Hello! This is my first ever story on Fanfiction! I'm a sucker for self insert/oc/reborn stories, so I decided – why not start with the Warrior cat series?

Note: Of course, these series/chars don't belong to me. Oh, and I'm super sorry for any grammar mistakes! This fic also has a higher rating because of swearing. Oh well, lets get started with the prologue.

Prologue

You know what's weird?

Dying, but waking up right after.

Realizing that your feminine parts are replaced by masculine ones.

Becoming aware that you're not even human anymore.

And it's like I KNOW all this happened without even looking. It's like BLAM, one second of nothingness and the next all this frankly disturbing revelation crashes into me, shattering me to the core.

It's no wonder I instantly start freaking the hell out.

Scared and confused, I find myself engulfed in complete darkness. Oh shit, am I blind? Dread starts pooling in my stomach as I try to sort my frantic emotions. Wait, no, I'm not blind, my eyes are just closed. I try opening them, but they are shut so tightly it hurts. What the hell? A strangled shriek for help leaves my mouth, but I'm faced with sudden muteness (or maybe deafness?) too, because no matter how hard I try, the only thing I hear is my own frantic heart beating. I try to lash out, move, escape from this sudden insanity, this hell, but find my (new?) body sluggish and unresponsive. It takes me a while to notice, but it seems that something, no, someone is keeping me warm, preventing me from freezing. But who is it? And why aren't they helping me?

'Oh shit, oh shit, oh shit, what the fuck is happening, why can't I move...'

My new body is primitive, fragile and useless, a sheer downgrade from my old one. And yet my brain, my mind remains the same and let's me analyse these facts, even thought I'm not supposed to. My mind and body seem to be disconnected from one another like two separate entities trying to be one and the same, but failing miserably.

'This is not right, this is not right… THIS IS SO WRONG'

Once again, I try to make sense of this newfound information, but I'm not very successful. Different ideas cross my mind and immediately I think of the worst. Okay, so I'm definitely dead. A small problem though. When I try to remember what has happened to me – something, anything, I find my mind blank. I can remember being human (but I'AM human!), but I can't even remember my name. My memories are shrouded by a thick layer of mist that I can't touch no matter what I do.

'How... Why...'

I don't exactly remember how I died. And I feel pretty much alive right now, so did I really died? I mean... Reincarnation is not a thing, right? Right? Maybe I just hit my head really hard. That would explain the apparent amnesia. And the sudden blindness and deafness. Am on life support!

'But it seems so real...'

Ugh, this is total gibberish. This can't be real. My world has turned upside down. I mean, I just went from dead to alive, from woman in to a man, from human to... Whatever I am now...

'I went batshit insane, that's what happened...'

I'm scared shitless.

The only comfort I have right now is the warm presence besides me and I embrace it. It keeps my mind somewhat distracted from my current existential crisis and it makes me feel somewhat safe. I know I need to calm down, or else I'll go insane. I mean, I'm already insane. But I don't want to be INSANE insane.

'Don't think too hard, I'm sure everything is going to be fine. I'm going to wake up right about now…'

Moments pass, and I feel a new sensation. Is that...Taste? Am I tasting something?

'Yes, I should focus on this instead...' It takes me a few seconds to realize that I'm... Drinking? No, not drinking... And it tastes like... Milk?

...

Wait, wait, wait… Milk? I go frantic as I try to moving the hell away. BODY I SAID MOVE! Ugh no use! Okay, so it's officially confirmed! I'm super dead! Alive! Fuck! Reincarnation! I mean, why else can't I move my body? Why else I'm drinking milk? I'm a baby! Oh god am I disabled? I'm a BLIND and DEAF disabled baby! Milk, milk… Oh shit, I'm probably feeding on some woman's breasts! She's not my mom! Eww! Wait no, but I am not a human anymore? I'm some kind of animal? AGHH! WEIRD! Now I'm super glad I'm blind right now. But what if I'm stuck like this? Forever?

'No, no, no don't even think about it…'

I fidget away from the warmth. I don't really want to, it's nice, but I just can't drink someone's milk! It feels super wrong. I struggle, my body doesn't want to move. My body WANTS the warmth. I realize that I'm hungry and that I WANT the milk.

'No! I don't! I'm not a baby!'

And I'm back to my internal struggling. My old mind or my new body? Which is stronger?

'I'M NOT AN ANIMAL. THIS IS WRONG!'

Mind. The answer is mind. My body is weak. Strange. It's NOT who I am! I move away, yet every fiber of my body wants to come crawling back to the warmth. I seek it. I NEED it. No!

Mind over body... Mind over body…

Man this is crazy.

2019.06.28 fixed some grammar mistakes