Since I am back in spring court, my nightmares started to return. It was no surprise that every time I woke up screaming, not knowing where I was, I was left to try and calm myself down again. Tamlin as always pretending to not notice my screaming and puking. At least I had Rhys trying to reassure me that everything was fine on the other side of the bond.

I was here just a weak and already I was losing weight and losing myself but I needed to do this, for my court and my family, for Rhys. So here I am trying to gain as much information that I can find. I didn't find anything useful so far, Tamlin promised to involve me more but to be honest, I don't experience so much difference from last time I was here. It is not that I expected to meet a whole new Tamlin, but still it hurts.

There was a soft knock on the door before Tamlin came in. I did my best to smile at him. 'Something happened, Lucien and I need to leave at dawn.'

'Okay, I'm coming with you.'

He took my hands in his 'It's far too dangerous Feyre, I wouldn't want anything to happen to you'.

'No. You promised me that things would be different this time, you promised me'. I felt my magic pulsing against my skin, it asked a lot from me to push it back as he said 'And I will, but not with this. My priority is to keep you save.' I knew that I couldn't push him to far or he would suspect something so I just agreed. He tried to kiss me but I turned my face. 'Goodnight Tamlin' said I while I started walking towards the bathroom.

Before I even reached the door, I heard Tamlin closing the door with a loud smack.

I locked the door and tugged on the bond. 'Hello, Feyre darling.'

I felt so relieved after hearing Rhys, and I felt him send a wave of love down the bond.

'I love you Rhys.'

He chuckled at that 'Did someone miss me?'

'You are such a prick'

'Feyre, are you alright darling?' I knew Rhys was going out of my mind with me in Spring, but I'm the only sours of information that we have this moment, it would be a shame if I left now.

'I'm fine Rhys, but I have to go.'

'I love you.' And with that I felt him put his shields back I place.

I stayed there for a little while using the slightest bit of magic so that Tamlin wouldn't notice, not that he would ever suspect me, but I can't be careful enough around here.