HI….This is a story that the owner of this profile asked me to publish…..so here I am….Enjoy this one-shot….
Farewell my Haruka
Michiru got out of the bath drying her long hair with a small towel. She sat on her computer that was already on and started typing slowly.
"My dear Haruka,
I finally decided to write you… Weeks now I deny myself to even think of writing to you. But now I need to. Maybe it's my last chance to. I wont bother you much."
She stopped and took a deep breath thinking carefully of her words.
"These months away of you were worse than hell. I tried to go on being strong as I was and as you taught me to be. But this was more than I could. I never understood why it was over. It doesn't seem fair to me. It doesn't feel right."
She sighed hoping it wasn't sounded like she was blaming her.
"I love you. I never stopped loving you not even for a second. I tried to persuate myself not to think of you and I managed to do it for a week. I managed to persuate myself I can love someone else maybe as much as I loved you in the first. Because at first it was just love. "
She stopped again remembering their first I love you. For a bit she was lost in the moment. She heard the clock showing it was midnight. She sighed.
"Today is my birthday… I turn 18 at around 12 pm today… You have promised you would be with me. But you are not. You left. Like all the others. And you will never come back."
She tried hard not to cry. She promised she wont.
"I need you, Ruka… You changed very much. You became someone else. And I still believe…no I know… you are not this person. But I would love you even like this…because after all it is you. Oh, Ruka…how many times I dreamed that you are coming back… but it was just this…a dream. You wont come back. Never…"
She wiped the first tear that fell and took another breath.
"I miss you so much. And I love you…more than I loved anyone…maybe more than anyone will love you. And at least I mean it…"
She smiled a bit remembering one of the endless conversations she had with her lover about every little thing. Yes, she knew her better than anyone. She was sure of this. And she loved her, very very much. More than what words can express.
"Have a happy life, Haruka. Maybe it's better for you that you never looked back. But if I could have a wish I would wish to turn back time and re-live these months with you."
She looked at her music papers. She had wrote nothing since Haruka left. She had drawn nothing since she left. Her heart had left with her.
"Farewell, Haruka"
She didn't scan her e-mail for mistakes. Would it matter? She didn't want it to be fixed. She got ready to press SEND. Suddenly the window opened by the strong wind and messed up with the music papers throwing them to the ground.
A soft smile on Michiru's lips. Her muscles were numb. When was the last time she gave a real smile? She gathered the papers and placed them on a secure place. Then without closing the window she sat again to her computer and slowly erased every word from the email.
"Who am I to chain the wind? I am just one of the daughters of the sea" she whispered and turned off her computer.
She went to the bathroom and picked up some things. She wrote some words on a paper that she placed on her desk. It was for her parents. Then she laid on her bed leaving the window open. The wind was silent but was carring the sounds of the sea.
For some moments you could hear Michiru's soft breath, then some soft moans drawn by her pillow and then silence.