This story was previously called UNTITLED. I have changed the name...because i can. ^.^
So, this is just a bit of random angst that i decided to write about Cananda and his family issues. I was listening to Nothing to Lose by Billy Talent. It fits perfectly.
Chapter 1: Nothing to Lose
Dear Diary:
Today I decided that my life is over. I will no longer live here in peace. I will no longer deal with this bullshit world. I will no longer be mistaken for my brother. I will no longer be beaten up without any reason. I will no longer try…
I have always tried to fit in; to have friends. All I ever wanted was to be my own person. My whole existence is a mistake. Dad and Papa…they have no idea. Sure they assumed that adopting us both would be a good idea…if only they would have taken Alfred and left me there all those years ago.
I should not exist. There is no reason to keep me here.
Tomorrow t is the night I will do it. Papa just bought a brand new bottle of sleeping pills…unopened. That will be enough…
This is my last night on earth…my last night writing in this book…my last night.
All my homework is done. My teeth are brushed, my stomach, full. I showered and wrote the note that will be left for my parents and brother, though they probably won't get to it until my body begins to decay and smell…at least they'll read it eventually.
Figures that tonight there is a thunderstorm. It's almost as if the world feels my emotions and is acting accordingly.
What are my plans? After this last entry, I will make another cut on my arm. Tomorrow I will go to school as planned…return home and act a usual so as not to raise suspicion to the family that doesn't even know I exist. When they are all in bed…I shall take every pill and climb in bed. Then it will all be over…
Do you think I'll see my real parents in heaven?
Who am I kidding? Even if I was going there…which I'm not…they wouldn't want to see me. I'm invisible.
-Mathew Williams
My Last Night on Earth
This is all i have so far...it's sad, i know. FYI, all my chapters will be song related. Mainly sad songs...I'll let you know what song it was at the beginning of each chapter.