Please give it a change read it gets better in chapter 3 I promise!!!! I just sucked really really bad in the beginning!!! Just read it through PLEASE!!!!! I know it sucks this chapter and in the next one but chapter 3 is much better!
Author's note! I know these are annoying but please read anyways. This just kinda came to mind it's inspired by my friend lissa, and no this is not what I'm like... haha First step to recover is admiting your problem my problem would be an addiction to peanut butter... anyways back to my sorty I get easily distracted. hehe so well I'm not sure if it will be a story or just a one shot... well I think it depends on how many reviews I get.
Disclaimer!!!!!! I... *sniffle*... sadly... *dabs at eyes*... don't.... *cry*... own.... *runs to stephenie meyer to beg for*... TWILIGHT!!!!!!!
bit dramatic isn't it well you can thank my drama queen friend Marissa for that one... She wrote it at the top of my paper in english...
I woke up from my nightmare about my mother. I must have fallen asleep while reading after coming home from school. I was still so confused about Edward. On one hand, he seemed to like me. He smiled and today when he talked to me he seemed really nice but I still couldn't forget how he reacted that first day of school. I tried to calm myself down before going down to greet Charlie. I had heard his car pull into the driveways just moments ago. After making Charlie his dinner I said good night and headed to get ready for bed. I slowly made my way up the stairs and into my room. I quickly grabbed my bag of toiletries, and the old grey sweats I always slept in. Once in the bathroom I locked the door and got undressed for a quick shower. I turned on the water to a nice temp not to hot but not to cool, and stepped in. After getting dressed in my sweats I dried and brushed my hair, and burshed my teeth. I was still thinking about my nightmare I couldn't get the picture of my mother out of my head. I reached into my bag and grabbed one of the most comforting things I had. I unwrapped the small amount of gauze and grabbed one of my razors. Tears had formed and started falling while I had been thinking I angerly whipped them away. I sat down in the corner of the bathroom so as to not fall when the scent hit me. I held the razor next to the most recent scar and pushed lightly. I slow dragged it across my wrist. Setting the razor down next to me, I focused on the small blood droplets forming where I had drawn the razor. Slow the amount of blood increases and started running down my arm and onto the leg I had layed my arm on. The blood flowing down my arm reminded me of my memories I tried to imagine the memories and hurt flowing away with my boold. I sat there thinking about everything that had happened then concentrated on my sweet release.(Song is Angel by Sarah McLachlan you should really listen along it's how I intended the story to be read)
Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it okay
There s always one reason
To feel not good enough
And it s hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
Oh beautiful release
Memory seeps from my veins
Let me be empty
And weightless and maybe
I ll find some peace tonight
In the arms of an angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You re in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort there
So tired of the straight line
And everywhere you turn
There s vultures and thieves at your back
And the storm keeps on twisting
You keep on building the lie
That you make up for all that you lack
It don t make no difference
Escaping one last time
It s easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
This glorious sadness that brings me to my knees
In the arms of an angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You re in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort there
You re in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here
After it started to slow down I got up and put a band-aid on. After making sure my sleeve covered up my arms I wrapped the razor in th gauze and replaced it into the bag. I quickly gathered up everything, ulocked the door and headed back to my room. I feel asleep quickly.
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