You.
What if we were not in Seigaku together? Would we have ever known each other? We probably would have become tennis rivals and I would have never fallen in love with you.
It might have been a lot easier if we had never met…
When I first laid eyes on you, I was hooked. I wanted to know more about you, your likes, dislikes, hobbies, just everything about you. I suppose that was why I chose to stick so closely to you. Everything about you was so mysterious. You rarely smiled and you rarely showed your true potential in tennis. There was always a rigid expression on your face and your eyes full of nothing but determination.
When you accepted my challenge, I was ecstatic. Finally, I could get a real match from you; see you playing passionately for once, no need to hide behind that unapproachable façade of yours. I eagerly wanted to prove myself to you as well. I wanted to show you what I was capable of.
I'll never forget that day. Seeing you in pain made me so furious…
I was furious at you for not telling me, for not being concerned for your own wellbeing. Furious at the seniors who did that to you because they couldn't stand being inferior. But most of all, I was worried. We promised to have a rematch one day but still I couldn't help worrying about you. Perhaps that is why I was so close to you over all these years.
Tezuka Kunimitsu, everyone looks up to you and expects great things of you. People think of you as stern, rigid, someone who never shows his emotions. But they have never seen you like I have, I know that you're just as passionate as the rest of us, maybe even more so.
I could never trouble you with my feelings, I want only what is best for you and that does not include being in a relationship with me. Our kind is frowned upon in society and I couldn't bear to let you go through all that shame and humiliation. I love you far too much for that.
I'll never regret meeting you...