Back to December
by Maria Stars
I enjoyed each day we spent together
Thought everything was going beautifully
Til the day I told you, "I love you."
I thought sure you felt the same
Instead I was left wondering if you did
You left me standing there on that cold
December day.
Spring came and a vacation I planned
You asked through another to go
I knew it was you even though no mention of
Your name graced my ears.
I denied you passage to my vacation.
Deal with the pain and confusion
I could not.
Spring left and summer arrived
Happy I should've been, my favorite
Time of year was here again.
I was missing the one I love though
All the happy times we'd had
Were now gone.
Would they ever return?
I knew not nor did I know
How to stop thinking about
You.
I go back to that December day
When you left me standing there.
The wind dug its claws into me as
If to laugh at me for my folly
I go back to December whenever
I think of you, when you said goodbye
That day with your retreating back.
It hurts so much when I think of you
Did I even deserve you or was it all
Just a terrible illusion designed to
Make me think I was worthy of
Being loved?
Summer's in full swing now but
I dread the coming cold
It really looks like you're not coming back.
Days before the convention I always attend
You catch me in town
"I've been trying to reach you."
You said you'd gotten cold feet
That day and that you were sorry
Now you knew where your heart
Belonged
"I love you." You said to me.
So happy was I
We embraced then kissed
I'll never go back to December again.
THE END
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