Bread Ring :)

I never thought I would feel like this again, so in love with him and him loving me back like I'm the only one he lives for. It's been a rocky start for us, but when isn't it? Interference from others is always a problem for us.

Baking bread together, telling me that he likes my endless chatter, that it calms him down, it tells me that finally we are on the same page. He is the man I love, have always loved and when its right; you just know don't you?

"Brendan Brady will you marry me?"

I can't help but smile as I say it out loud to myself and I know that the bread ring I've just made would look gorgeous on him, if only for two seconds because naturally Brendan would eat it. But to see his face from the commitment I'd be showing him and the thought of him saying yes makes me feel so excited. We are like an old married couple anyway.

He's changed in so many ways and I see that with the little things he does every day. They are so important aren't they, the little things? I wonder what's keeping him at the club, I hope that everything is okay; he said he wouldn't be long, but he's been hours.

I just want to surprise him, ask him to be my husband. Brendan Brady…my husband…wow! It's a dream come true for me, it really is. I take some bits outside and I notice him standing outside the club with Kevin.

My pounding heart almost breaks and then I see Kevin throw his arms around him and I think it does. Why is he hugging my man? In my head I see myself running over and taking all my jealous frustration out on the newbies face.

I knew he'd be trouble, I've seen the way he looks at Brendan. I know because I used to look at him the same, still do in fact. You know that look you give with your eyes when you want to worship every part of someone.

I didn't want to stare, but I couldn't take my eyes off them. I felt like I was interrupting and when Brendan saw me watching him I broke my uneasy stare and tried to go back inside, but he shouts after me stopping me in my tracks.

"Hey! Hey sorry about that."

"That's fine; you obviously had something better to do."

"What that? Ye don't have to worry about that, Steven come on."

I'm not worried about it, I've sorted it."

"I'm sorry"

"Just forget about it."

I go back inside alone and I feel like I'm never gonna be happy again, because deep down I know that happy endings just don't happen for me and Brendan. It's just a foolish dream, a tacky bread ring.

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