DISCLAIMER: I don't own Naruto, wish I did, but I don't sadly. Anyway this is for all chapters so don't come crying to me if you don't see one and try to tell me that I don't own Naruto...if I did this story would be on here, it would have got it's ass published...after it was finished of course.

AUTHOR's NOTE: This is my Second NaruSasu story...the first one was Yaoi Slash whatever you want to call it. It was rated M for a reason....but this is not Yaoi. You will figure that out yourself. I am thinking of keeping Naruto's name Naru...but if you don't like that please tell me a name that you would like. Something that isn't used please. I hate it when people aren't orginal. And they use names everyone else is using (for the same ppl). It's kind of sad, the lack of originality.

SUMMERY: I am Naruto Uzumaki, but I am not the cheerful-no-matter-what happens-go-lucky-ninja. Masks are so convenient, they hide what you don't want others to see. I am tired of my hiding who I am. Sasuke, Ero-Sennin are gone, what's left? Can I break out of this lie that is my life? Oh and I think I left out a little something, my biggest secret of all—I'm a girl.

3 pages; 2418 words; ENJOY!

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Prologue

I am Naruto Uzumaki; I just turned eighteen years old a few days…no maybe a few weeks ago. I can't tell anymore, time passes by and I am so messed up that I can't tell anymore. It's been five years since I tried to get Sasuke back. About three years since I met him again, only to watch him leave me again. I could do nothing to stop him just like the other times. Both meetings had affected me way more then I let on. I refused to believe that they had affected me that much, I think you spell that: d-e-n-i-a-l…big time. That is who I am; if it hurts you—you deny it. If you do that it can't hurt you. I got that from her.

I am getting tired of everything, how dull my life had become, how boring as it kept repeating itself. Sasuke leaves, we fight, I lose. I meet Sasuke years later, we fight, and then I lose. After I heard he killed Itachi I almost gave up on him. After hearing that he did what he wanted, and then I found out that Pervy-Sage—who was like a father to me—was dead, it became too much to bear. What's hurts more about Sasuke is that I heard he joined the Akatsuki, and captured the eight tails. It doesn't help that I am the only Jinchūriki left.

But there is something that I keep asking myself: why do I always get left behind? It was the same when theyleft me. Onee-chan went and killed her whole village, don't know why—but for some reason I support it. Then Onee-chan's imouto—not mine she was older than me—couldn't handle all her memories and the knowledge that she could have saved Itachi and her sister. She could have saved them from killing everyone by doing it herself. So she ran off. Some would wonder if she was trying to kill herself again…but I doubt it. She wasn't going down that road again. Most likely she is training her ass off so she can completely destroy everything what makes her weak. God knows she hates being weak.

Oh did I mention that she is a time jumper? That was how we met, she had just accidently sent herself back, and I was the first one who found her. Oh yeah that was why she kept on trying to kill herself, she couldn't take the memories of what happened in the past and what was going to happen in the future. Blame that little gift on her dad…her first one.

For some reason there is a race of demons could look into the future as well as the past, three different demons, but somehow her dad had them all in his family tree. Opps did I forget to mention they could travel too? That was something the royal demons could do. That my friends was what I meant by time jumper.

If you are confused by what I said let me make it simple: she is a demon. Half demon technically, but are we getting technical here? Her father was the king of demons in the demon world (also the summoning world, they are kind of the same). Her mother you ask? She was the daughter of the guy who invented Jutsu. Like the Kekkai Genkai came from him, along with the ninja arts. Well him and his siblings. But why are we talking of people that lived hundreds maybe thousands of years ago? All this I mentioned about her family was long time ago. And it doesn't really matter right now. I have no idea why I am trying to explain this.

Back to the present, enough drowning in the past, it can't help you. I know that much. She was right, the past is useless, and nothing good comes from thinking about it. The only thing that matters is the present. But the present doesn't matter to me either. Nothing really matters anymore to me.

Ever since I gave up on everything but training, life has become dull and boring. I have become hard and cold, inside only though. I have to keep up that disgusting façade. It kills me to do it, but it has to be kept up. I don't think I care about being Hokage any more, even though Baa-chan has me as the next one. I don't even care that Sakura has said she loves me.

Don't think that will work out and all. I'm not really into girls, homosexuality doesn't work for me. Oh yeah, I guess I forgot to mention I'm a girl. That was another thing the two insane girls taught me, besides that I need to be strong. If I was a girl in my situation—being the vessel of the Kyuubi— (which Onee-chan's little sister loves, says she grew up with him) would be bad. Boys they wouldn't touch. Girls on the other hand, they might get some bad ideas, if you know what I mean.. They said they would protect me till I was able to do so myself, but they left before I even graduated the academy. So much for that promise.

It isn't that I'm broken, it's just that I am tired of all this, everything is so useless. Sasuke had a dream, followed it. He accomplished that dream. He never had to pretend to be something he wasn't, and it never ate him up inside either. Something ate him up alright, but that was revenge. I hated lying to everyone, even after they gave me a chance, became my friend, I was ready to come out and tell everyone everything.

I even changed people. Everyone who paid attention just thought I was special. Hey Naruto has had a sucky life but look; here he is giving out life lessons and changing people—for better or worse. What a load of bullshit, they pissed me off so much that I said something that would shut their asses up. Of course what did that get me? A few friends—most were useless to me—and more wrong impressions about me.

I once helped this priestess save the world. It was after I trained with Pervy Sage, she had to seal up this evil dude who was really powerful and after she sealed him up she was going to die in the process. Even though many died in her place—she even saw their deaths before hand—she reminded me of Onee-chan's imouto. So I fought for her, with her and almost died. She even told me I had died. If both of my girls were there they would have hauled their asses up there and killed that bastard for trying to kill me. Anyway she had the nerve to ask me to help her. I knew what she asked, I had to play dumb. Like I can get her pregnant, I am a GIRL for crying out loud. Never mind, next time I see her I will kill her. That much is certain. Of course, if someone tried to take revenge for me killing her let them try. I didn't hang out with Onee-chan and her little sister for nothing. They were on Kage level when they left their Villages. Onee-chan was Itachi's age, and her little sister was a year older than Sasuke and me.

I had the choice to tell everyone everything, so many times. But I didn't, why? Sasuke left me; I swear he knew when we kissed after we became Gennin. I swear that look of surprise on his face—it turned to a grimace less than a second afterward—he had known I was a girl. Then when he saved me from Haku, I thought he knew, he had a vague idea I was something I wasn't, but he never put it together, why? He was a so called genius for crying out loud! I was in a village full of so many smart and powerful people, how come no one knew?

He was happy, but then it fell apart. When Sasuke left, that bastard damaged the only thing I had left to forget the pain—a barrier I had put up around my so called my soul—now I can't forget it. When he left he made it crack. The second time I couldn't save him, that cracked the glass of my soul even more. I wondered just how much I could take before I snap.

Just how much could shetake? A hell of a lot, some of the things she told me, even the most experienced killers shouldn't know, let alone a child under the age of four. She knew all about breaking, she was killing people since she was around three or four. Because of who she was, she could never get close to people, for the fear of the pain it caused. She warned me about it, I listened for a while, but…I didn't listen in the end. The evidence is what Sasuke did to me. His betrayal broke me in so many ways, someone I trusted so deeply. I have learned my lesson—never trust someone so deeply ever again.

It was when I heard two things, the things that broke me so completely. I heard: Sasuke had finally fulfilled all of his revenge crap and the second was that Jiraiya had died. The only thing that held me together was the Kyuubi and his support, funny how that worked. He told me to train, training would help ease my pain and it did; till now. Now I don't think it will be enough. He said that was what the imouto did, but I knew that was only half of it, unlike her I couldn't completely seal away my memories. I didn't have that type of power. If I wanted it, I would have to do more than the training I was doing.

Another good thing about being part Royal Demon, I guess is having control of the mind. Or was that part of her training? I forgot how she told me she got control of the mind. Anyway, I need them now; didn't they say when I need them the most they would come? Where are they now that I need them the most? That was the difference between us; they thought I was just as tough as them. That I could take just as much shit as they could. Maybe that is why they aren't here; maybe that is why they don't think I need them. Did they think that after everything they taught me I was ready for the world?

My God, the world they prepared me for wasn't as horrific as the one we live in. This is more than hell on Earth. This world is much worse, how could there be something worse than this? Yes, I am a pessimist. There are those that aren't pessimistic, that just means that they have no idea how horrifying this world of ours really can be. The really stupid people out there are those optimists. They have no idea the hell this world brings down on those that deserve it and those that don't deserve it.

I started realizing I wasn't all there when the dream I had since I was a child—being Hokage and being respected in the village—was about to come true. Baa-chan had just named me her successor as Hokage. It was then I started thinking about the past, realizing how fucked up I was. I guess that was why my secrets came out, because I was so messed up. I dropped my guard, stuff happened that shouldn't have and my secrets—the ones I have tried to hide since I was born—came out.

It all started when Baa-chan came to my apartment on a raining day—I was already distracted by memories—and she tricked me into coming to a meeting where she publicly announced I was the next Hokage…

To be Continued....

Know it was short....but please bear with me...THIS WAS THE PROLOUGE! I beleive it is supposed to be that way. Anyway please Review tell me what you think!