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Chapter 1

The Sacrifice

From manga Rumiko Takahashi chapter 472 to 474 (KAO)

Right before Inuyasha cut off kao's head, one of the tendrils went through Inuyasha's chest causing the wounds to bleed greatly. Kagome was stunned after kao's head falls to the ground and his body begins to turn to dust.

Inuyasha arm on his chest looking painful and started to fall to the ground.

"Inuyasha!!" Kagome grabbed Inuyasha's sleeve and started to shake him up.

Not long after that, the gang arrived.

Miroku carried Inuyasha on his back while Kagome, Sango and Shippo ride on Kirara's back. They went back to Kaede's village. Everyone was quiet knowing that this was probably the worst wounds that Inuyasha ever had.

Back in Kaede's hut, Kagome was sitting next to Kaede who was preparing some herbs, while Sango looks worried on Inuyasha who was still unconscious since they got him back.

"Hm….I don't think this herbs is not going to help much but at least it slows down the poison." Kaide put more herbs on Inuyasha chest looking worriedly on Inuyasha.

"Is there anything that we can do? That herbs were from Jinenji, it should work." Kagome voice was shaking and tears pooling on her eyes.

"My father said that there were supposed to be somekind of way to clear the poison but he never really gets into it. It was said that it might be too dangerous to perform it." Sango put her hand on Kagome's shoulder trying to soothe her.

"We must not give up, Kaede maybe you know something. Whatever it is we have to try." Miroku said while holding Shippo who was now cry even harder.

"Inuyasha, baka!" Shippo wailing out loud.

"Miroku, can you please get some water. Take Shippo with you, please." Kaede sighed then took a sit besides kagome. Sango, Kaede and Kagome were watching Miroku took Shippo out.

"This is not going to be easy, kagome. You see this method were rarely used because it would be very dangerous for the other person who will purify the poison. That's why only someone with a very powerful spiritual power and pure heart can perform this method. Besides with the culture that we have it was almost impossible to perform." Kaede took Kagome hands and hold it.

"What is it, kaede? I would do everything for Inuyasha." Kagome asked pleadingly, she was almost closed to break down and cry.

"I know you would, that's why I am telling you this." Kaede took a deep breath.

"You have to ehm…joined with Inuyasha." Now everyone in the room was red, and amazing to think that even Kaede would blush.

"That's the only way. Well, basically your body will take the poison and purified it. During that time you must not loose yourself emotionally because that poison feed on any pain and sorrow. There's not many of this method was used that's why what will happen if they can not sustain their emotion it's really are unknown, except it might counter attack the savior."

"I will do it." Kagome closed her eyes. Kagome remembered the tears of blood that was flowing from Inuyasha's cheek after Kao's attack. After all Inuyasha still loves Kikyou. There's no room for me in his heart. He might hate me after that or even think that I am…But I can not let him die…

"Is that the only way?" Sango is now hugging Kagome. Kagome, you're so brave

"I am afraid so and if it is not done immediately, I don't think Inuyasha will be able to hold it much longer. If he is a human, he might have been gone that very moment he was attacked." Kaede shakes her head and put her hand on Kagome;s head "For some reason, I have faith that you can save him."

"If you are ready, we can ask Houshi Sama to bless you two and later on do a more formal ceremony. I'll go get Houshi Sama." Sango wipes her tears and stood up.

"Wait, Sango. It's Ok. I don't need….If Inuyasha decided to take me as his wife, than we can do it later. I don't want him feel being forced to do something that he doesn't want. Besides I want him to be awake when he said the word" Kagome look at Sango then Kaede and smiled, "I'll be fine, don't worry."

Then suddenly she was left with Inuyasha. She started to feel shaky and confused. What should I do? Noting has prepared me for this. Kagome sighed and started to take off Inuyasha's clothes. Her hand was shaky and she closed her eyes when she pulled down his hakama. She was sitting besides Inuyasha and cradling his head on her lap. Now, what should I do? Aah…

"Kikyou…." Inuyasha was talking in his sleep suddenly he pulled Kagome and stared at her. His eyes show nothing except pain. He thought I am Kikyou…

Kagome's eyes widened when Inuyasha pulled her head toward him and kiss her lips. Kagome felt anxious when she felt Inuyasha became aggressive. He ripped her clothes and straddled her causing Kagome to wrinkle her face. "Inuyasha…." She sighed when Inuyasha kissed her passionately. Inuyasha started to stroke her body while from his look Kagome knew he wasn't aware what he was doing.

Slowly Inuyasha face was transforming to full youkai form with red blazing eyes and the stripe on his cheeks. He looks so lost that made Kagome squeezed her eyes shut trying to reason herself that Inuyasha wil be alright.

"Kikyou..Kikyou…" Inuyasha mumbled right before he plunged into Kagome. Kagome stared at Inuyasha couldn't believe how bad it feel. It hurt, not only her whole body but it felt her heart was ripped out.

He thought I was Kikyo, It was never me…. He is doing all this to me yet his thought was only Kikyou…

Meanwhile in Inuyasha's mind he saw Kikyou. Kikyou… She was hugging him and asking him to stay with her but suddenly he saw an image. He couldn't really tell at first but somehow he heard a voice, so gentle, so familiar. Kagome…that's right Kagome. Who has always stands beside him no matter what; she has been the one that always been there for him, always…..My Kagome.

He tried to open his eyes and saw that Kagome was underneath him and looked in pain. Her eyes were closed tightly and there were tears.

"What have I done?" Inuyasha pulled his self out and saw he was naked while Kagome's clothes were ripped to barely anything left. He couldn't remember anything accept there were poisonous vines from kao's went through his chest. He felt disoriented and pull his haori to cover Kagome's body. He tried to ignore the pain in his heart when he noticed there were bloods on Kagome's thigh. I dishonor her, the only person that has meant so much to me. How am I ever faced her again…

Will you ever forgive me?

He put Kagome's head on his lap after putting on his hakama. Wiping off the tears on her cheek, he felt like crying him self. He wanted to run, too ashamed to face Kagome but he knew he has to stay, to apologize, to make things right again even though it seems impossible. After seeing Kagome like this, he suddenly realized how much this girl had become part of his life, his every breath and how she really meant to him.