He Remembered…
Sometimes Roxas envied Axel.
Roxas couldn't remember before he became a Nobody.
Axel could remember it all.
He remembered the deathless, shapeless, unsatiable shadow creatures.
He remembered the last stand.
He remembered the hopelessness of the last battle; the dark creatures were endless.
He remembered fighting determinedly for his world along side his blue suited comrades,
each knowing this battle would be their last.
He remembered the claws, the teeth, the tearing, the ripping.
He remembered the screaming.
He remembered the other blue suited woman, her pale hair stained as red as his own.
He remembered the cold lifeless brown eyes of his partner, face frozen in a look of
pained horror.
He remembered the warmth of his own blood as it flowed from the gash in his abdomen.
He remembered falling, failing, bleeding.
He remembered the pain, the horror, the anger, the desperation…the desire for revenge.
He remembered his last breath, the gaping hole in his chest as the black beasts clawed his
heart from his body and devoured it.
He remembered dieing, he remembered not, he remembered fighting; his will was strong. He remembered the icy cold of death.
He remembered the burning inferno of his mind pulling apart.
He remembered the suffocating struggle as his pure will clung to existence, even as his
body slipped away, turning to darkness.
Roxas couldn't remember it at all……
Axel remembered before he became a Nobody.
Sometimes Axel envied Roxas.
What is this? Is it a poem? Kind of. Is it prose? Partially. This is a really different style for me. I like how it turned out.
I like to maintain the idea that Axel was once Reno from Final Fantasy 7. Yes, I am aware that that wouldn't follow the usual name rule for the Order Nobodies, but if anyone would break that rule it would be Reno/Axel ).Reno could have always been a code name -shrug-.If you are FF7 savvy I'm sure you will know who Pale Hair and Brown Eyes are. I don't know why Tseng didn't make it into the fic. Maybe he was already dead? Iactually just didn't have room for him. heh...
I also like to maintain the idea that Axel clings to Roxas in a desperate attempt to regain the feelings and emotions he once had when he was alive (when he was Reno). Reno was full of life and emotion. Nobodies don't have feelings or emotions, but they remember having them from their previous lives. Roxas, a unique Nobody, still has a heart because Sora is still alive. Axel on the other hand, has nothing but his memories of feelings. He is nothing but an echo, a puppet pulling his own strings in attempt imitate what he can never be. Roxas's heart in Sora. Sora makes Roxas real. Axel wants Roxas as his heart. Roxas makes Axel feel real. Unfortunately for Axel, it doesn't work that way. –tear-
To me, it isn't romance, it's a last ditch attempt at existence.
So sue me. Physiological mind bending stories indulge me more than the romantic, but thats just me. )