Took place after Fang. There are spoilers if you haven't read it. I hope you like it. :D

A familiar sensation rose through me. Starting in my aching chest, and rising up making my head spin faster than the minute before. My heart was in my throat and I felt its dying rhythm throb against my tongue.

Typical morning.

I did a 180 to see if anyone was in my room. Empty.

Even with a broken heart I'm still alert. I just don't know how long I'm going to last.

Once again my head felt heavier and I became nauseated. How could I go on without Fang? I winced at the thought of him.

For days my joints begged to be let loose. My empty stomach pleaded to be fed. I got the same amount of food in my system as an anorexic human. Which for our kind, was starving to death.

I know I couldn't just lie in bed forever, but I'm trying to procrastinate for as long as possible. Twenty years to be exact. But I won't last that long. Even just sitting in bed, I know I'm not going to make it. One day I won't even be able to lift up my head; the pain is too strong.

I just know that one day, I'll get captured by another one of our enemies and I'll just give up. Surrender my life. Because I have no other choice; no other reason to live.

I know, I know what you're going to say. What about the rest of the flock. It's true. They still need me. But with a hole in my heart I can't go on for much longer. They're better off alone or with a different leader that isn't distracted and that can actually get up in the morning.

It's true. They try to comfort me the best they can. Mom and Ella come over often, but . . . If we stay here, in the same spot without moving, our rivals will find us. That's why I'm going to tell everyone to leave me behind. So they can go on and live their lives and I can . . .

Hello Maximum.

Oh great. You again? I am so not in the mood!

I hope you haven't forgotten about what you were made to do.

And that would be . . . oh wait, I don't care.

Saving the world.

Of course. Well, I'd love to b . . .

Just like that, I was sunken further into my long lasting depression. With one word that I didn't even need to say, just thinking of the word brought me to tears. Love.

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