Farewell…

Part one:

Dear Sesshomaru,

The time has come for me to leave. This is hard for me to do, but I must leave before I go mad with loneliness. I loved you the moment I met you. You were the perfect demon, but your only flaw was to hide your emotions. I thought it was because you were shy, but as time went on you rarely spoke to me. You denied me the entrance to your heart, to love you. Now a year has past since we have lived together and my heart has slowly become a stone like yours. I can no longer stand this pain of you keeping me away. So now I've decided to go away permanently. If I stay I will have nothing to care for. (You) I must leave…now. Good-bye Sesshomaru. You broke my heart, like the Shikon no Tama. I'll always love you and no one will ever replace you.

Loving you with a broken heart,

Ansonia Lucre

Ansonia picked up her belongings and walked out of Sesshomaru's castle heading back to her own time.

All day long Sesshomaru had been out. It has been four hours since she had left when he returned. She had left her letter in his room. He had barely reached his castle when he sensed that something was wrong. "Her scent…it's gone." H e quickly ran to the entrance of his castle and opened the door. The castle was dark and silent. Everything looked the same, but there was something amiss. He walked around looking for her scent. 'Where is she?' He couldn't seem to find a trace of a scent that belonged to her. Soon he summoned all of his servants and questioned them, whether they had seen her. No one had seen her all day long, no one, but Jaken. "My Lord, I saw her crying this morning before you left. Then she went to your room and that's the last I saw of her." Sesshomaru nodded and left, heading toward his room. 'She was crying, but why?' He had reached for the door, not sure of what he would feel once he was seen. Very slowly he pulled the door opened……

……the room was dark and quiet. 'Maybe she's asleep.' He walked toward his bed and found no one was in it, but instead he found a paper neatly folded. He carefully reached for it. The letter was addressed to him. With shaky fingers he unfolded it. 'It's her handwriting.' The words were blotchy here and there as he read. "She's been crying because of me." He dropped the paper he was holding and stood still, very still. He was looking into the distance, as if searching for her, hoping to see her. Slowly tears began to flow freely down his smooth pale cheeks. "I broke her heart."

Sesshomaru stood there for what seemed like an eternity. 'This can't be true. Surely it must be a joke.' He walked to a nearby wooden drawer that belonged to Ansonia. He opened it and found it empty. Then he opened the next and the next, they were all empty, except for the last one. Inside was a white and red kimono he had given her on her birthday. He slowly lifted it up and hugged it close to his chest. 'You can't leave I love you.'

It has been five hours since she had left. Of those five hours she had been waiting for Sesshomaru to come and get her. "Surely he must love me, even a little, to come and get me." Ansonia was back at her own time in her apartment lying down on her bed. "Sesshomaru please come…please." Tears began to form, but she wouldn't cry. 'If he doesn't come I won't cry. I won't shed a tear for him, if he doesn't come.' But deep down, her heart was breaking into smaller pieces………

……..three days has past………….

Sesshomaru had spent the last three days locked up in his room, debating whether he should go after her. "What if she rejects me? No! She can't…she wouldn't. I'm going after her!" Wiping away his tears, he gets up in search of his beloved Ansonia.

Sesshomaru strode outside of his land, where he stopped before a waterfall. This was the gateway between his world and Ansonia's world. Without a second thought he walked through the waterfall.Ahead of him shone a bright blue light. He then steps into the light and is embraced in the warm light, as he travels to the future. Within a blink of an eye he has arrived. The wind blows at his hair causing it to sway. The wind is cool as it caresses his slightly pink cheeks. With such speed he heads toward Ansonia's apartment, knowing that she would be there waiting for him. In what would take an hour for a mortal to walk, it took him ten minutes.

There he stood right near her room. With shaky hands, he pushed her door opened. As the door opened her scent over flooded the air he breathed, but her scent was different from before. There was a hint of …death. Sesshomaru's heart beat quickened as he ran to the side of her bed. There she was lying down wasting away. "You came for me." Her voice was barely more than a whisper. She had been lying on her bed for the past three days waiting for his return. Not once had she gotten up. Because of her broken heart, she had lost her appetite and had grown weak. Now she's near death. For three days she had waited for this moment, when he would come for her. "You came…now I can cry…" Tears started to flow down her cheeks. She was too weak to sob so she cried silently.

Sesshomaru sat beside her and gently lifted her into his arms. "Yes, I came for you." She was so weak that he thought she would break if he hugged her too tightly. "Hug me tight, Sesshomaru and don't ever let go." Sesshomaru couldn't bear to hear her voice so weak and cheerless. He did as she asked him to. He hugged her as tightly as he could without hurting her as tears trickled down his cheeks. She hugged him with all her might. "Sesshomaru…I love you…and I'll always love you…never forget me…I'm glad you came…" Slowly her body went limp in his arms as the life in her was slipping away. Sesshomaru lifted her up and gently shook her. "Ansonia…wake up…wake up…" Her heat was leaving her body. She wasn't waking up. More tears flowed down his cheeks. "Ansonia, don't leave me! I love you!"

She was dead and he couldn't do anything for her. He held her in his arms for the last time in his life and for the first time he felt the loss of a loved one. Never would he have thought to feel this way for someone, but now that she was gone, he felt his heart break. He loved her so much that he rejected the thought in the beginning. Now that she was gone, his feelings surfaced, only to be too late to save it and her.

He lifted her now cold body and walked toward a small window that was near her bed. With slow steps he jumped out and headed toward the waterfall. Once back at his castle he washed and cleaned her body. Dressed her up in the kimono he had given her and laid her on his bed. He left the room and went outside. The full moon was out and it illuminated his way to a small clearing. There stood Jaken and next to him was a stone slab. "My Lord it is ready." Sesshomaru nodded and sent Jaken away. 'I would prefer to be alone with her.' On top of the slab was a medium sized crystal clear casket.

He returned to his room and took Ansonia's body with him outside to where the crystal casket lay. Opening it he placed her in it and closed it. "May your soul rest in peace, for I could not love you the way you deserved to be loved"

The End,

Of part one.