This is my first fanfic. I can't help not to write after my fave show Chuck ended. It felt like something inside me died too. Call it courage or just plain 'chuck withdrawals' but the point is I took at shot at writing. English isn't my native language so I hope you'll excuse my grammar. The story begins after what happened on the beach. Full of #Charah. I don't own Chuck.

P.S. - "Happily ever afters" are not my cup of tea...(:

But don't judge the 1st chapter by it's ending.

Chuck is Her Home

Chuck watched Sarah leave. Not that he is expecting it. In fact it breaks his heart to know that Sarah is willing to trust him but doesn't want to stay. He told her their story and gave her the magical kissed but it didn't end the way he hoped for. When she stood signaling to walk away he didn't bother to ask or beg her to stay. He knew better than to ask even when he knew how miserable his life would turn out to be. He loves her that much. So he did what he knew best. What would make Sarah happy at least for now. He let her go.

Driving away in her Porsche feels so tormenting yet so compelling. She doesn't understand why she's feeling this. Looking into the rearview mirror she sees him. She sees him having that forlorn look. It seems he wanted to say something but he knew better not to. She doesn't understand why it hurts but all she knew is to get away as fast as she could. After he told her their story and after the kiss, she knew she could trust him but she couldn't stay. This feeling that she has for him to which she can't understand is dangerous. Dangerous for Sarah Walker. So she did what she knew best. She walked away.

After four months….

Missions after missions have helped her remember little important events of her life with Chuck for the past five years. She remembers their first date. She remembers their first kiss. She remembers their time in Bartows. She remembers the first time they made love. She remembers their favorite song. She remembers their wedding vows. She remembers their dream house and the family that they were going to raise together. Most of all She remembers him. She remembers her Chuck. She may forget some of the details of their lives but she has all the important once back. So now here she is. Standing in front of Casa Bartowski's fountain. She smiles at the memory of him telling her she could never be normal. Maybe she is but now she knew better. She may not be completely the Sarah Bartowski he fell in love with but in time she will as long as he will have her once again.

She hopes he is here. She hopes he is still waiting for her as what he promised on the beach. She hopes that he understands her for leaving. After all, her memories are mostly back. She is almost back. Back to her Home. Back to her Chuck.

And with a slight hesitation she knocks on the door hoping he is on the other side. After a few knocks and still there came no answer. Maybe he is at the Buy More or maybe down in Castle she thinks. Slowly she hears the sound of door opened in another apartment and Morgan came out.

Morgan knew that this day would come. A day will she be back for his best friend. He knew in time that her memories will be back and she will come home to her Chuck. Morgan has always rehearsed the words he is going to tell her about her Chuck. He practiced it every single day after he said goodbye to his best friend. He thought he was ready for this moment to tell her everything that has happened but seeing Sarah standing in front isn't what he has imagined it to be. So he did what he mastered all this time. He walked closer to her and told her the words she has the right to hear.

Three words and it hit Sarah like a bullet pierced deeply in her chest. Three words and she knew that her life will never be the same. Three words and she didn't know where to start. Three words and all she can think is Sarah Walker the spy not Sarah Bartowski the wife. Three words and she is losing it. Three words and as if her world falls apart. Three words and still she couldn't understand why. All it took was three words for her Chuck to have said "I love you" to bring meaning into her life but it also took simple painful three words from his best friend that her life, her home, her future and her "Chuck (had) passed away."

What can you say about my first write up? Please review... Anything good or bad..i'll take them in.. Thank you...2nd chapter is next..