Carter
walked into the lounge, opening his locker he started emptying it
out. First came his stethoscope, he remembered the day he took it
from Dr.
Greene's locker. He folded it up ad put it into his bag.
Most of the things
from there were already at home but just some
papers he knows he's had there
forever.
He picked up
the first thing there, it was a picture, he recognized from the
Christmas party his first year in the ER. Everyone was there. Dr.
Benton, Dr.
Greene, Susan, Carol, Doug, and a few others who
joined in there. Carter
studied himself in there. He looked so
young, and so naive, as he remembered
himself his first year at
County. He put that into his bag moving onto some
more
things.
The next thing he picked up was a blank envelope
in which was a letter. He
opened it and started reading it. He
recognized it as the letter that he
wrote when he was an intern
under Dr. Greene. As he read it he chuckled
remembering those
days. When he finished he folded it up again and put it
back into
the envelope, and placed it into his jacket pocket.
The
next thing he found was an envelope from a photo developing place.
Carter
opened the envelope and took out the pictures. He started
going through them,
looking at each one. He smiled at the
memories of them. These were some
pictures from when him and Abby
were still dating. A few ER gatherings, and a
few of their own
moments in there too.
Carter had no idea what to do with
the pictures. He didn't just want to throw
them out, but tacking
them to Africa with him, he wasn't so sure Kem would
like that
very much. Then suddenly he got an idea. Carter took one picture
from the Christmas party of the year him and Abby were dating,
and slid it
into his inside pocket, at least now he had one
memory with him. He then
looked over at the locker next to him,
with the name Lockhart on it. He still
remembered the
combination, opening it, he slid the pictures, on the top
shelf,
where he knew she left her stethoscope at the end of the day.
He
then packed away a few of his last things. Carter shut his locker,
looking
at it, realizing this might very well be the last time he
is in this ER, and
in this lounge. He traced his name over with
his finger and walked out of the
lounge, heading for where he
knew the interns were working on their charts,
with the letter in
his
hand.
He
handed Abby the letter with a smile to her, and she smiled back, both
of
them realizing this was their goodbye. He waved a final time
walking out of
the room, and out of County for good.
Abby
held the envelope in her hand, biting on her bottom lip when Neela's
voice brought her out of her thoughts.
"Are you going to read it?" She asked her.
"Hmmm."
Looking at Neela, then back at Ray looking at the letter, she
realized something. She couldn't just leave it at that. She
couldn't let
this be their goodbye, after everything they went
through. "Um, actually I'll
be right back." She said
getting up from her seat, setting the letter on the
bed, and
walking out of the trauma room, leaving a puzzled Neela and Ray
behind
her.
Carter
walked out of the ER. Looked back once more, tacking a mental picture
of it all. he then heard something coming from the other side of
the bay, and
saw Morris sitting there.
"Morris?" Carter asked to make sure that this was him.
Morris lifted
his head looking at Carter "I think I'm gonna barf." he
said
lowering his head back down.
"You set the
tone Morris." carter said remembering when Mark had said this to
him.
"Huh?"
"Never mind."
Carter said chuckling and walking away when he heard a voice
behind
him."
"Is that it?" Carter turned around
looking to whom the voice belonged to,
seeing Abby standing there
brought a smile to his face.
"Got a plane to catch." Carter replied, making his way closer to her as she
took a few steps toward him.
"And that's how you're gonna
leave, that's all I get after six years." Abby
asked trying
to keep her voice leveled when her heart was breaking. She
couldn't
believe that this was going to be the goodbye she would say to her
once best friend, lover and mentor.
Carter smiled
gently at her and now they were standing a few steps away from
one
another. "I thought any other way would be too
complicated."
"Yeah, I guess." After a
pause she spoke again. "I'm really gonna miss you."
She
said to him. He looked at her with the biggest and saddest smile, and
dropped his bag beside him, tacking a step toward Abby he opened
his arms and
she stepped into them. Her arms went around his
shoulder, and his around her
waist, holding her close. She
sniffed in his scent as a tear rolled down her
cheek, which he
felt on his neck, trickling down.
"I'm gonna miss
you too. You mean so much to me Abby, that I didn't even know
where
to begin, which is why I just figured it would be best to leave it
this
way." He hugged her closer and she nodded into his
shoulder.
They slowly let go looking deep into each
other's eyes, her hands still on his
shoulders and his lightly
around her waist she looked into his eyes, and
without even
thinking she gently leaned her mouth to his, in a friendly
goodbye
kiss. In a few seconds they let go both smiling at each other with a
shy smile.
"You should get going." Abby said smiling at him.
"Yeah, look I just want you to
know, that in a way I will always love you.
You have been such an
amazing friend and everything to me, and I am what I am
because
of you. Thank you." He finished.
"You're
welcome. And thank you, for everything, with the tuition and I mean
Eric and Maggie, I just..." She tailed off.
"I
know. Goodbye, Abby." He said tacking a few steps away from her
and
putting his bag back on his shoulder.
"Goodbye, John." She replied with a sad smile and he returned it.
He
started walking away from her, and was almost out of the bay when he
suddenly turned back and looked at the ER, and then at Abby.
Seeing her start
to walk away he called after her. "You set
the tone, Abby." She turned around
and looked at him with a
confused look, not completely sure of what she heard
"You're
a great doctor." He finished and with that he made his way out
of the
ER, leaving with Abby looking after him for a few minutes
until she walked
back inside.
She couldn't believe
Carter had said this to her. She knew that this is what
Mark had
said to him when he left. And she remembers when Carter had told her
this, and the expression on his face, the proud look he had that
Mark had
actually put so much faith in him, which is how she felt
right about
now.
Abby
walked back into the lounge and saw Neela and Ray in there ready to
leave. She didn't know that they had both seen everything that
happened
through the window in the lounge.
"You ok?" Neela asked gently.
"Yeah, let's get out of
here." She walked to her locker opening it she
noticed that
a photo envelope fell from the top shelf. Abby bend down to pick
it
up as Neela and Ray kept looking at her. She opened the envelope and
looking inside she saw a bunch of pictures. She let out a sigh as
she saw
where they're from.
Neela and Ray were now
both standing behind her looking at the same picture
she was. It
was a picture of her and John when they were dating. It was a
picture a photographer took the day the left quarantine and were
on the
beach. In the picture they were both lying in the sand
gazing into each other
and smiling.
"When was this?" Ray asked.
"Um, this was when we left
quarantine after two weeks of being in the ER,
that's when we got
together." Abby answered with her eyes glistening. She
couldn't
believe Carter had left her this.
"You've had this all this time." Neela asked her.
"No, I guess Carter did and he put it in my locker."
"How did he get in?" Ray asked.
"He knows my
combination." Abby answered, flicking through the rest of the
pictures. When she stopped at one of most of the ER at the
Christmas party at
Susan's, she stopped, and pulled the picture
out, handing the stack to Neela,
she walked over to the cupboard
by the coffee machines. She took a few pieces
of tape and put the
picture on there, smoothing it down.
Abby walked back to
her locker as Neela handed her the pictures. She took off
her
stethoscope and put it on the top shelf, along with her lab coat
which
she hung in her locker. Abby took out her jacket and put
the pictures in it's
pocket.
All three of them walked out
and parted ways with a few goodbyes, and
comments about the day's
work. As Abby walked away from the bay, all she kept
thinking
about was that the next day she walks in there, Carter will not be
there to greet her.
Well
this was just one chapter, which I've had in my mind since the season
finale in may, but I only just out it into writing. I hope you
guys like it.
