I just wanted to say that I do not own anything that has to do with Twilight. That honor is Stephenie Meyer's!! Even though I would love to own it!!

Lost in the Darkness

It seemed like forever since the last time I saw his beautiful face, his perfect lips and his topaz eyes. He left me broken and beaten. I laid in bed curled in a fetal position grabbing my chest and trying to breathe. I never could get enough oxygen into my chest. Why am I doing this to myself again? Why do I always have to think about HIM? It never really mattered to me what I was doing because I was lifeless and had no soul. He didn't want to Damn my soul….ha if only he could see me now. I didn't even feel like a human, let alone look like one.

*Beep Beep Beep

I don't even remember falling asleep. Huh…must have exhausted myself again last night. I walked into the bathroom to take a long hot shower. Looking into the mirror I saw nothing but Skeleton. My face was sunken in and black bags stood out underneath my eyes. It almost looked like my eyes were turning black themselves. I still used my favorite Strawberry Shampoo. After all the muscles in my back were relaxed I got out of the shower and went into my room. Ah my room, it was a lot different now, everything in it was practically new. I had a new bed that had a canopy over the top and if I wanted to (which I did most nights and days) I could close curtains all the way around it. It was like my own personal heaven. No light could enter into my bed and it was as if I was the only person left on the planet. I also bought myself a keyboard. Not the same as a piano but I had to hear my sweet Lullaby. I couldn't get the notes quite right but I was determined to figure it out. I had also started writing music that was mine as well. I never knew that I could be good at something. Once I dried off I walked over to the closet and got my favorite outfit. It was still really early but I figured I was hiding in my room long enough. Charlie would be waiting on me downstairs, even though we don't really talk like we use too. Charlie never wanted to look at me anymore. Its like every time he did his eyes would grow dark with fury and hurt. I think he hated Edward(wince) as much as I did. But I didn't hate him, I loved him. That's what the problem was.

"So kid you get any sleep last night?"

"A little."

"Are you doing anything after school today?"

"No."

"Bella, when are you going to hang out with some of your friends? I know they have been calling here like crazy. And you cant keep feeling sorry for yourself."

When he said those words I just walked away from him. How dare he say I was feeling sorry for myself. Its not like I wanted to feel this pain and anger. I wish it could go away. I wish something or someone could take it all away and never give it back. Its easier said then done.

I grabbed my keys and got into my rusty old pick up truck. it's the same routine every day. School, work and then home. I wish I could just graduate so I could focus all my time at work. I worked at a local radio station helping the Djs pick out different songs each hour. Music became my soulless life. It was the one thing I could turn to when I had to let out my feelings. It didn't judge me or criticize me. It just let me be me.

I pulled up to school and the parking lot was already full of cars. I saw Angela walking towards me…

"Hey Bells, how's it going?"

"Oh ya know Angela I'm perfect! Couldn't ask for a better life." she heard the sarcasm in my voice because she started to blush.

"Well I just wanted to know if maybe this weekend you wanted to come with me and Ben to a movie or something. Just hang out like we use to."

"This weekend I have to work but maybe next week sometime." I hated blowing off Angela. If it wasn't for her then I probably wouldn't talk to anyone anymore. With that answer she smiled and walked away calling over her shoulder…."Next week it is then."

Time flew by fast like it always did and before I knew it I was sitting in Biology. No one was ever assigned to sit next to me. But the memories still haunted my head. He still haunted my head. My fingers rubbed on the heart that had EMC and IMS carved in the center. I couldn't take this not today. I ran out of class sobbing hard until I collapsed on the ground.

APOV

"I'm just worried about her that's all."

"I told you Alice stop looking in to her future!"

"I'm not looking at anything Edward, its not my fault that I see her every time I close my eyes and have a vision. All I'm saying is she isn't doing good at all, and I thought you would want to know."

Edwards moods have really gotten to me lately. Ever since he left Bella in the woods crying for hours he hasn't been the same. Actually come to think of it, none of us have been the same. Its like when we left her everyone became distant from one another. Even Rosalie. And she never liked Bella. Jasper never wanted to be home because every time he was around any of us he felt the blackness take over our emotions. No one wanted to listen to me when I was telling them that Bella doesn't look so good. Leaving her didn't do anyone of us any bit of good.

"Ow!"

"Alice what's wrong?" Carlisle asked

I was on the ground holding my head in my hand staring at nothing. She vanished from my mind. I started whispering now…

"I cant see her anymore."

"Cant see who Alice?"

"Bella, she's she's NOOOO!"

Sorry about the cliffhangers guys!!! I wanted you to come back for more!! Tell me what you think…or ask me any questions you want to know. I will update ASAP! I would love some reviews and feedback. Thanks so much.