Prologue
How do we know when our lives are about to change, or in turn when they have changed?
See the fact is I don't think we can or do. I don't think you can live a moment and suddenly decide "that was a life changing moment". I think the reality of it is that it's our reaction to the moment and the consequences thereof that truly change who we are and what we are to become.
Have I confused you?
To be honest I think I've confused myself, maybe I've been confused my whole life. Constantly searching for a moment of clarity amongst the madness that has become my life.
Ask me when it changed and I can answer with utter conviction that I have no idea.
The trouble is I think I'd be lying.
I think it started before I know, before I could comprehend it all, but the more I ponder it the more I realise it's always been there, nagging at me I just misunderstood it.
I'm not being very clear am I?
Then let me start at the beginning, or the closest I can fathom at least.
As most things, it all starts with a boy.