Rediscovering Myself

Prologue

By: Miluiel Eledhwen

Disclaimer: I own nothing you recognize, everything belongs to their respective owners.

Days, Weeks, Months passed and throughout it all I remained still but well aware of the slow continuos passage of time and yet found myself unable to comprehend my current emotional situation. For while I was aware I may have cared for them, for him, I did not love them any of them. So why? Why did I feel as I do? Why was I unable to move due to the emotional upheaval I was feeling? The only answer that came to mind was that the masking spell I was under, the one that made me appear and live as a human, sleep, eat, walk in the sun and FEEL human was somehow the cause of it all.

The spell basically enabled me to live a human life by casting what could only be described as a shell or illusion over my very being a facade if you will. While I was still me and still able to make all decisions and actions the shell would compel me to make and act in a more human way that I had stopped understanding long ago. Was the shell in love with him is that why? It was possible I suppose, but to this degree?

Sighing, the first sound to escape me for awhile, I wonder what they would say if they knew I was not as human as they thought? Would it have mattered? Would they have even cared? Maybe it would have caused them to leave sooner than they did, so many questions, with so few answers and through it all I was still unable to bring myself to move.

Another week passed without any fanfare and still I made no movement. Not to sleep, eat or talk, not even a brief flicker of the turmoil inside showing on her face, just trapped in a seemingly never ending cycle of day then night followed by day yet again.

Till one day suddenly, her faced showed both surprise fear and relief in so brief a flash that many would have missed it, she knew there would be repercussions, the spell at least would be a subject of much anger and unnerve, not to mention the fact she had fallen so hard to the shells emotional torment that she was unable to remove said spell and ended up neglecting her needs, but still soon very soon now she would be free from all of it for she had felt it, deep and swiftly moving ever closer.

He was on his way to her!