top of the blankets. So I got out of my bed, took of her shoes, even managed to get her sit and pull of her dress to get her nightgown on, and got her under the blankets where she immediately felt asleep again. 'Why did I even do that..?' I asked myself before I went back to bed again and fell asleep.