So i've been reading a lot of one shots lately as well as little ficlets and I cant help but get inspired by it all and decided that i might give it myself a go at a mutli one shot story, Olicity of course, Just moments that I imagine their lives would or could be like through out their relationship, (Friendship and otherwise) So it might be a little sloppy and at times there may bigger time jumps between chapters I.e months to years and then there could be ones that happen right after the other in the chapters, I dont know when I'll upload I'm just gonna write as many as possible before I decide what to do with it all.
Hope you all enjoy, Love grace xx
################# Entry One - (set somewhere between season to and the sarah ollie incident) You make me scream ##################
There had always been one thing that Felicity was sure of in life, It was something her late grandmother told her before she died, Felicty had only been 12 but was smart beyond years, And when she had sat in the hospital room on the edge of the bed and asked her 'nan' whether she was scared of what was going to happen she would never forget the answer, Her grandmother had patted her hands with a sincere smile and in a quiet but firm with conviction voice said,
"No child, Because I have had a years filled with life changing moments, And knowing that i have lived, Flourished and perished in a life I 'myself' lead, Licity' darling. No matter what happens in life there will always be significant moments, They can be big gestures of romance, Or it could be just a passing moment, A memorable conversation or a look in someones eyes, They will change your life, When they happen you'll know too, So that when your time comes you will have those moments, The snippets of your own history to keep you comforted, I lived a happy life filled with these moments, I hope you will have too, Because life is filled with life changing moments you should make the most of them'
She had always remembered the words, Carried them around with her, 100% assure in that belief. Which is why she knew what was about to happen was going to be one, As she sat there in her chair in front of her lair babies waiting for him, She just knew.
She's had many life changing moments when it comes to Oliver Queen Ex billionaire-playboy-come-vigilante, First was the moment their eyes met, She was filled by a tingle in her chest the very second that they looked into each other, So much so that it lead to a second one shortly after, It being her unfortunate babble to him, After her first encounter with him she had thought a lot about it, And the words her grandmother said but still came to the conclusion that nothing more would happen, Oliver Queen was not gonna see her again, So you could be sure she was surprise every time he kept coming back.
The third moment was probably the biggest one to date so far, I literally turned her whole world around, It was her getting to her car to find a bleeding vigilante that revealed none other then The Oliver Queen, That was the first night she finally saw him, And safe to say it changed her life, She became part of the team, She had found half of her home in the men.
There was 'the dodger', 'Helena and an office chair', 'The Savior', 'Lance-Earthquake machine', Ski Diving and Lian yu, 'Russia', 'The count' , 'Barry' , 'Sarah', 'The tockman' and 'Sarah and Oliver.
There had been a lot of life or death situations more then most, But she wouldn't change a thing, Because she always had one thing fr sure since the moment they met even with all the lies she could trust him, Because no matter what he was there, Which was why she was fine with him and his budding relationship with Sarah, Okay so fine may be a strong word, Did she like it, No, But was she happy he was happy, Yes undoubtedly.
But what she wasnt happy with was being pushed out, Forgot about, And at first she chalked it up to feeling jealous of Sarah, But on closer inspection it wasn't Sarah that had been pushing her out, If anything They had became good friends, No it was Oliver who was doing the pushing.
It started with being last one informed, Early dismissals, Being told she wasn't needed, Stopped asking her for her opinion on this, Unlikely to fall into a conversation with her and the ones they did have he was terse and short meaning they never talked for longer then required, She tried to not let it get to her but every one could see she was hurt, She started to close herself off to him which was harder then she thought because he always said or did something to make her heart betray her.
She finally had enough and talked about it to Digg and wasn't surprised when Oliver asked her for lunch, Then forgot 3 times, She was at a breaking point and Sarah had suggested they go for dinner, So she reluctantly agreed, Which was where she had waited for him, Alone in the dark outside the restaurant after receiving pitying looks for an hour inside, In her self depricating mood she opted for the walk to verdant for her car, When the man appeared.
She lost inside her head didn't see him at first, But was more then aware when she felt his hands grab her, The cold metal on her neck, She just reacted how John and Sarah had trained her, Adrenaline helping her, She managed to get the knife away but wasn't strong enough to properly defend herself and landed with a thud when his fist hit her jaw, He was kicking her ribs when for a third time when the wait staff of the restaurant intervened.
She managed to walk the rest of the way to verdant but by the time she got there she thought it was safe to go inside knowing that Digg would be home an (it being date night with Carly) And Roy with Thea in the club, So she was surprised when she had got there and saw aforementioned men inside, Who immediately started hovering, But she was to annoyed and in pain to do anything, But as she sat there the painkillers kicked in allowing time for annoyed to turn to anger.
So by the time Oliver came down the steps, With a I-Just-Got-Laid Look on his face she was Furious. When he caught sight of her she saw the surprise turn to concern and then into guilt in his eyes, Not his normal guilty look, The one he get's when someones hurt, No, This was his I knowingly did something wrong, And Felicity knew automatically that he had ignored her call earlier.
"What happened?" He asks coming closer, A glare from her stopping him in his tracks, "Did something happen to your phone" She asked.
Oliver cant help the confused sputtered, "Well I called you and you never picked up, So did you break it or did you just send my to voice mail" She asked her voice turning ice cold making Dig and Roy come to the edge of the training area.
"Which One Oliver?" She asks making an effort to keep together the burning fire inside of her and the tell-tale tingle in her spine as she waited.
It wasn't long before he hung his head, "I'm sorry I- Was-" Her cruel laughter had his head snapping up to face her, The onlookers moving forward slightly from worry. She laughs bitterly forcing the sound through her throat The urge to cry hitting her before she pushes it aside and lets her fury turn to outrage, Focousing the wrath into words as she began to speak.
"You want to know what happened Oliver, What happened was YOU!" She shouted vaulting up from her chair turning her whole body to him as she pointing angrily in his directions, An act that set him into confusion.
"You don't even know do you, God your an asshole" "I' I kno-" "You want to know what happened Oliver, I chose to believe you when you said our friendship was important to you, So much so that I agreed to the lunch that Digg forced you to offer, And later agreed to reschudule twice and then you stood me up-"
"I already apologised for that Felicity you kn-" "NOOOOOO!" she shouted the words so loudly and so forcefully it sent him back half a step as she started to walk towards him a fire burning in her blue eyes he'd never seen before.
"No you dont get to talk, I AM, You get to listen to what I know, Oliver" All he could do was nod his hands up in a placating gesture.
"I know that I sat in a cafe for 2 hours waiting for you twice, While you forgot, I know you have been pushing me aside for weeks, Leaving me out, Finding fault in everything that I do, Which is always for you, I do everything for you, I know that you have made me feel like I dont belong, But I still agreed to give you another shot for our friendship, For the trust I had in you, So I like the STUPID Felicity I am, I agreed to meet you for dinner a dinner in which you begged me to go to, Only to be given pitying looks from a full crowd, Then to be sent to voice mail after 2 rings, And if that wasn't enough I go a get attacked while outside the restaurant you picked to go TO" she expelled a large breath as she took in his reaction, Noticing when he remembered that they where meant to go for dinner.
"Fel-" Again he's interrupted by a glare from her.
"So tell me Oliver was it worth it?" She asks looking up at him "Was what worth it?" He asked not liking the emotions that are gathering in his chest, "What ever it was that made you forget?" She asks just as Sarah walks in stopping in view but still off to the side of everyone.
"Whats... Going on ?" She asks sensing the tension in the air and the angry stance of Felicity, Whose brain suddenly clicks when she see Oliver's face fall, Just like that her anger is back in full force, Another laugh scratching her throat.
"Of Course, I should of known" She says more to herself then anything, "Felicity I'm So" "I AM NOT FINISHED" the words are merely spoken but the steel in them has everyone bristling.
"You know I never truly agreed with Dig last year with the whole Deadshot thing, I could understand his anger of course, It was well placed, But i never full got what he meant when he said it was always her every thing else be damned, But now, NOW I get it, But its not just Laurel, NO, Its all the Lance women, Every one else falls short" She laughs again but this time he can here the sadness twinging it.
"The moment I met you Oliver, Everything changed, You gave me something that I will forever be grateful for, A Cause, But everything else, I-" She has to close her eyes and count to three before she can continue, But her eyes continue to glisten.
"The one thing we had, Even through all the bullshit lies at the start, I mean Energy-Drink-In-A-Syringe" He cant stop the quick upturn of his lips, One that falls with her next words,
"Was Trust, I could Trust that you would always come for me, Always answer my call, That was the one thing that didn't stop until today, And just, I'm done"
All the air leaves his lungs as well as the room, As the weight of her words start to settle,
"I'm done being that girl who constantly lets you break their heart, I'm sick of being pushed and pulled, Used up, 2 Years ago I had a job that although boring I loved and the freedom to go out and enjoy a man's company before comparing him to you, I look around and your in everything, I know that my feelings aren't your fault but I always was your Friend first, Now I'm not even that" She says with a sigh before turning to pick up her bag.
"You Know tonight was meant to prove to me it writing that letter just in case was a waste of time or not, I thought stupidly that I wasn't going to need it, That I hadn't agreed to this dinner foolishly, I TRUSTED that you meant it when you said my friend ship was important that you were sorry, I guess I was wrong" She cocks her head to the side much like the first time they met but the look in her eye forces any reply to die on his tongue.
"So I'm Done, I'm done being you trusted EA, Of course I'll still be here because this is much my mission as it is yours, But other then that I'm done, I don't want to go to any apology dinners or listen to any form of pleading, Because I'm done caring, I'm done wanting to be your anything, Not your EA, Adviser, Sounding board, Shoulder to lean on, I'm done with being your friend". Again it feels as if he's been punched in the gut, The water in his eyes matching her own.
"Beside I'm just an IT girl remember" She wipes a tear that had escaped off her cheek and smiles slightly, "And that is the only thing you can ask of me" she says as before turning to leave,
He doesn't think about it but suddenly his hand goes to her arm, Only to hang mid air when she flinches away from him, "I will be back to run the searches tomorrow, But I mean everything I've said, Do you understand?" she asks.
"No, Felicity I know I fucked up but-" "You broke it Oliver" "I can fix it!" He shouts His own tears silently falling matching her own, Even if its the most he's spoken, His arms flailing with determination.
"You can't, No amount of sorry's can change the fact that I can't trust you, So I'm going to put everything I have in to keeping you and this work separate, Which mean's distancing myself from you in as many ways possible, No touches, No looks, No phone calls, No matter what happens this can never be forgotten, Goodbye Oliver" The room spares a worrying glance at Felicity's back as she exits, Only to do the same to Oliver as he heads the opposite way.
And no one comments on his tears, Or how much this is going to change. Diggle not even sparing a glance before heading after the blonde.
The End,,,, For Now.