For three years I had waited. Waited for the impossible.
I missed him. I missed them all in fact. My heart had ached everday for the past three years. Each day the pain lessened, time made the seperation seem permanant. And I suppose at one point I had accepted that.
But today was different. My heart could just sense it. I could physically feel the change in the air. Could almost smell the crisp, untainted air of the feudal era. My era. The place where I felt I belonged. With my second family. My little youkai son. My first love.
My hope was high and my heart was beating erratically. I could'nt stand it. Dashing out the door and to the familiar well house. The air musty and dark when I threw open the doors. My heart still racing as I aproached the rotted rim of my once magical portal. I couldnt help it, I cried. Tears running down my face and dripping from my chin. Crying as I felt the magical aura surround my being. Pulling me in. All the familiarity crashed into me, begging me to jump in.
Bracing the lip of the well, I peered down into the darkness. For a minute, I could have sworn I saw a tiny light twinkle at me. Then dissapear. I leaned further. Air swirled around me, my fingers tingling from the raw magic.
"Kagome?"
My heart missed a beat.
Hopes dashed. How could I be selfish and leave my family? My traveling days were over long ago. I should have learned my responsibility to the shrine by now. My duty. The higurashi legacy. I had forgotten in that one moment of bliss.
"Mother..." I whispered brokenly. Heart aching at the concern etched on her slightly wrinkled face.
"Sweetheart...I knew you could'nt stay here forever. You knew that as well, ever since you fell down it the first time. I cant keep you from where your heart lies."
I smiled at my mom, touched at her understanding. I let her envelope me in her arms. Love spilling around us. A mother daughter bond.
"But what about the shrine? My duties? Our family...you?" I ground out through thick, warm tears. "I love all of you, and it wouldnt be right to leave now."
My heart was breaking. All of what I had said was true. But I couldnt bear the thought of leaving this opportunity untouched. It was unimaginable. My love for Inuyasha burning my skin. The desire to see him. The golden eyes, The silver hair, his brash attitude.
I wanted it all.
But it was selfishly desired.
"Kagome." My mom whispered. Her grip tightening around my shoulders. "The shrine will be fine. We all will manage. But the most important thing you must worry about now is your happiness. Thats all that matters. If your happy in that era, then do what you must."
At this point, my mother barely finished talking before she broke down. Our cries echoed in the empty well house. Tears staining each others clothes. Arms embracing tightly. I loved my my family. But i agreed with my mother. I wanted to be happy, and I wanted to make Inuyasha happy too. My heart crying out for the unspoiled village of Edo. Senses tingling for the willows and birchs of Inuyasha's forest.
I had to go. Wether it seemed wrong or not. My heart wasnt here in this time.
Pulling away from my mother I smiled the best I could muster. Her puffy eyes, filled with love and raw sadness. But somewhere in the brown depths of them. I saw joy.
"Come say goodbye, and gather some necessities" she croaked. voice hoarse with emotion. " You might want some things."
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My bag was stuffed to the brim. Every pocket and zipper bulging with items.
Maybe some of the stuff was unnecessary. But I wanted it. Almost needed it.
A small photo album of my family, a few articles of nice clothing I had accumulated over the three years. A durable razor and a case of blades, toothbrush, a large tube of toothpaste, bottles of shampoo, some more feminine items. Necessities of a future girl.
Some tools that I thought might be helpful. A box of matches and a couple choice knives. And more stuff that I thought I needed.
All of my undergarments. Even though the thought was embarrassing, I even packed the sexy stuff.
Lastly, I had stuffed a box of condoms in it.
Heat flushing my face as I thought of them. Thought of using them. Thought about Inuyasha and I using them.
I dreamed lovingly of developing a relationship with him. Even though we've been apart for three long years, I could'nt help but still be in love the with boyish Hanyou. My mind never swaying to the testosterone driven male classmates I had in those years of highschool. All I'd ever thought about was Inuyasha and how my love for him never dissapated with the time and length of years seperating us.
Driven from my thoughts, I put on the outfit I'd set out. Slipped on the flats, and headed downstairs to my waiting family.
The stairs creaked under my feet as I went down. Once at the bottom I gave myself a once over in a mirror on the wall.
I looked pretty decent. Not the norm of a Feudal Era woman, not even the norm of what I used to wear. But I thought I looked presentable. I felt presentable. And I wanted Inuyasha to think that too when he sees me again.
My hair was curly and swept down past my hips. The dress fit like a glove, form fitting in the torso and mid section, sleeves modestly cut and clinging to my shoulders and upper arms. Neck swooping down past my colorbone and rested. Bottom flaring out to my knees. Flattering and conservative. The pastel green of it matching in paleness with my skin. Satisfied, I turned away from the mirror and into the dinning area.
"You look lovely" My mother chimed, tears brimming, yet not quite spiling over.
I smiled brightly "Thanks mom" My attention turning from her to my little brother Souta.
"Take care, and dont break too many hearts" I winked at him. Satisfied with his deep blush and the brisk, strong hug he gave me.
"Stay strong and dont leave anytime soon" I said to Gramps, earning a light chuckle.
He smiled "I plan on staying here for a long time girl, I still have to run the shrine and take care of your mother and brother"
Pain tugged at my heart from his statement. But I brushed it off and hugged him. Tears leaking from my eyes. Because I knew everything woud be okay. They would take care of each other, and leaving did'nt bother me as much as it first did. Repeating the hugging process with all of them, we settled for a group hug. Heart tingling as I saw each of them shed tears. Of happiness and sadness. Souta picked up my bag and gestured to the door. I grimaced and opened it. Walking out into the sunlight, Letting Gramps lead us all to the well house. Opening the door he beckoned us in, then followed behind us.
Taking my bag from souta I place it on the lip of the old well, turning around to face my family one last time.
I saw the love in their eyes, the pain and the happiness. It overwhelmed me as a new wave of fresh tears prickled my nose. My mother, so beautiful in her middle age, smiled and kissed my forehead. Gramps, old and weather worn, smiled too and also hugged me. Breaking loose i looked at Souta. My beloved little brother. Tears in his eyes, as he walked to me and hugged me strongly, whispering he was going to miss me. I smiled brokenly, I would miss them all. None more than the other. My love for my family strong and pure as I backed away and looked at them.
"I love you" I whispered silently. They responded with 'we love you too' as I backed away further. Placing my shaking hands against the well.
Glancing at them one more time, I smiled. A big smile.
And then jumped in.
Magic engulfing me, spinning me in the crystaline blue lights. I was releived. I was going home, to my feudal era home. Nothing could replace my blood family, but I cherished my family of misfits almost as much.
'I cant wait to see them!' I thought happily. 'I cant wait to see him.'
The lights stopped glowing and I landed on my feet. The smell of dirt and mold reaching my nose. It was all real. The vines growing out and seeping over the top. The clear blue sky. It was all here, everything I had missed and loved is now all here again.
Grabbing on to the vines I scrambled up to the best of my ability and tipped over the side of the well. Landing in the cool grass. I layed there for a small amount of time and smelled the forest, felt it beneath my fingers. Overjoyed at the feeling.
It was all still here, everything, just as I remember. The grass and the sacred tree. The untainted sky. All of it.
I was finally home.
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hope whoever read this liked it. this would be my first fanfiction. and i didnt have and good writing programs on my computer so there may be gramatical errors here and there. if its too bad, suck it up, but no. if its bad contact me and i will fix all of it. i plan to updates soon. im just playing with this story. but its about kagome and sesshomaru. thers gonna be lots of drama love and suspense hopefully. i want to make this exciting and amazing. but if i get reviews and constructive criticism i might update faster. a chapter a day hopefully. cause i hate it when someone wont update. hope you guys enjoyed the story.