1A/N - Song fic Wonderful by Everclear.
'Thoughts'
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Not so wonderful
Wonderful, isn't it wonderful now
Richie sat quietly on the roof of an old apartment. He didn't know how long he had been there, though he guessed it was more than two hours judging by the setting sun. He should go home, he knew that, but it was easier said than done...
I close my eyes when I get too sad
I think thoughts that I know are bad
Close my eyes and I count to ten
Hope it's over when I open them
'All they do is argue, ever since...' Richie's thoughts were interrupted, as his best friend landed next to him.
"What's up Rich? I've been trying to reach you for hours, I was starting to get worried. I mean you even ditched out on your last three classes..."
"Nothing...just thinking, I guess..." Richie sub-consciously rubbed his left arm, his right hand drifting over a rather nasty bluish bruise that his father had given him yesterday.
"Richie..."
I want the things that I had before
Like a Star Wars poster on my bedroom door
I wish I could count to ten
And make everything be wonderful again
"It's nothing V..." Another lie. That's all it was anymore, every single answer for every single question...at least that's how it felt to Richie...and he hated it.
"It is not nothing, man." Virgil watched his friend stare at the sun, never before had Richie's eyes seemed so lifeless. "Please tell me Bro."
"What is there to tell V." Richie didn't know if he really wanted to talk about it or not.
I hope my mom and I hope my dad
Will figure out why they get so mad
I hear them scream, I hear them fight
They say bad words that makes me want to cry
"Tell how it started."
"... Dad... lost his job, and Mom can't work cause of her back...things are just...stressful..." Richie's gaze lowered, he wanted to tell Virgil everything, but he couldn't bring himself to. Virgil, his best friend, his partner, his bro...and he couldn't even bring himself to tell V that his dad started drinking...started coming home drunk...started hitting...punching...screaming...hurting...
Virgil watched, he knew something was wrong, and he was pretty sure he knew what it was too.
Close my eyes when I go to bed and I
Dream of angels who make me smile
I feel better when I hear them say that
Everything will be wonderful some day
"Richie, you know you can tell me anything...I can help...but only if you let me." Even if you don't I'm going to try. Slowly Virgil sat down next to Richie.
Promises mean everything
When you're little and the world is so big
I just don't understand how
You can smile with all those tears in your eyes
When you tell me everything is wonderful now
Richie glanced at Virgil for a second then looked back down, well here it goes. "Dad...he's depressed..." Failure. 'I can't even say it, dad is right I am a complete failure...'
"Just depressed, Bro, or is it something else?"
Na na nana........
Please don't tell me everthing is wonderful now
The blond squirmed under the others knowing gaze. "Sorta...he just gets mad...I guess..." 'Mad at Mom for not working, and mad at me for just about everything.'
I go to school and I run and play
I tell the kids that it's all ok
I have to laugh so my friends wont know
When the bell rings I just don't want to go home
"Does... does he hurt...you or your mom?" Virgil prepared himself for a punch to the face, but it didn't come. Instead he heard a soft cry.
Go to my room and I close my eyes
I make believe that I have a new life
I don't believe you when you say that
Everything will be wonderful some day
Richie couldn't help it, almost three months of holding it in, keeping quiet, it felt like he broke. "He...He...doesn't...mean it" The tears were flowing now.
Promises mean everything
When you're little and the world is so big (so big)
I just don't understand how
You can smile with all those tears in your eyes
When you tell me everything is wonderful now
Virgil looked at his broken friend, "I know...we'll get him help...all of you..." He oddly placed a hand on Richie's shoulder. "We'll go to my dad, k Bro? He'll know exactly how to help."
Na na nana........
No. No. I don't want to hear you tell me everything is wonderful now.
No. No. I don't want to hear you tell me everything is wonderful now.
I don't want to hear you say that I will understand some day
Never before had the nick name Bro meant so much to Richie. Virgil was his Brother, and the closest family he has...
No. No. No. No.
I don't want to hear you say that you both have grown in a different way
"Thanks...V..." The tears were stopping slowly.
No. No. No.
No I don't want to meet your friend
I don't want to start over again
I just want my life to be the same
Just like it used to be
Somedays, I hate everything
I hate everything
Everyone and everything
"No problem. Come on lets get to my house, you can stay for dinner and we can talk to my dad." Virgil gave his best friend a small smile.
Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now.
Na na nana....
No. Please I don't want to hear you tell me everything is wonderful now...
No. Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now..
Na nana..
"Yeah." Richie gave one back.
Everything is wonderful now...
~End~