"I love all humans-"
That's not exactly the truth, I feel the same emotion for all humans, but that's not love, it's…
"except for Heiwajima Shizuo."
He's different, he peaks my interest with his brute strength and unyielding personality. Someone who would never bend down to others, someone who's able to bring that spark into my life again. Even for a short while. Why you may ask. That's something I'm trying to figure out myself but first I'm just going to enjoy it.
"IZAYA!"
His attitude towards me is clear, he hates me. During those moments when I fight with him, I suppose I feel similar emotions within me. Anger that he's backing me into a corner that is out of other's reach, annoyance that I'm being disturbed in the middle of work again and slight fear that I might be hurt but they are overwhelmed mostly by amusement.
I knew that I didn't hate him just like how I didn't love people. Those emotions were just part of the many masks I was forced to create unconsciously, the mask I always put on when I'm in front of Heiwajima Shizuo. Only reason why I separate him from the others is that even when I'm away from others, during the period of isolation when I sit down and try to sort out which of the emotions are real and which are fake, my interest and amusement towards seems to be part of myself.
'But is it really?'
I'm not especially clear in those aspects since-
'Who am I?'