Damned If I Do

Summary: "All discarded lovers should be given a second chance...with someone else" and that's exactly what he did after she 'betrayed' him. But is her sudden change of heart something to worry about? Especially when he's married?

Nothing is so exhausting

as indecision, and nothing

so futile.

-Bertrand Russell

Tomoyo frowned slightly as she watched her friend prance around pulling dress after dress out of her closet, she was deeply bothered but it wasn't for the reason one would think of. "Do you really think it's alright for you to go out with his cousin? You know how he feels about you."

The auburn-haired girl stopped dead in her tracks.

Tomoyo knew this was her only chance to stop this disaster from happening, she continued on. "I didn't say anything before when you didn't know they were his friends, but this is his cousin we're talking about here" she attempted to get her point across to her friend.

"It's fine, I'm sure he understands, he's not the type to stand in the way of people's lives, especially mine. And about that liking me thing, we already came to an understanding about that" Sakura exasperated.

This took Tomoyo by surprised.

"What? You guys talked about it? What'd he say? He's ok with it being one-sided?" she exclaimed.

"….."

"What's with the pause? Did he or did he not understand?"

"Well….when I say we came to an understanding it was more like a silent understanding. You can tell by the look in his eyes you know, it's all in the eyes" Sakura gestured to her eyes with a goofy grin on her face.

Tomoyo could feel the anger slowly emitting from her head, it was spreading quickly.

She could now feel it at the tip of her toes.

Forcing herself to take a deep breath, she gritted out "don't regret it when he finally decides to retaliate". Not wanting to start a childish banter with her best friend she grabbed her jacket and walked out of Sakura's room leaving the girl utterly speechless having not known what had suddenly gotten into her friend.

"Whatever the case he won't do anything, it's been weeks since he's known about his and he hasn't done anything, why would he do anything now" she whispered to no one in particular.

As Sakura got dressed for her date, the words Tomoyo said continued to vibrate within her mind and refused to leave her alone.

"We're friends and nothing more, he knows that" she said aloud.

5 minutes later.

Maybe I should call it off; maybe going out on a date with his cousin is a bit too much of me. "I should call and cancel then" Sakura started towards her cellphone.

Wait why should I cancel, it's not like we're getting married; it's a date for heaven's sake. Putting her phone down she began to work on her makeup.

Conversations with herself continued for the next hour as Sakura debated whether or not to go.

Brrrrh. Brrrh. Brrrh. Her cell phone vibrated, it was time and there was no turning back now. It's rude to cancel this late. It was a last ditch effort to get herself out the door.

"I'm here" a deep voice resounded from the other end of the speaker.

"Alright, wait a minute, I'm coming out now" she answered.

Sakura wasn't excited about this date anymore, "Tomoyo and her sense-making lecture" she grumbled. Either way she was going and that's that.

Grabbing her purse she headed towards the door. By the time she got to the shoe cupboard, her feelings of…..well whatever it was, it was starting to bubble up from her stomach.

Butterflies…. She thought.

She pulled her black heels from the cupboard near the door.

He sat on the porch and pulled on his sneakers.

Lipstick, check. Makeup, wipes check. Eyeliner, check. Phone, check. Keys check. Wallet, check.

Phone, check. Tickets, check. Wallet, check. Passport, check.

Locking the door from the inside, she stepped out onto the brightly lit porch. Taking a moment to make sure the door was locked she bounded for the waiting car.

Leaving the keys on the table, he briefly glanced at the photos scattered on the coffee table. They were memories he decided he could live without. With one last look into his apartment, he pulled on his bag, grabbed his luggage and headed for the waiting cab.

Disclaimer: We all know I don't own CCS; my best drawings are made of sticks.

A/N: Hi guys, thanks to those who decided to review, please leave me some nice feedback. The last couple of lines was supposed to be really dramatic as they mirror each other's actions, well she towards something a bit happier than him.

Ecobeans (^_^)