For this whole time I never knew what this feeling was.
"Jack!" you exclaimed, swirling around the frost and snow childishly. Your fiery red hair emphasized brightly on that pearly white blanket of ice, and your astonishing turquoise eyes glimmered with undying joy. Your uniqueness made my chest swell.
"Jack?"
And yet again my name rang in my ears from your mouth, so curious and so gentle that it touched my frozen heart. It made me wonder how this was possible.
You were just a girl. I was being irrational.
"Och, Jack…"
A tremor went up my spine and my eyes watered at your sorrowful mood. You were crying, crouched down on the fireplace with your knees drenched. I couldn't resist that urge; the urge of making you happy. I hummed softly as my arms pulled you back to me for an embrace, but I didn't quite identify this…
This impulse.
"Jack!"
Your scream of worry and fear engulfed my ears like a warning, and it sent me flying back to you as fast as a bullet. I didn't know why I wanted to assure myself that you were safe and sound. I couldn't identify this uneasiness…
The uneasiness I felt when you and I were apart from one another.
"Oy – Jack! Stop, that tickles!"
Your hysteric and amused tone made my heart flutter peacefully and my lips draw a mischievous smirk, as I brightened your mood as high as I could. Again I had this unknown feeling of wanting you carefree around me. I wanted to know every spot and inch of your character, even though I knew so much about you already. Your stubbornness amused me, your bravery made me proud of you, your careless opinion lightened my head, your blush made me smile…
No. You weren't just a girl, you were a woman.
"Jack…"
The woman that conquered my heart.
"Jack… I love ye."
I feel glad and like I could do anything in the world for you.
I never knew what was the feeling of protecting someone specific. I have shielded innumerous children from harm and have been protected by dear ones, but I never came to experience the feeling of wanting to save a certain someone.
And then you came.
With your smile and your glory, I fell for you so easily that it must have been a lie.
For three hundred years, my heart has been kept frozen, prying away unwanted visitors. Your honest words and your laughs melted this barrier of ice I have built.
As I run my pale fingers through the rebellious flames of your hair, I can't stop thinking of how you are beautiful. Of how, with a few touches and kisses, my temperature goes crazy and my mind gets foggy.
You made my heart beat for the first time in three centuries, inside this petrous body of mine. You gave color to my chalky white face in a few seconds. You made my mind go crazy with pictures of you and your creamy skin taunting my eyes mercilessly. And the possessive side of me purred, stating the bare truth of how you're mine.
Only you.
You sparked the fire within my soul that cried and lurched forward to protect you at any costs, even if I had to get hurt for you. I wanted to protect you, with my mind and body.
You were the sunshine in my obscure tunnel of loneliness and sadness. You turned a woeful day into a spectacular snow day. You were the cherry on top of my cupcake.
You were my love.
I give you a smile, small but certainly radiant, and kiss the top of your head with all the love I can muster into.
"I love you too, Merida."