Author's Note: I know that I update very slow and that I should probably focus only in one story (namely "The Chase of the Lifetime"). But I got this idea and just can't get over it. Besides, I need to write something with short contents per chapter, cause sometimes I lose the 'feel' for the long chapter ones.
Chapter 1: Still in my mind
The memory of the day she last spent with him couldn't be any clearer. She wore a black dress that was cropped around her mid-thigh. Her hair was held in a loose half ponytail, and her bangs were hanging loosely above her powder covered forehead. He wasn't that much taller than her, so she clasped on low-heeled shoes.
But upon seeing him with his show face worn, she panicked. She had tear-sized sweat forming at the back of her neck. She shut her eyes and she couldn't remember what happened next. All she knows is that as her eyes slowly opened, his lips were already centimeters near hers. She kissed him, but it wasn't passionate, so she was ready for what's next to come.
"Rachel," he held her face with one hand, "I love you," he said. She felt wetness right above her lower eyelid. She shook her head.
"I know," she sighed, "You still love her?" her; that girl; is his ex-girlfriend.
He nodded, "She called me yesterday, and I couldn't stop myself from answering it. I'm sorry, Rach. I don't want to hurt you. I love you, but-"
"You love her more," she finished. "I get it. There's always a 'but', first with Finn, and now, you!" she removed his hand from her face, "I hope she takes you back. I hope you're happy with your life. And I will always love you."
She smiled weakly and turned her back from him. He called her name as she was walking away; thanked her and the rest of the happenings in his life, was no longer Rachel's business.
"But he loved you?" he asked.
"Who are you referring to?" Rachel licked her lips. It's been four years since she'd been in love; four years since anybody had ever asked her that question.
"That guy you last dated. What's his name? St. James?" Justin, her gay, Broadway male lead asked.
"You mean, Jesse St. James?" she corrected, "Yeah. I think he did."
He smiled, "And you love him too?"
She bit her lower lip, "Until now, I still do," she paused, "But that's it! My feeling for him stops there. I don't expect him to show up after 4 years and ask me back."
Rachel was huge; all her dreams came true, just like that! She starred in both 'Wicked' and 'Les Misérables', and is now preparing herself for her newest project, 'Spring Awakening'. She stopped school around halfway; forgotten about love and never looked back. That is, until now…
"But he's back! He's auditioning as your next male lead for you next project. You just told me you saw him around the lobby! You're not honestly not going to talk to him, right?" Justin demanded.
"Justin, as much as I want 'us' back together, we can't! He was in love with someone else. Besides, he's way too old for me, anyway." She loves him, but he doesn't feel the same.
Justin was not gay-looking, at all! He was hot, and sexy! And almost every girl passing by gives him a second glance. Too bad he's gay, or else he would've been a huge chase. But it's also a good thing that he's gay, at least he's no skirt chaser.
"But that was the past. Things could change, right?" he asked. Oh, how I wish things would change. Rachel thought.
hmm..would it change? =) Review please? Still no Puckleberry, I know, but it'll come around.