Don't leave, is what you're thinking. For the first time in months you feel amazing because she's in your arms. And she's giving you a goodbye kiss. Why? Is this going to be the last time? You hate goodbyes with her. Because you're always scared its forever. You wouldn't even be surprised. You fight all the time. One week you're friends and the next she's not talking to you. You just want as much time as you can have with her. She's graduating in 6 months. You'll never see her again, you know it. She'll meet another girl and actually want to be in a relationship with her. She doesn't even want you, so what are you doing? Why are you hanging around? Why do you call her? Fuck! Why does she even call you? Just why? Give the world and your friends a reason why you're hurting yourself. Because they don't have one.