Pain and fear locked away. Truth hidden from those who seek it. One person can really change the world. But what about a god? Gods can change all that is, and all that will be. Amaterasu was that god. She spent hundreds of years locked away in a wolfs body to complete that mission. And when she finally did, she was lonely.

Five years after Amaterasu returned to the Celestial Plain, she felt beaten down. Her mind often drifted to thinking of the one person she had ever felt feelings toward; Okikurmi the warrior.

Waka often tried to comfort her when she seemed down, but it never worked, she missed him too much. She had consitered going to visit him so many times that she had lost count. All she needed was to see him. She figured he was married with kids by now, but she didn't care, she was dying to see him.

"My, chèrie... just go and see him."

Amaterasu jumped, she had not realised Waka was there observing her.

"How long were you standing there Ushiwaka?" She asked in her formal voice.

"Long enough to feel your pain. Go see him-"

"You're forgetting your place Ushiwaka!" Her voice rung off the walls of her room. She sighed, letting her face fall back to sadness. "I apologise Ushiwaka... I had not meant to yell..."

"It is quite alright my chèrie. I just worry about you, you seem to get worse by the day." His eyes were sincere.

"I'll be honest with you Ushiwaka, I am... I just... I cannot leave, not for a reason as useless as this one..."

"But, my godess, if you don't visit him, it may become too late for you to do so."

"Very true. But I cannot just leave the Celestail Plain just like that..." She lowered her head in dispair.

"Why cant you?"

"B-Because, it's not right of me as a goddess that's why!" Her eyes widened as she realised she had yelled at Waka again, she walked over to her balcony and sat on the railing.

"I-I'm sorry... Maybe I should just go..."

"I think so my goddess, you will loose your mind otherwise."

"I already have Ushiwaka, I never used to yell at you..."

"Then go..."

"How? I don't even know how to get back to the human world without becoming a wolf again."

"I can help with that."

Waka lifted his flute to his lips. An eerie, but beautiful tune escaped. The goddess found herself smiling at the sound. Then a metal gate appeared. It had snow and ice all over it, and from the other side was a cold draft, Waka's tune stopped playing.

"You may go now my chèrie. In three days time you will see this gate again, you can choose to walk through it or not, but if you do not, you will never be able to return here."

"N-Never?"

"Never."

"Oh... B-but, what if I don't notice it, or... or... I for some reason can't get to the gate?"

"Never."

"I see. Thank you Ushiwaka, but, if it is too late, what do I do for three days?"

"If you need to return sooner, pray to me. I will bring you back."

"Thank you." She wrapped her arms around him, hugging him tightly before she turned to face the gate.

"It will close soon if you do not go now."

"Alright. I will be back Waka."

Taking a deep breath, Amaterasu walked straight for the gate. She let down her snow white hair letting it cover her exposed shoulders like a blanket. Amaterasu felt her whole body go cold once more before she felt snow flakes landing on her. Opening her eyes, she recognised where she was.

"Weeper... Ah I've missed this place..." She said to herself with a smile.

She headed up to Kai's home. She knocked on the door a few times before a girl with a deer mask appeared.

"Hello. Who are you?" She asked as she turned her head to the side, her voice had become more woman sounding rather than kid.

"W-We've met before Kai... I am Amaterasu. You last saw me as a white wolf."

"Amaterasu? B-But that was five years ago... You had saved us all... It cannot be you..."

"But it is. I came here to find Okikurmi... Do you know where I can find him?"

"It really is you. Your the only person to ever use his real name... Hes probably at Laochi Lake. If hes not training that's where he is. He stands there looking into the sky like hes waiting for that ark to return. I think he is waiting for you, Amaterasu."

"Thank you Kai. I will go try and find him." She turned to walk away when Kai grabbed her shoulder.

"One more thing my goddess."

"Yes?"

"Issun often visits him... just a warning."

The goddess laughed. "Thanks, I'll keep that in mind." She turned back around heading for where Oki was usually found.

Amaterasu had never remembered the walk up to the lake being as tiring as it was for her as a human. She panted as she climbed the last few steps. When she reached the top, she could see the empty lake that once had the ark, along with the sword that Oki had stolen to save his village. Amaterasu found herself running. When she reached the top of the platform, she let her hand rest on the handle of the sword.

Her mind drifted to when she saw Oki use it in battle. How fast his movements were, but how professional they were. His actions in battle when he won, and lost. How sincere he was to the injured version of herself that had come to help from the past. She felt like she had just seen him yesterday. His long black and red hair blowing in the wind. His beautiful body and how it was build. How she always hated seeing his mask, how many times she thought of ripping it off with her wolf teeth. She sighed looking back out to the waters surface, then she heard something.

"Hey you! Yeah, you with the ears! What you think you're doing here touchin' that sword?" The voice was deep and sounded angry. She looked around but saw no one.

"Down here!" She looked down to see a familiar face.

"Issun? Oh Issun, I've missed you so much!" She bent down and picked up the little ponicle, he seemed shocked.

"H-How do you know my name? We've never met... have we?"

She laughed. "Yes we have. You don't recognise me?" She touched her ears, then her crimson features.

"No... It couldn't be."

"Issun, how can you not remember me? I was... oh what was that you used to call me... furball? Yes I believe that was it." She smiled to him brightly.

"A-Ammy?"

"Hello Issun." She laughed again.

"B-But, I thought you were dead or somethin', I thought that's why I had to draw pictures and spread the word."

"No, I was not dead, just doing my job. As you have been doing yours... More and more are believing in us thanks to you Issun. So thank you." She smiled again as she heard him laugh.

"So, why are you here then?" He asked.

She sighed. "To be honest Issun, I came here to see Okikurmi. You wouldn't know where he is would you?"

"Yea' I do. Hes right there." He pointed to a small tent with a face looking similar to Oki's mask.

"How did I not notice that?"

"You weren't facing that way, that's why."

She laughed again. "Thanks Issun, you coming with or staying here?"

"I'll stay, give you some alone time with him." He winked at her causing her to laugh again.

"Alright Issun, I'll be back." She put him on top of the sword then walked toward the tent.

The tent was similar to the one her and Issun had come accross when they first met Oki. The tent had a small fire inside, some food, blankets and swords. But this time there was no Oki. The goddess sighed and sat down on a rock that was by the fire. She felt like she would never find him.

"Why are you in my tent?" A strong but handsome sounding voice appeared in the room making Amaterasu jump.

"O-Okikurmi..."

"Yes, who are you and what do you want?" His body was more muscular, his hair a little longer. His outfit was the same, and his voice had dropped a bit.

"Okikurmi, it's me, Amaterasu." She stood up and began to walk toward him.

"A-Amaterasu? It can't be... She was a wolf, not human." His usual stance was now off, if they were in a battle, he would have been completely vulnerable.

"I was trapped in that body, it really is me. I'm unsure on how to prove it, but I am." She forced a smile.

"Wheres Issun, he'd know if it was you or not." Oki said as he crossed his arms.

Amaterasu moved past Oki to walk to where she had left Issun, sure enough a small character with a green glow stood there jumping on top of the sword.

"Issun. Tell Okikurmi that I'm Amaterasu, he doesn't believe me." She begged.

"Oh, yeah Oki, this is her, just look at her, you don't think she looks like a human version of the wolf Amaterasu?"

"Well I-"

"You do... don't lie." Issun laughed.

"Well then, if it is you, why are you here?" He questioned her.

"I... I..." She could feel her face getting hot. She grabbed a piece of her hair and began twirling it between her index fingers.

"Oki, what shes trying to say is," Issun jumped from the sword to the nose of his mask. "She came here to see you."

"W-what?" He asked more out loud then to anyone.

"I-It's true... I did come to see you." She finally choked out.

"Amaterasu... why don't you come with me?" He said guestering toward the hill that led to the Ezo Fuji Irwak Shrine.

"Ah, sure..." She blushed again as Issun jumped off of his mask and she followed Oki.

At the top of the hill was a small cliff, on it was another tent with Oki's mask on it. The two sat down in front of the fire.

"Why do you have another tent Okikurmi?" She asked him as she sat as close to him as she could, she was cold.

"I... I've been charting the sky... I thought you may return in that mysterious ark."

"Oh Okikurmi, I'll never be bringing that thing back here, it brought too much destruction."

"I figured that, but I wanted to see you again... I..." Words seemed to be lost to him.

"I heard from Kai that you have been waiting for my return."

"Y-Yes... I..." He lowered his head.

Amaterasu placed his hand on his shoulder tentively. He looked up to her. She smiled and reached her hand up and let it rest on his mask. He jumped from the touch, but he did not stop her. She smiled again as she slowy pulled away the blue mask, Amaterasu, was speechless.

His skin was a light tanned shade. His eyes the colour of the midnight sky. High cheekbones, thin face. His bangs fell over his one eye slightly covering it from Amaterasu's view.

"Y-Your gorgeous..." Was the only words she had.

"So are you ." He said as he smiled.

Her heart melted, she threw herself at him letting herself fully melt into his body. She had never felt this happy in her whole life.

Authors Notes: Chap one! ;)

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